Who knew working out and eating sensible portions would work… would even make you feel better? UGH. I get so frustrated with myself. Last night I was bad… again. I had a mini chocolate donut. And another. And another. 10 points later I was so MAD at myself. The hubby had to work all night and we had movie night. They begged and begged for our fav mini chocolate donuts, and I finally gave in. Why punish them because I have no control and am chubby? They are just little, skinny kids who love chocolate donuts and only get them on movie nights. Yeah, well cocky me thought I’d be fine with the carrots and popcorn. Ha! I messaged the hubby to confess and alleviate some of my torcherous guilt and he suggested hopping on the treadmill, which would have been a good idea if I didn’t have three lil men nestled around me enjoying their mommy time. So, I am not gonna keep beating myself up about it. It’s not worth it. I am just going to move on and know that if I do not lose this week or even *gasp* gain again, I will know it is because I can’t take just one bite. Not of chocolate anyway. Why do I feel so greedy when it comes to food, like I have to hurry and eat it all? It’s not like we are broke and can’t afford groceries or something (although with three growing boys that could become an issue in the near future). I need to keep my eyes on the prize. Like good ole Axl Rose said ” you can taste the bright lights, but you won’t get them for free.” True dat, Axl, true dat.

I spent my hour on the treadmill this morning, and just to reinforce my no chocolate donut stance, I made myself hike uphill. Oh can I just tell you that 4.2 at a 4.0 incline is a bitch after about 10 minutes!!! Yeah, I will definitely pass on the trans fat infested nastiness that is mini donut next time. And oddly enough, I did my body test on wii fit and I weigh the least I have ever weighed on there. I only have 1.1 pound til Overweight! w00t! Guess we’ll see come weigh in Wednesday for sure.

I’m off to shower and head out to my baby’s 1st soccer game of the season! Go Black Hawks!!!

Hope you chickies are having a great weekend!

Oh, wait… one more thing. I was reading Shape magazine and they had a back workout with a “real life mom model.” In her little what I do to stay in shape box she said she runs 3 miles a … get this… wait for it… WEEK! This tiny little twig runs a whopping 3 miles a freaking week to stay in her 102 (maybe!) pound glory. Like I want to read that shit!!! At least pick someone who runs 3 days a week. Not a once a weekend little jog. Jeez, I do that almost 6 times in a week. Stupid magazine and stupid skinny people who don’t have to try. Grrrrrrrrr

Okay, now I’m done. :)