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Thursday:

6/6/13

Well, again, it’s been a while. I really don’t know where to start, or what to write. lol. I’ve started a new workout program that I’ve read rave reviews about. It’s called Callanetics. For those that don’t know, it’s a little like pilates mixed with barre workouts. You do these tiny, precise pulsing movements that’s supposed to firm you up. I like it so far. Ir promises very fast results without stressing the body or even breaking a sweat, but we’ll see.

As for driving, I haven’t done that anymore. Surprise, surprise, right? Ha. Not really. My parents actually took my rusted piece of junk off to be “junked”. At least I got some of the money. They were junking all of their unused vehicles, because Dad got laid off for a bit, and they were complaining that they’re poor. Oh, yeah right. If you can afford groceries every week, and if my bratty brother doesn’t have to change his eating habits, then you’re not poor. I’m poor. Get it right.

A couple of months back, my parents were actually having the land logged. I felt so sick the entire time. If any reading this know me then you know I’m a very big nature person. Just hearing the cutting and crashing and falling of my beloved trees was enough to put me into a depression, and it did. Thankfully, they didn’t take many, and left my beautiful span of woods by my house almost untouched. I kept praying and praying for this to stop, and it finally did. I felt so relieved.

About the fanilows, yeah … they’re kind of crazy. lol. There’s this one that keeps making me read horribly-written disgusting erotica. I don’t like that genre, anyway, but badly-written erotica is the worst! And she actually thinks she can really send this to the man, himself, and that he won’t find it incredibly creepy and weird? Ha, again.

There was one fanilow I got pretty close with, talking-wise. She was really nice, and for a little while, she served as a nice best-friend replacer, but then she just stopped talking to me, or made petty excuses when I IMed her, so I deleted her. Whatever.

Weight-wise, I gained everything I lost from running after my foot was injured. It’s completely healed now, but I have arthritis, and it acts up if I’m on my feet for too long, or if the weather is bad. I started again at 227, about, and now I’m around 219. I haven’t been eating much, because we haven’t gotten groceries yet. We’re going to buy mostly vegan food this time, because we’re tired of feeling tired and run-down. I also want to continue intermittent fasting, because it seems to work for me.

Writing, I’ve mostly been working on turning my short story Satine into a novel. If anyone remembers, this was the story that Mr. Piers Anthony commented on. The first chapter is on untiedshoelacesofthemind.com under the name “Satine” if anyone wants to read it. I’ll have to buy it back if ever I finish writing the complete story. I have close to 30k on it so far. It’s fast-paced and a lot more exciting in terms of adventure than most of my stories. With my dark fantasy/romance story, the excitement is more in terms of drama in a soap-opera style, but this one actually involves fighting, escaping prisons, and lots of other dangerous things. It’s pretty fun to write, and my husband likes it too!

My aunt (mom’s sister) finally joined that “social network site”, so I can keep in touch with her more. She barely talks, though. A while back, she mentioned that it would be easy for her to write a story and sell it. It really annoys me how everyone thinks story-writing is so easy. They don’t take into account all the brainstorming and grammar and story structure you have to do in order to make a good, consistent story. My dad is bad about this. He constantly throws out, “It’s just lying!” and that anybody can do it. Just because he wrote two stories when trying to get his GED, he thinks he knows everything. I bet he couldn’t expand those stories into novels. I’d like to see him try.

My brother ticked me off last night. We brought a netflix DVD over, and my mom and brother didn’t get around to watching it until it was dark. And we didn’t bring a flashlight, but whatever. The annoying thing was that my brother kept teasing me about driving me to my house. He wouldn’t stop! And he was acting like my parents were actually teaching him to drive, and that he would learn before me (which is probably true, because my parents just adore the little prince, so of course he would get something like that). ::sigh::

I’ve recently joined Childfree groups. For a while I’ve known that I’m not fit to be a parent, and I don’t want to be. I really can’t stand to be around children, I have no maternal instinct, and I’m VERY selfish and self-absorbed. Thankfully, my husband feels the same. I’m very grateful for that. Not everyone is cut out to parent, and especially with our resources constantly being leeched, more people should choose to not breed. It’s actually a very selfless and responsible thing to do (no offense to parents out there, of course).

I think, in part, feeling the way I do about my parents and brother made me this way. Oh, and I had a giant, giant epiphany not too long ago about my brother and mother’s relationship. I understand, now, why he is so spoiled and babied, and it’s not just because he was the last-born, or because my mom had problems while pregnant. It’s because my mom thinks he looks like her father. You see, her father died while she was still in that parent-worshiping phase. He was a green berate (however you spell it), and had this very hard life that made him die while she was still a young kid. Every time my mom talks about her father, her face lights up, like she’s talking about some veteran war hero, and not a semi-abusive drunkard.

That’s the thing about death, I guess, no matter what kind of person you were, you become a sort of saint in people’s eyes, even (and especially) if your death was traumatic or from suicide, but that’s a completely different subject altogether.

I guess I’m done here. I’ll try to post again soon.

June 5th, 2013 at 11:20 pm | Comments & Trackbacks (0) | Permalink

7/24/12

Tuesday:

Wow, it’s certainly been a while since I’ve visited this blog. LOL. I’m so bad about keeping this thing going, but at least I come here off and on, I guess. I could just completely abandon it for good.:P

Anyway, I believe my foot is FINALLY healed. Hallelujah! I’m slowly easing back into running. I do a 8-9 minute warm-up walk, get to the hill up the road, and run for a whole minute, and then I do 30 seconds of running for every 30 seconds of walking, take a 1 minute walking break, and keep doing this until I’ve ran 4 minutes. Then I walk until I reach 30 minutes altogether. I know I could probably do more, but I’m afraid of overdoing it. I’ve thought I was healed before and reinjured myself several times, but this time seems different (hopefully). I’m only going about 2-4 times a week.

Food-wise, we’ve been mostly vegetarian for a couple weeks, and I think we’re going to keep doing it. I feel a bit better, and not so run down, but I’m not going to be strict about it. I’m still going to have the fresh venison my dad gets in the winter, and have occasional meat meals as treats. I’ve cut down some on junk food, but not everything. I’m trying, though, and I do feel a bit better. I’m not craving food nearly as much as before.

I’ve become interested in natural remedies and herbology. I’ve been using a honey/lemon juice mask on my face, and it’s made my skin rather luminous and a lot softer than it was. I’m also using baking soda and apple cider vinegar to wash my hair, and it seems to be working okay. I want to make my own soap, but it’s expensive to get started. I’ll do it eventually, though.

I have a small garden on my back porch that’s doing okay. It’s my first time gardening on my own. I’ve also gotten into sprouting alfalfa (which my husband loves) and making paper beads. I just need to get something to string them together with.

Oh, and I’ve recently found the solution to a bunch of my problems. BARRY MANILOW! Yes, you heard me right. Barry Manilow. His music REALLY relaxes me, makes me feel so much better, and I’ve made a lot of friends by joining several Fanilow groups on “that social network site”. Now I have a lot of people to talk to, and I’m not quite as bored or lonely as before, and then I have lots of beautiful songs to listen to, and they’ve been inspiring me to write more. This isn’t the same story I was having inspiration on earlier. This is a different one, but like I said … just rolling with whatever wants to be written. :P This story is influenced a lot by my high school days (not the fantasy parts, of course), so it’s been easy to write. I’m almost up to a 30k word count. Not bad.

Anyway, back to what I was saying about Barry’s music helping me, I’ve also noticed that when I get depressed here lately that it’s not as intense as it was before, and is easier to get over. It’s just nice listening to his stuff. He sings with so much emotion and sincerity, that you can feel the emotions that the songs convey. The people I’ve become friends with are so wonderful. I’m not even longing for my old friendships that died away anymore. I actually am feeling pretty happy and content with what I’ve got now (well, except for my lack of driving, but I’m working on that. It will come in time, I’m sure).

Soooo, how are all my readers out there?

July 24th, 2012 at 10:09 pm | Comments & Trackbacks (0) | Permalink

12/28/11

Wednesday:

I anticipated a great get-together on Christmas Eve, but that’s not exactly what happened. First off, I slightly scorched the chocolate when I was making fudge (which we later found out didn’t make a difference as it was still very good), Secondly, we cooked WAY too early and everyone was hungry waiting for my Dad’s side to get there. Third (and most important), I piled my plate with my aunt’s cheesey beef dip, and found a dead COCKROACH in it. My appetite just about went. At least I didn’t eat as much as I thought I would.

Also, they only stayed about 2 hours. Talk about a great time! ::rolls eyes::

Christmas was a bit better, but not much. We had a big dinner, but it wasn’t anything I really wanted (except for the cake and leftover fudge). I also aggravated my foot, pacing around the house. My parents have a stray kitten that’s been coming around their house, and I kept checking the back porch to see if she was there.

How was your Christmas and Christmas Eve?

Today I slept all day, but at least I didn’t eat yet. It’s almost 3:30 pm, and I’m still not very hungry. It might be because we don’t have anything sweet or junkie in the house.

EDIT: I forgot to mention that my mother’s side did not visit at all. It was very disappointing. My mom and her family lost a family member, and my mom’s sister was sick, so that was it. :(

December 28th, 2011 at 1:21 pm | Comments & Trackbacks (0) | Permalink

12/10/11

Saturday:

Yesterday I was going to accompany my mom to town, but she didn’t want to drive next door to my house, because she said the ground is moist, and she nearly got stuck last time. I removed the tape from my foot, and wiggled my toe around. It still hurt, so I decided against going. I’ll have to go next week since my mother’s side will be coming down next Saturday.

What I ate Friday:

Sundae Pie: 450 calories

Small serving of Cheezits: 150-200 calories

Carrots & Yogurt: 90-100 calories

Turkey & Cheese sandwich: roughly 375 calories

Turkey & Mustard sandwich: roughly 185 calories

Crackers & Cheese: 460 calories

3 Chocolate Chip Cookies: 400 calories

Turkey & Cheese sandwich: roughly 375 calories

Altogether: 2545

DANG! :(

Exercise: 30 minutes on the Stationary Bike: roughly 150 calories.

I have no real excuse for eating so much food. I just felt really hungry. I feel so ashamed. :(

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So far I’ve only eaten 3 clementines today: roughly 125 calories.

I did 30 minutes on the Stationary Bike: roughly 150 calories.

My new plan is to use my Stationary bike several times a day in 30 minute intervals. Maybe a little after I eat, so I can shave a few calories off. Unfortunately, the bike seat is VERY uncomfortable, so I have to pause several times to readjust myself. This exercise is a bit boring, and probably won’t do much, but it’s one of the only things that doesn’t hurt my toe.

I guess beggars can’t be choosers.

December 10th, 2011 at 3:37 am | Comments & Trackbacks (0) | Permalink

12/8/11

Thursday:

Ouch.

I have the most horrible pain in my upper back and back of my neck right now. Yesterday I waited on that social network site for my mom. I didn’t want to go to church last night, because I’m trying to rest my toe. (I forgot to mention, the church now sends a van out this way to pick up people that can’t go otherwise, so we now have transportation.) Well, she didn’t come online at all. I think her internet has been down, or something. I guess she was just relaxing in the chair, and enjoying our first, real snowfall of the year (nothing accumulated, but the flakes were HUGE.) So I was pretty chilled, because the house is drafty where I sit. I was also very, very sleep since I hadn’t gone to sleep the night before. I asked Hubby to wake me up and a couple hours, or sooner if he saw her come online, and I lied down. I woke up about three hours later, feeling terribly tense. Mom still hadn’t signed on, so I was getting ready to go over there. As I was getting dressed, I tried to flip my hair behind my shoulder, and a HORRIBLE pain went through the back of my left shoulder-blade and up the back of my neck … and now I’ve had a crick ever sense. :(

I did some stretching before going to bed last night, and actually slept all day today. It’s a tiny, tiny bit better, but it still restricts my movements a lot.

Some good news now. The scale said 209. I even moved it around, and it still said that (give or take ounces). I haven’t exercised at all for the last few days due to my toe (and now my back/neck), so this is purely from diet. :D

Yesterday I ate a little more than I should have, but averaged it to be about 1700-1900 calories. I haven’t eaten anything yet, but I’m thinking a piece of pie, grilled deli meat sandwich, and some carrots and yogurt. We’ll see, though.

December 8th, 2011 at 4:43 pm | Comments & Trackbacks (0) | Permalink

12/7/11

Wednesday:

This is getting ridiculous! It’s been about a month, and my big toe still hurts. The pain radiates down into the ball of the foot, but only the area right under the big toe. I got some advice from some friends, so I will either be taping it to the next toe, or finding something to splint it with. I probably will skip church tonight, because I’m trying to stay off my foot unless I absolutely have to get up (brushing teeth, bathroom, getting a drink ect.). I researched it online. I’m pretty sure it’s not broken, because there isn’t any discoloration or deformity. That also leaves out a dislocation. I think it’s probably sprained. I can’t tell if there’s any swelling, though. My big toes have always looked fat.

Anyway, I think I’m going to try counting calories again. Here’s what I ate yesterday:

1 cup of Berry Zinger herbal tea:

Lunch: 1 cup of Bolthouse Farms Green juice: 140 calories

3 cups of Pepsi Max: 12 calories or so

Dinner: Turkey and mustard on wheat bread: 185 calories or so

Raw carrot sticks and broccoli: 40 calories or so

Leftover canned pineapple: 45 calories or so

About 1 1/2 tablespoons of 0 % Fage Greek Yogurt: 50-65 calories?

More Pepsi Max: 8 calories or so

Snack: Half a tin of smoked Herring: 85 calories or so

1 piece of wheat bread: 70 calories

1 1/2 tablespoons Greek Yogurt: 50-65 calories?

Today’s food (so far):

Pepsi Max: 4 calories

1 cup or so of Cheezits: 205 calories or so

Turkey and mustard on wheat bread: 185 calories or so

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I know the calories look small, but I’m a very short woman (about 4′9 or 4′10), and I also can’t exercise at the moment, and really, really want to lose a couple pounds before my aunt, grandma, and cousin come visit on the 17th. I doubt it will happen, though. Also, the night before last I binged. I had nearly half a box of Cheezits, 5 chocolate chip cookies, and 4 slices of pizza. :( I felt so full I could hardly move, which was a far-cry to how I felt just a couple hours ago. That’s the reason I had the rest of my Cheezits and the sandwich after 12 am (which I’ve counted for today). I expect to have the juice for lunch again, and maybe a sandwich with cheese on it with carrots and yogurt for dinner. We’ll see what happens.

December 7th, 2011 at 2:54 am | Comments & Trackbacks (1) | Permalink

12/5/11

Monday:

The cats have been frontlined.

It was really rainy today. So much that my mom didn’t want to take me grocery shopping. She even sent me a message on that social network site, but my internet wasn’t working due to the rain, so we ended up going anyway. Whoops. Oh well. Instead of taking me Saturday, like she said she would, my dad, brother, and she decided to take a trip to Columbia to see her side of the family. Her uncle is in the hospital, not looking good, but I knew she didn’t go there just for him. She went to see her sister and mom. I wouldn’t have minded going. I missed them too, but there was no room. :(

I’m just happy to have normal food in the house. My appetite increases when we’re “scraping the bottom of the fridge” so to speak. I had lots of coupons, and ended up saving  $35 or so (counting store sales and what not). Not bad. I even have enough left over to make food for the holiday events coming up.

My foot is still hurting. I guess I’m going to try my hardest to stay off it for the rest of the week (exercise wise, though I will “strive” to be more lazy ;) ).

December 5th, 2011 at 7:13 pm | Comments & Trackbacks (0) | Permalink

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11/26/11

Saturday:

It’s been a while since I’ve posted here. Sorry for that. I guess I wasn’t in much of a blogging mood. Or I was just being lazy. We’ll just say it was both.

I haven’t been so lazy on my dark fantasy novel, though. After two or so years of writing it, I finally hit 50k on it (today, actually). I’m very close to finishing Part two. I believe there will be four parts to the first book. If anyone is curious, this is NOT the same story I was complaining several blogs earlier about not being able to write. This story has been hit with inspiration, so I’m just “rolling with it” for a while, and leaving my unwritten “masterpiece” on the back-burner for now.

My exercise has slacked to 3-4 times a week. I now do a 4 minute warm-up walk, 6 minutes of running intervals with 1 minute of walking in between them, and then I cool down with a walk until I hit 30-40 minutes altogether (depending on how I’m feeling or if I need to hurry up). My running intervals ends at 16 minutes, so you can do the math. I would try for every day or every other day, but I somehow injured the big toe on my right foot, and it starts to hurt if I’m on it too much. It’s been this way for several weeks. :(

I haven’t had another driving lesson from mom. Dad doesn’t want me to drive in the field now, because he hasn’t been able to kill any deer, and believes it would scare them away. It’s fine. Mom said I can start taking the Dodge up the driveway when we’re going to take it to town. Hopefully she won’t change her mind.

My brother had to go to alternative school for two weeks. He’s been out for a couple weeks. He didn’t like it, but the sad thing is, I believe he was actually doing well in there. Oh well. There doesn’t seem to be any complaining from his teachers here lately, so he must be doing alright since he’s been back.

I’ve been trying to work on my attitude here lately. I strive to control my temper when it flares up. I also strive to not curse when I’m provoked. I am also trying to be more blunt and honest about what I’m feeling and what I don’t like. Sadly, I can really only do this around my husband, but it seems to be working okay. My anger really only comes out around my husband, because I can vent then. I keep everything bottled up around everyone else. Most of our “disagreements” would start because I would become angry at something he said/didn’t say/did/didn’t do, and he’d have no idea why I was angry. I realized it’s better to be rude or insensitive initially than to have this annoyance fester into rage, and then just explode.

Thanksgiving went surprisingly well. I wasn’t looking forward to it at all, to be honest, but it was actually enjoyable. It was just my parents, brother, husband and me, like always, but we had a good time. I did my walk/run really early then I went over and Mom and I cooked, and we had a pretty good time. It was fun. When we were done, I went back to the house for hubby, and then we all sit down to eat. The food was great. Same stuff we have every year, but it was still delicious. Sadly, my brother refused to eat ANY of it. He said none of it looked/tasted good (though he only tried a bite of like two things). I was dumbfounded. Anyway, the Satellite we subscribe to has a gaming network, and their games were free, so Mom, Hubby, and I spent the day playing them and cracking up. The food lasted three days. Not bad. ;)

November 26th, 2011 at 5:36 pm | Comments & Trackbacks (0) | Permalink

Monday:

10/31/11

There’s not a lot to say. It really doesn’t feel like Halloween. I barely got any candy, but will be raiding the clearance candy at Kroger tomorrow. (Yeah, yeah, not exactly diet-friendly, but my sweet-tooth goes on a monstrous rampage around now, and if I don’t get my “fix” I’ll feel like I was ripped off.)

My mom gave me a driving lesson in the dodge today. I drove through the field once. I’m hoping to get another one tomorrow, and do them (if not every day) at least a couple times a week from now on. Of course I’ll lend a little for gas if I do. Honestly, driving wasn’t so bad, but it still feels “abnormal” and “unnatural” for me. I’m really, really hoping and praying this feeling will eventually fade once I get “the hang of it”.

I’ve been slacking off a bit on exercise. My period must have thrown me off, and I still feel a bit fatigued. I walked/ran Sunday (which wasn’t enjoyable, because I heard gunshots all around me from people deer hunting), and did only one day last week.

I’ve been feeling a bit queasy, with a sour stomach and slight headache. Hubby’s been feeling it too, but his was worse yesterday. He had to miss church. Speaking of missing church, the church I attend threw a fun-looking party Friday that nobody bothered to tell me about. :(

Dad came over Saturday to look at our leak. Turns out, it’s coming from the water-heater, and he can’t do anything about it. He says we need to replace water-heaters, so there’s another thing added to our list of “things we need to buy”. Feels like it just keeps growing and growing. :(

October 31st, 2011 at 5:47 pm | Comments & Trackbacks (0) | Permalink

10/12/11

Wednesday:

I completed forgot to mention that, although my car no longer works, my parents say I can practice in their little, red truck, and that she will actually sit in there with me. I’m nervous and relieved at the same time. I hope it goes well.

October 12th, 2011 at 7:58 pm | Comments & Trackbacks (0) | Permalink