Losin’ It For The Beanie!

Had a blast at a Star Party last night! We got to lay around for a bit untill it got too cloudy. But we got to see the dippers, part of pegasus, the international space station, and a shooting star!

Diet wise yesterday was ok. I ran out of my lunch meat so I had a chip sandwich:) Not healthy, I know, but welll within my points. Today I ate breakfast too late, so I’m skipping lunch because I know I will be hungry later. Onion chicken for dinner and I don’t know what else yet.

While at the beach I left the filter for the pool off, so now the water is not the greatest and there is algae in the fish tank so another busy day…

Well, now that vacation time is over, it is back to life as normal.  Except we have mice.  Yes, instead of relaxing and unpacking after a long trip to the beach, we spent most of the day trying to catch a little baby mouse with the skimmer for the pond.  It was totally hillarious, until I saw that the little buggers had been pooping all over the computer desk, and my new $100 school book.  So out comes the poison.  I hate to do it but their little poop everywhere is not a good thing!

So, not proud of myself after this vacation.  I told myself one bad day, then I would stick to my diet.  Well, yeah, no.  Did not happen.  So, starting again tomorrow.  This is it.  I am done starting over.  For most of my life, if I stuck my mind to it, even things that seemed impossible could happen.  This should be no different.  I just have to realize that it is time, and I can do it.  I have overcome so much more than this weight thing, and more then I would ever share online

Also, a bit jealous, my Mom found out her health insurance will pay for her to go to Weight Watchers, great for her, sad for me, as right now I can barely pay my bills.  Whatever, she will do great and I will be there to support her if she decides to go!

Happy weekend!

Owwww, I got my teeth worked on today and bad news. I need a root canal within the next 6 months, my filling won’t last.  It’s only $1775.  Pocket change.  AND my dentist told me that all I can have is ibuprofen.  It doesn’t matter that I have been trying to use that for the last year and no matter how much I take it does NOT help my tooth.  Oh well, it could be so much worse!  I got to see an old friend today too!  We worked together in 2009-2010, while I was waiting to get into the nursing program.  We worked evenings, just the two of us, and I helped her study for her dental tests.  Sure enough, she was my assistant today!  It was so good to see her, but would have been better under other circumstances.  Bright side, it hurts to eat :)  I am not going to complain about that.  I could use a little jump start.  I did good yesterday and today, not great, because I really really wanted crap food, but I didn’t eat it.  I wil consider it a great day when I exercise more and don’t dream about taco bell!

I do have to say I am very proud of myself for sticking to it.  Even though it has only been two days and I really haven’t been able to exercise because of my tooth, I am happy to get started and ready to keep it up! 

I am going to go curl up and cry now, waiting for the ibuprofen to kick in…

That is the sound of me laughing, because I was all gung ho about restarting and being a good girl.  Yeah, it didn’t happen.  It will, but didn’t.  I passed my NCLEX and am officially an LPN!  I am not working yet, I am going to finish out the summer being a lazy slug before school starts again.  So here is to new starts (again) and eating better!  I am not thinking of exercise as of yet.  We have a pool, 15×42 soft side, but it was way lopsided.  So we drained it, moved it, dug out the high side, moved it back, filled it back up.  Ouch, my back did not like digging through the compressed grass!  I will be back to normal tomorrow, and I am restarting the 30DS, now that I am not at the hospital all the time!

My time there was great!  I learned much more then I thought I would, and it helped cement that this is what I really want to do. 

Happy Monday!

So I start at the hospital tomorrow!! My only regret is I started 30 Day Shred yesterday and I could barely walk today! Hopefully I will feel better tomorrow. I am proud of myself today because we went to Costco and I didn’t eat anything! My son was good so he got ice cream. I was so tempted, their hot dogs are amazing, but I was a good girl. Wish me luck tomorrow!!

So my original goal was 3 lbs per week.  After a slow start, only 1 lb the first week, I lost 4 lbs this week!  I am almost caught up to my goal, all I need to do is repeat this week and next WI I will be caught up!  I am using my WI from yesterday, because I am up a bit today, and I know for a fact I was great the last few days, and I wanted to fudge this one a bit to keep me motivated.  Now if it happens again at the next WI, I will have to put the right number and figure out what is going on. 

 So Thursday I start two weeks of twelve hours shifts at our local hospital.  I am so nervous!  I will be working with a nurse, but my instructor will not be there the whole time.  I feel like I have forgotten everything (I have to put that catheter where???) and I do not want to embarass myself.  Also, as surprising as it is, I like the food there.  Us nurses are notorious for not taking breaks, so how am I going to make time to eat?  I already feel like I have a hard time getting all my points in for the day, if I spend twelve hours not eating where am I going to fit them in??  I like to eat slow, otherwise I will eat and eat and eat.  If I do get a break it is 30 minutes.  I cannot eat a full meal in 30 minutes.  I know during clinicals Winter term, at a LTC facility, I was helping my resident play bingo.  They were starting to bring the lunch carts around, and it actually smelled awful.  As I was helping my resident back into her wheelchair, my stomach let out a huge grumble.  It was so embarassing!  She told me that I needed to stop taking care of her and go take care of myself.  That will not happen this time around!  Well, I need to go study for my NCLEX some more, only 8 days left!  And only 16 days, 12 hours and 38 minutes until Harry Potter!

Guess what the cat dragged in??  ME!!  So I didn’t stay on top of the blog before, but with school out and the only thing I have to do is study for my NCLEX, I need something to do, so here we go!  Basically over the last year, school messed me up!  I always stress about grades, but it didn’t really matter.  No matter how much or how little I studied, I got A’s.  So when Nursing school started, I really didn’t think it would be that different.  Wowza!  I finally had to give up one of my jobs.  I loved it, the people, and sometimes the customers, but I get paid more at my other job and I can study while I work.  Who would turn that down?  Now that summer is upon me, I realized that I have to do something.  Like millions of people before me, I decided that I had had fun too long, and now I had to fix this.  While I am starving at the moment, I know logically that my body does not need anything else today, except more water.  I have been strict about this recently, making sure I have at least 4-5 bottles a day.  I learned the hard way at the hospital that when I am thirsty, I get super cranky!  I could go all day without eating, but water is a big no-no to skip.  So today I kept filling my bottle up but my son decided he was thirsty.  At almost 8 I guess I figured he either knew how to drink or could get his own, but alas I was wrong.  Every time I picked it up there were floaties.  I KNOW they were not mine, so finally got him his own freaking bottle.  Gross…

Anyways…  I hope to get this going again and I hope I can be an inspiration to others as they have been to me.  While there are a gazillion other weight loss blogs, you never know which one will be the fit for you.