Today was not a great day.  Went to a luncheon and they had Panera box lunches.  I grabbed a box with a turkey sandwich, chips, and a great big cookie.  The sandwich was good - I ate the smaller half.  The best part about it was the bread, which was focaccia (spelling?) and it was so soft.  I ate a couple of the chips - but then came the cookie.  A great big cookie the size of an open palm.  I ate the whole thing.  The WHOLE thing and it was great.  And a great big splurge.  And quite unnecessary.  But it was great and I never would have purchased a cookie to eat under any normal circumstances.

Oh if it could have just stopped there.  I ended up staying at work until about 7:30 trying to get some things done.  As it got later I just got hungrier and so happened to venture into the break room - where I tried some cheese popcorn (gift from clients) and then had a coke.  What is wrong with me?  How many calories are we up to now?!

Then I came home - and with my time of the month, lack of sleep, a headache that just won’t go away, and lack of any sort of patience - I ate some tortilla chips and cheese dip from a jar.  Not a lot but enough.  Dinner was some leftover spaghetti (I did measure a cup of this) and then some more chips and cheese.  AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. 

It is only one day and I should just let it go and go on.  I can easily be back on track this minute - just keep pushing forward - forgive myself and go on.  

So to sum it up here is my calories for the day:

Breakfast: Weight Control Banana Bread Oatmeal (160), 1/4 cup FF milk (20), WW English Muffin (with a bit of oleo and honey (140)  (Total of 320 calories)

Snack: Granny Smith Apple (80) and 100 calories Cream Cheese Fruit Dip (180 calories)

Lunch: 1/2 Sandwich (400 calories), a couple of chips (60), and the cookie (450 calories)

should I keep going??….

Dinner: I cup spaghetti with 1/4 cup sauce and 1 oz of 99% fat free ground turkey: (250 calories - estimate)

Snack: Tortilla chips (140) and cheese dip (45 - for 2 tbsp), a coke (140), and cheese popcorn (60)

And the GRAND TOTAL:  2045

YUCK.  But I wrote it down so that is a positive.

Tomorrow will be a better day.