Running Bee

I don’t know why I’ve been so completely down on myself these past few days but alas it continues, it’s becoming harder for me to keep myself ‘up’.  On top of that I’ve caught ds9’s cold/bug and we’re both home sick today.  I feel just miserable inside and out.  Maybe the 40th birthday thing is bugging me more than I think, all I know is I’m miserable.  Yesterday I managed to get a run in inspite of this cold, actually I felt a bit better afterwards but by the evening I was completely wiped out.  Could not wait for hubby to get home to take some Niquil and get to bed.   I don’t think I’ll be getting out today at all.  I was really hoping to make Friday my rest day….anyways, life continues…..

Managed to make my way to Peet’s today for a cup of 0 calorie tea…that’s two days in a row I’ve stayed out of Starbucks.  I’m trying for a whole week, I’m weak I just don’t know if I can do it.  Anyways, totally stressed, between work, well the volunteer work, the paid work seems much easier!  and STILL dealing with the identity theft, it is so frustrating.  Hoping to run this afternoon after work, supposedly, hopefully it’s suppose to rain later today, finally, not that the spring like conditions haven’t been fun but I’d like to have water this summer….Weighed myself and stuck at 128, doesn’t surprise me, my calories haven’t been fantastic.  Just plugging along looking for some motivation….

The weekend was pretty good.  Got some good runs in, on my own and with hubby.  I especially like the ones with hubby even though he’s much better at it than me it makes me feel new in our relationship having something new to share.  Anyways, I skipped Starbucks today!  Yay me!  I know that sounds so incredibly stupid.  yogurt/flax cereal for breakfast and chicken wrap for lunch, thus far it’s been a good day.  My minds a little spaced out thinking about stuff, seems like I can’t be on track with my emotions and my diet….My 40th birthday is creeping up on me so fast, so many places I wanted to be at in my life by now, just trying to stay positive….

Congratulations President Obama!  I am so proud to be an American.

Beautiful weather again today, very spring like which is a great treat but worries me for another drought year.  Then again with a leaky roof maybe a dry winter wouln’t be so bad

Still working on the identity theft mess, it’s so frustrating calling all these people who can’t do anything until my checks bounce.   On a good note I got my run in today, 3.5 miles.  Going to go for the 1000 miles in 2009 challenge even though I’m a little late getting started.  I figure if I train for a half mary then I should make up for the first bit of the New Year where I wasn’t running.

Went into Starbucks today and errr, just really hate how I’m addicted to that place.   I just don’t know how to overcome it.   Part of it is that when I go in there’s always someone I know, from the preschool, elementary school, church, work.  Being an introvert and not really being a very social person it actually feels good to go in and know people, it’s never really been like that for me.  If only I could order tea than the calorie thing would be okay.  Anyways, have to get the kids started on homework and put dinner in the oven….

So today was a BEAutiful spring like day.  Did a run with hubby, I had promised myself the first week back I’d just do the small loop but it felt so good to be outside and to be able to run with him I pushed it a bit.  we did a 4 mile loop and then when we got home took the kids for a 5 mile hike.  I love this Garmin thing dh got me for Christmas, it shows all your distance and other stuff I have yet to figure out.  All said and done, according to my Garmin I burned some 800 calories - hot damn! should make up for the bag of hershey kisses I ate at the onset of the weekend.  Still stressing about the identity theft but trying to just take it one day at a time, I think I’ll be able to at least get the bills covered for the month.  It’s just such a headache.  Anyways, there’s a 5k next weekend, me and dh7 are going to run it cause he really, really, REALLY wants to run another 5k and hubby is going to do the 10k.  I hope I can keep up with him this time, I feel bad holding him back but he’s too young to be on his own.  It should be fun just hope it’s nice weather, the city is usually freezing.  Anyways, got some clean up still before Brothers & Sisters comes on - good night.

Sometimes I think I was a complete Bitch in my previous life, it’s the only way to explain the Karma that kicks my ass sometimes.  Errrrrrrr So on a good note, I’m running, just a small loop each day because my leg isn’t fully recovered, but I’m able to get out.  I did totally give in and eat a bag of kisses this weekend, which doesn’t put the $1,200 stolen from my checking account back in, kinda annoys me that I’d let some mean thief sabotage myself like that but it’s been so damn stressful.  It’s going to take some time to clean up this mess … and all of my bouncing payments…but 2 months from now we should be back on track.  Now I have an small understanding of what it must be like to have your identity stolen, I feel SOOO bad for those people, $1,200 isn’t much compared to some of the horror stories I’ve heard the passed few days.

Anyways, calories okay before the the kisses fiasco, getting my running in, what else??? oh, had the weigh in for my life insurance policy at 128 not too bad I was expecting a 130.  She was impressed with my blood pressure, I can never make sense of those numbers and remember what they mean but she said is was “very, very good”.  That was a relief because back in May I had it checked at a health fair and they said it was getting to the ‘point of no return’.  Grasping for the good news.  Anyways, I still have two more vendors to call and see if I can work something out since their payments are going to bounce…just needed to take a break from this mess without going and looking for chocolate.

I got to run yesterday!  I’m so relieved, everything still feels okay.  I don’t have much time this morning, so I’m planning a run this afternoon after work.  Still working on finding a stationary bike for cross training and when injuries occurr.  Hubby picked up a new scale, it measures body fat and bone mass…I haven’t read up on it yet to figure it all out …  I did step on the scale this morning 129/130 - it teatered between the two.  I knew my other scale was a bit more generous, just goes to show I need to be as dedicated to the food portion as I am to the exercise.

So yesterday I was going through my daughter’s homework and I came accross this paragraph she wrote.  The question I think was ‘What is the best gift you’ve received?’  Here’s her answer - some of it is entirely a 10 yr old but the essence of it, I wish all us women could buy into.

When people ask me what my favorite gift is I don’t know what to say. I am thankful for many things including my friends and day dreaming. I love winter, but I like to be warm. I love how I am , me and all the cool things about me.  The things I want are things I do, like saving polar bears, making an amusement park, etc. Most of those I’m trying to do. So I’d give up everything all the presents ever just to be who I am.

Me and all the cool things about me.  I love it! 

I just realized it has been a full five months since I started running - In the realm of dieting/health I have NEVER been commited to anything that long!  So today I finally got my New Year’s day run in - 6 days later - my ankle/leg still a tiny bit sore but I’m icing it down so hopefully it should be okay.  Just a mild run at a slow pace after a week off my leg but it felt so good to be back out there.  Found some exercises too to help the smaller muscles develop so shin splints don’t happen again.  Anyways, off to work soon, just needed to express my relief

I’m getting cranky Yesterday, after I called the third person I saw at Coscto wearing shorts a dumbass, my husband mentioned how he’d hoped my leg be better soon… I didn’t realize how angry I’m getting.  It didn’t help that just before that we had gone for a walk around the reservoir, rather me and the kids walked while dh did a run, felt like everyone was running passed me, this is so frustrating.   Still searching craigslist for a bike the one in the store is a bit much and they won’t deal down (I thought everyone was dealing in the recession), the leg’s a bit better but not quite, I might try a short run this afternoon, we’ll see.  Still doing my core and logging fitday - oh my gosh!  after our walk yesterday we went to Noah’s bagels for lunch, I got a turkey sandwich, thinking I’m all healthy and last night searching for the nutrition on their website found out it’s 700+ calories!  700?? how can something with sprouts be so loaded??  I thought I was being healthy and all…so yesterday’s totals were whacked, some 1900 calories for the day.  Anyways, it is back to work today, Hope everyone is doing better than me

Well we  checked out a bike from CL today, wasn’t really in as great as shape as they advertised so we ended up at a fitness store checking out some bikes.  I actually got a mini workout in testing them out felt great!  I think the salesman thought I was a bit odd I just stayed on it forever (15 mins), but I figured as I was there….Anyways, we found one we liked so dh is going to check out the web for a better deal, hopefully by the end of next week I’ll have a bike, hopefully by the end of next week I’ll be running (the ankle still hurting).   Calories for the day not bad, close to 1500, only cause I’m weak and stopped at Starbucks for my nf mocha.  Did make it out to the cemetary to see my folks and brother…finally, I feel bad I didn’t clean up their stones at all for Christmas, my mom’s favorite holiday and it was her 80th bday 3 weeks ago.  Been feeling like a bad daughter/sister but now i’m better, at least they’re shiny and cleaned up to start the New Year.  Okay, a hot bath as suggested by me4me and off to bed - g’nite!