Soon I have to run to the grocery store and they have a SB Kiosk. I have avoided StarBucks today, came straight home from drop off and did my run (loop plus gate) I can’t really time myself but it felt like a good pace. Anyways, this grocery store run has me a bit concerned though. I can do it, I can DO IT! Crap, I’m really not sure.
I had a good run this morning with the loop plus up to the gate so a full 2 miles. Saw a mom I know on the trail, you could tell she was surprised to see me and she was cheering me on - felt good :) This would’ve been my time to run into SB before work but I’m here instead. Anyways need to go just wanted to log my running.
Alas the weekend and more importantly last week is oficially over - yaaa! My acne thing is clearing up, although I’m sure it’ll scar cause I’ve noticed the passed few months that my break outs tend to leave dark spots or just bumps that never truly go away, but it’s a whole lot better than big red blaring bumps in between my eyes. Survived all the bdays, not only was it ds’s but also both my in-laws and my brother’s. All the same on the same day. This year my m-in law turned 80 so we had to make a bit of a big deal of it. I had mass said for my brother since he is no longer living and I totally forgot to go, feel kind of bad about that, I don’t know how it slipped my mind, goes to show how stressed I’ve been feeling. Anyways, the weekend is done and to my pleasant surprise Brothers and Sisters started back on tonight! One of my favorite shows. See the week is already off to a good start! Anyways, took the day off from running, hopefully tomorrow will be a better run, the weather is supposed to continue in the high 80’s. Already have thoughts of my starbucks run and then I have to REMIND myself I’m not going. Not going…not going…not going…..
Ran the ‘loop’ this evening with DH, it still wasn’t great but it was better than yesterday’s run. It is also another 90’s day and I don’t think I’ve run in this high of heat yet. Tomorrow is a day off, so my body can rest and hopefully Monday will be a fresh start to a new week. I caught up a bit on the blogs earlier today, noticed everyone seems to be enjoying Fall but me! I used to like Indian Summer but find myself really anxious for the cool weather. Decided I need some mini goals, which I am still working on but my first goal for next week is to stay out of Starbucks for the whole week. 5 straight days….I sound like a broken record on this one. And I really want to break the 125 barrier, I keep teetering between 125 and 130. Unless you are my MD’s scale which said 132 at the checkup - (but I had 2 cups of tea and toast in me). It is a celebration since on my last visit I was 146 lbs. The thing is my dh was talking about how his speed has increased a bunch since he first started back up running but he is also 20lbs thinner since running again. When I first started loosing weight I would pick up the bags of potatoes in the grocery store to really “see” my weight loss, and imagine running with a 10lb sack? I think I have just 10 more pounds to go but being a bit lighter would probably do the joints and such a whole lotta good. I’m just rambling to myself. I’ve just had 2 days of not so good running and it’s occurred to me that if I get an injury I might be back where I started so now that sits in the back of my mind. Okay it is my ds’ bday today so I need to finish dinner so he can have his cake (haven’t decided if I get a slice yet - I’m pathetic 
She was better (the teacher) today, oh Thank You Thank You! I needed an easier day. It was actually super busy (picture day with 32 kids) but I like busy, it’s when I don’t know what to do that I get uncomfortable. And Girl Scouts got cancelled so my evening is a little lighter with one less drop off/pick up to do. Just need to visit the in-laws after dinner so they can point out my acne…they like doing that sort of stuff. Good news is no one took my picture for the yearbook - hooray!
O My GOSH my calves hurt! I was running into the grocery store and had to slow down, it felt like two little rocks inside the back of my legs. I knew today’s run just didn’t feel the usual. I was planning on taking Sunday off since that’s going to be the busy day but maybe it’ll have to be tomorrow. Okay, I still have dinner and stuff to do, off I go….
Today’s run was hard. Hardest I’ve had to do. Did the usual “loop”, don’t know if I was extra tired, TOM, or just the crap I’ve been eating that made me feel ehhh, but today I definitely was questioning the 5k. Just overall I feel tired … and feeling emotionally drained. Just need to get through work and the weekend. Hoping my son enjoys his birthday, I feel so bad it’s tomorrow and we still don’t have anything concrete planned for him, his always seems to be the bday that gets overlooked (that and mine) I so would like to dump but have figured that it really just makes me feel worse so I’m trying to look ahead. Trying to plan a mini goal for next week, I need something to look forward to…Now I need to get to work. There’s two teachers in my room that job share, Friday’s is the one that I’ve come to the conclusion doesn’t really want to have an aide in her room monitoring her, yesterday was a bit awkward with her but she’s kinda moodly so who knows, today she might be better…oh please be better
Nothing special to report. Ran my “loop” this morning. Just trying to maintain today as I’m in a somber mood between my uncle’s funeral today and mom and dad’s would’ve been wedding anniversary. DS7 has a playdate over this afternoon…grrrrr…..sometimes you have to invite kids over to realize how well behaved your own are! This kid literally flipped his juice box over at the table and squeezed the juice all over the table. I mean what do you do with that? Then he blames my other son and he knows I saw him do the whole thing. He has no ’special’ issues that I’m aware of other than not being taught boundaries. Anyways, I guess my patience is a bit worn thin today. On top of that he has to ask me what all the red marks on face are. As if having zits everywhere isn’t enough without comments from a 7 year old, more grrrr…..Oh and now I have one above my eye, like where you would apply eye shadow, seriously who gets them there? Tomorrow is picture day as school, no one has mentioned the teacher’s aides getting their pics for the class picture so I sure hope no one expects me too, of all the weeks to have a major breakout.
Okay so the positives are ….hmmmmm I’m thinking….I got my run in today. And I get to take this kid home in 1/2 and hour! It’s beginning to feel like fall. I love the change in the season. I love every season but by the end of it I’m ready for the next one. Ones with Preschool/kinders should check out Fall is Not Easy by Martey Kelly it is one of my favorite books. My favorite things of fall are the colors, the cool nights, the smell in the air, grapes are in season and soooo yummy. No more worries of wearing a bathing suit!
Trying to keep it together here. My uncle passed away early this morning, and the last I had of my Dad’s family. He and my dad were so much alike it was amazing … especially when you figure they’ve lived on opposite ends of the earth the last 40 years. But their mannerisms, the laugh, and just the ‘way’ about them were strikiningly similar. I had hoped to go visit him next year, my kids can’t really remember grandpa and I wanted them to get a sense of his personality by spending time with my uncle. I guess now they’ll just have to do with the stories I tell them. It’s crazy how deeply you can feel a loss of someone who lived 1/2 a world away, that’ll tell you how far reaching this man’s heart was. Anyways, I’m so sick of grief, and September is full of anniversaries, my parents wedding anniversary is this week, in fact the funeral is on that day, and my brother’s birthday would have been this Saturday, it’s my son’s bday too, so it’s always a bitter sweet day for me. And do you know what all that equals? Horrible Acne - right between my eyes :( and on my chin. Not just one red glaring bump between the eyes, but 3. Holy crap this week shows all over me. The good news is I ran. I increased my “loop” to be a full 2 miles according to the mapmyrun. There’s a part of this loop that has a killer slope where the trail goes back to the street. I did have to walk the last bit of it so now I have a goal to make it up that slope
a) running the whole way and
b) without slipping and breaking my neck.
Tomorrow is the physical, lets see where the dr’s scale takes me. It’s no where near as forgiving as my one at home, and depending on how rushed the medical assistant is I swear they don’t wait for the weights to settle. I won’t have the blood work right away but I had some done in the spring at a health fare and I’m curuious if there’ll be a difference. The question is do I eat breakfast or pack it since I’ll be running straight to work after the appointment.
Okay, I just realized I haven’t done my sit ups…and about a 100 million other things. Off I go….
Broke the 2 mile marker today, did some more “hill” work as DH calls it and ran a little further out, questimating it was about 2.25, hard to tell since mapmyrun doesn’t include the trailsystem but DH is pretty good with estimating mileage. Have consistently managed to get some sit ups in each day this week, I really need to focus on logging fitday or writing my stuff on the calendar. Computer time has just seemed limited lately, or I’m just too tired by the time I sit down. But lets face it, there’s LOTS of things I need to be doing, shall I make a list??? And for each item I’m sure I’d find an excuse. Anyways, another hugely overschedule day tomorrow so trying to get to bed early, g’nite.
I hate money. So just when I thought we might get ahead a little with the new job, DH’s car finally died completely on us. I knew it was coming, in fact I have been dreaming about it for weeks now, we have been looking and going back and forth between new and used and bla bla bla, bottom line is the extra income I thought I was gonna have is now going straight to Toyota. Grrrr. I guess I should just be thankful that the money is there. There’s just so much more I would like to do, but I guess that’s what everyone thinks. So this evening me and DH went for a run together, it’s been pretty cool having a new thing to do together. And it’s working out having the oldest watch the boys for the 30 minutes while we’re out. There’s always a neighbor around just in case. Anyways, we went inside the state park which is uphill all the way, fun on the way back though. I turned around after 12 minutes and he kept going for a longer training, it worked out and was a beautiful fall evening. The weather has suddenly become “crisp” like fall, I pulled out my autumn candles and the boys and I baked pumpkin bread for the evening - Summer is great but it is so cool to have a change in the season all of a sudden (no pun intended).