Just for today

It’s taken me longer than I thought to think of those goals, but I will. Maybe today.

J. apologised to me for her rude behaviour and has been okay for the last week or so. She was a little snotty last night. I have to smile; I think she can only manage about 5 days of pleasant and then it starts to get really hard for her. On the plus side, she applied for a job at a salon. Actually, she had been making the rounds of all the salons in the area, but it seemed no one was hiring. On the spur of the moment last week-end, she popped into quite a nice one at the next town over, and they’ve had her in for an interview. She goes back tomorrow to “do” the owners hair. A bit scary for her. I should get her to watch “Steel Magnolias” tonight. There’s a scene where Darryl Hannah is nervously doing Dolly Parton’s hair, and exclaims, “is it too pouffy? I’m always too pouffy when I’m nervous!” or something like that. I used to adore that movie. I’d watch it whenever I felt the need to cry.

Three people were laid off at work yesterday. It was a sad and stressful day. One guy turned red and stopped breathing, or so it seemed. Yes, a sad and stressful day for everyone.

I haven’t stopped marching around the buildings and grounds and up and down the stairs in my lunch times, but my apetite has been running so high. I do not have that feeling of being in charge. Each day I say to myself - today’s the day you’ll get it back, and each day I let myself down.

Okay, here’s a small doable goal, just for today: Today I will follow the plan.

What’s the plan, you ask? I’ll drink 8 glasses of water, I’ll consume 5 servings of fruit and vegetables. When I do that, by the way, the proteins and carbs seem to take care of themselves. I’ll do the exercise.

I will try not to succumb to the big D, which is stalking me.

 

5 Comments so far

  1. round on December 10th, 2008

    I have a similar experience - when I focus on what I SHOULD eat instead of what I SHOULDNT I find it so much easier to eat healthy. I often start w the fruit & veg count (and eventually push to 9). Then maybe water, dairy etc — leads me to healthy eating every time.

    I like the daily goal - or even meal by meal when needed. Small, do-able goals. Add up the victories.

    You’re doing really well in the midst of the stress, by the way

  2. lynard on December 10th, 2008

    Good goal setting my dear. That reminds me I need to go and eat some fruit today. Sorry about the work lay-offs and all of that stress. Keep up the stair climbing and walking - that will help stave off the big”D”.

    Lyn

  3. brseay on December 10th, 2008

    Like the others, I think your goal of focusing on what you should do instead of what you should avoid is wise. You can do this, just for today.

  4. islandgrl on December 11th, 2008

    I think for all you are going thru, you are a champion.

  5. anngirl on December 16th, 2008

    Goodness Ms. RJ - lay offs have hit my work too but I think I’m alright and I’ll weather the storm. I have nothing good to say on the food stuff right now.

    But I do have to say that as we are both treading water on the encroaching D - let’s keep our heads above the water and not let that get to us ok?

    I’ve got a floatee and I’m sharin’ it with ya hon :)

    I like what you’re thinkin’ about eating the right things first….

    you take care of yourself ms. rj.
    xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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