I never thought I would keep a blog - but I am hopeful that this will help me remain accountable as I begin my weight loss journey yet again.  I am officially restarting Weight Watchers tomorrow - meaning I am going back to regular meetings, counting points, and being weighed regularly.  As much as I would prefer to never be weighed again, I know that the scale is the one factor that truly keeps me in line.  

I was signing up for some additional long term disability insurance the other day at work and one of the questions that I was asked was my height and weight.  Although I never shy from saying how tall I am, I always have to stop and think before I can say my weight.  And when I do say my weight I then feel like I need to offer an explanation or an excuse as to why it is so high.  And then I want to explain that it won’t remain that way, that this is just a phase and that my weight is really only 125 pounds.  Really I would love to be able to say both my height and weight emphatically - with no shame about either.  I would love to feel like I could tell anyone and everyone my weight and never feel a twinge of embarrassment.

I want to be able to go shopping for anything I want without hesitation.  I want to feel attractive and light.  I want to stop the cycle of losing and gaining that I seemed to step into.  I want to be the woman that I envision in my mind.  

So tomorrow the journey officially begins and I want to use this blog to track my progress and keep me accountable.