Just do it
Ramblings of a jiggly girl
Posted riestrella on January 4th, 2012 | Filed under Weight Loss Journey
Well December has been the worse month since June, I lost just 1 lb in total, nothing from my pudge and 0.5 from my boobage. Combination of laziness and eating crap during the Christmas period.
I managed to reach 161 lbs on my weigh in for the first day of January 2012 – but now I’ve managed to get back up to 163 lbs. I’ve just not been exercising and my period is due this week. Need to get back into Insanity and drink more water methinks.
However, despite a crappy December, 2011 was a great year for me in terms of weight loss. I lost 39 lbs, lost 6 inches from my stomach and 4 from my boobs. For the first time in my adult life I actually stayed true to my promise to lose weight – something I’ve been saying on January 1st every year since I realised I was overweight! Now I’m just 31 lbs away from victory.
I figured I would copy my post from the “This time last year” thread I made in the forum since I felt good typing it:
This time last year I was around 200 lbs and completely in denial about my weight. I was hoping to get funding for a breast reduction because I thought I was so out of proportion. When I actually looked at the measurements for my relaxed stomach and breasts they were almost equal – meaning I wasn’t out of proportion I was just fat. Needless to say the funding was denied.
I wasn’t exercising, I was eating at least 4 meals a day (and not good meals) and I was the heaviest I’ve ever been.
I had no confidence in my looks, my body, my abilities as a person and scared of the future. I didn’t have a job and I was terrified that I wouldn’t be able to find one. I was recovering from a major breakdown the year before and still felt waves of depression. Sometimes I would cry myself to sleep.
My relationship with my boyfriend was rocky, we were still working through issues due to my lack of confidence since it got in the way of our relationship. I wouldn’t believe him when he said I was beautiful, I would doubt his feelings for me, I would be paranoid if he ever hung out with a girl for fear that he would realise I’m fat, ugly and boring.
This year I weigh 162 lbs, close to 161 lbs. I’m just 11 lbs away from a healthy BMI. I realised that I was in denial about my weight, and once I stepped on the scale and calculated that I was actually obese I decided to stop feeling so sorry about myself and DO SOMETHING. I trained and ran a 10k, I came second to last with a time of 1 hour 11 minutes but every single person who saw me running to the finish line applauded me and cheered me on. It was one of the proudest moments of my life. I have lost 6 inches from my stomach and 4 inches from my breasts, I feel sexy for the first time in my life.
I’m now exercising 6 times a week doing the Insanity programme. I’ve cut out the junk food, eating healthier and I feel like I’ve made a huge lifestyle change with my diet. I don’t feel like I’m on a diet or cutting back, I feel like this is exactly what I could eat for the rest of my life and it’s good for me.
I feel more confident than I ever have before in my entire life, I found a job and I’m saving to move to Japan to teach English, and I feel I have completely recovered from depression. I haven’t shed a tear of self pity since I started losing weight.
My relationship is better than ever before, I’m so in love with my boyfriend and he is in love with me. I believe him now when he tells me I’m beautiful, I no longer compare myself to the girls he meets and I think he’s pretty darn lucky to have me!
So much has happened, it’s important to look back and think of the good things that I’ve done and the amazing progress I’ve made. I’m happy to say that I’ve inspired my parents, who are both obese, to lose weight too.
In 39 days I’ll be seeing my boyfriend for the first time in 7 months, it’s the longest we’ve been apart for 3 years and it’s starting to get really tough. I’m so stupidly excited to see him, and a month ago I wanted to be 150 lbs by the time I see him but after the stall it’s not going to happen. I want to make it into the 150s for sure before I go, but at this point I’m just going to lose as much weight as possible. The last time he saw me I was 181 lbs, which meant I was obese; being in the 150s means I’m so close to being healthy.
While I’m there I’m going to continue exercising, he works out a lot too so it won’t be hard to stay motivated around him, and I’m going to limit my food treats to one a day. I’m also going to perhaps work out twice a day if I feel that I’ve eaten too much or I see an increase in my weight while I’m there! He lives in a place where outdoor activity and exercise is worshipped, so I’m pretty confident I won’t let myself slip up like I have done in the past. Plus, I know endorphins make me feel sexy which will definitely be a good thing around the boyfriend!
Right 2012, I’m here, and I’m ready to reach my goal once and for all!