I pretty much consider carbs to be my mortal enemy. They make me retain water even worse than salt does an I have the worst carb cravings ever.

But then I started to think about the kind of carbs I was craving…white bread. White pasta. Chips. Kraft Dinner. Those insane Sidekicks things with “creamy garlic” and “creamy bacon” stuff. I figured there has to be a reason why I want these so badly! I did a bit of research and I don’t think I’ve found my answer, but I found some reasons why it could be. One of them is not eating enough whole grain, high-fibre carbs, and you know what? That kind of makes sense. I am going to concentrate on adding things like that into my diet (rye crackers, whole wheat bread, brown rice, etc) and see if my cravings change.

But enough about carbs. I had a pretty good day today! It was really hot out (26 degrees celsius is very hot for where I live!) and I really didn’t feel like dragging my lumpy self outside for a walk. Luckily my friend took me, kicking and screaming, outside. And it was really nice. We went around six o’clock, so it was a little cooler and I managed to do a little bit of jogging.

Now…I don’t jog. Even when I try to job, it’s more of a slow jog. HOLY PANCAKES. If attempting to jog wasn’t an eye-opener to how out of shape I am, then I don’t know what is! I’m starting the CouchTo5K program tomorrow so I was doing a bit of the 30-second jogging that they recommend. I was panting and sweating after doing that a few times. NOT GOOD. But at the same time, it felt good. I know that the more I keep at this, the less I will pant. The more my slow jog will turn into a real jog and then, someday, I’ll actually run!

This entry title sounds cheesey. I know that because I wrote it. However, it’s true. I have been “dieting” unsuccessfully for almost two years and my weight has just gone upupup. When I initially lost weight in 2009, I came in at 140lbs- a good weight. Three years later I have gained an unbelievable 90lbs. Not just that, but I have a whole series of uncomfortable symptoms, including:

*Knee pain

*Back pain

*Fatigue (as in, I take 2-3 hour naps in the afternoon and can barely get up in the morning)

*Never feeling full/satisfied after a meal

*Craving simple carbohydrates to give me a fast boost of energy

*Headaches

*Excess abdominal fat

And no, I am not pregnant. I have led myself down a terrible path and I can see Type II Diabetes in the distance. My mother got there three years ago and she has completely altered her life; I am going to do the same.