This Blog Has Moved!

Posted riestrella on November 5th, 2013 | Filed under Weight Loss Journey | Comment now »

I’ve decided to start a weight loss blog on blogger. So please go there for more up to date ramblings!

Halfway Through 2013 Review

Posted riestrella on May 31st, 2013 | Filed under Weight Loss Journey | Comment now »

The latter part of 2012 brought some incredible changes in my life. The biggest being I moved to Japan. However that didn’t mean good news for my weight loss, because in the last year I have gained 9 lbs. It’s not in the double digits (although recently it was, but thankfully went down) but it’s still a failure. I word it strongly, but I am trying my best to stay positive and accept the gain has happened and try and figure out a routine that will help me lose the weight and continue towards my goal.

Currently I am trying not to put time limits to my weight loss. I had been creating graphs on paper with dates on them. There wasn’t a time limit set in place, but I decided to scrap the line chart format and just draw a table of 30 blocks symbolising the last 30 lbs I’ve got left to go. When I lose weight I cross off a block. I’ve named it “The Final Countdown” because that song kicks ass, but also because it’ll be the last graph I make for myself. I’ve got 30 lbs to go and I will get there!

My friend is visiting me in Japan this August, I really want to lose weight before she gets here. I’ve nothing to prove to her, but I feel like it’s a good incentive. Plus it’ll be in the thick of a Japanese humid summer, so having less fat on my body will be better!

I recently booked flights to go home for Christmas. I would love to be at goal weight in the next 6 months but I’m not going to hold myself to it! But it would be amazing to return home to England and wow my friends and family with being at goal weight. Who knows? My next 6 month review could be me saying I’ve reached my goal!

My goal plan is eating cleaner. I replaced my sugary cereal (was the cheapest option in Japan) with fiber-tastic cereal (expensive but worth it for health reasons), I replaced my carb heavy lunches with salads and keeping my carb intake to workout snacks and dinner. Cooking is always difficult for me, I’m quite lazy and I tend to stick to what I’m comfortable with doing. But I’m trying to stick to high protein meals.

Exercise I’m doing a mix of everything I love – Yoga, Zumba, Home Fitness (Jillian Michaels and Insanity) and Running. I still haven’t figured out a decent running route here in Tokyo…I really dislike running in populated places. I miss my canal in England where I was never bothered!

So. I’m at 159 lbs. 9 lb regain since my last entry. 40 lbs to go. I hope that by my next update I’ll be at my goal!

Halfway through 2012 Review

Posted riestrella on June 28th, 2012 | Filed under Weight Loss Journey | Comment now »

I realised I don’t really take the time to update this journal as much, but I do like these annual updates that I tend to write. Looking back on my Christmas/New Year review makes me realise that even though perhaps I could have done more in these 6 months, I have still come a long way.

I am now 150 lbs meaning I have lost 13 lbs since I last wrote an entry. That’s bang on the line of Healthy/Overweight BMI which was Mini Goal #4. I now have 3 mini goals to complete – 4.5 which is become lighter than my boyfriend at 144 lbs, mini goal 5 reach 140 lbs which is the halfway point to my final goal and then the next goal will be my target weight! Madness.

In that time I have also ran a 10k race, my second one in my lifetime. I beat my previous time by 12 minutes by coming in at 59 minutes. I did it for a charity with my work friends, I came in 3rd out of my group and was the first girl! I even beat some of the men which is awesome! Very proud of my performance that day.

I am currently trying to eat cleaner (not eat crisps/too many carbs or sugars) and my exercise routine is running and circuit training. The latter being Jillian Michaels’s Making The Cut. I love lifting weights again since I haven’t done it so long.

The trip to visit my boyfriend was amazing, of course. He was very proud and impressed with my weight loss. We had so much fun together, I even surprised him with a trip to the wolf sanctuary. He loves wolves, so I got us a VIP to meet them too. I had a wolf lick my face! It was incredible. Since I’ve been back I’ve been planning on my move to Japan. After trying to get a job lined up before I move failed, I’m going to be shortly getting a working holiday visa and then I’ll be heading to Japan to look for a job there. My boyfriend currently lives there, so it’ll be amazing to live in the same country as him again.

So lots of things to look forward to in the not too distant future, and I’m hoping that this is the year I make my goal of 130 lbs! 50 lbs down, 20 lbs to go, I’ve got this!

End of December/2011 Review

Posted riestrella on January 4th, 2012 | Filed under Weight Loss Journey | Comment now »

Well December has been the worse month since June, I lost just 1 lb in total, nothing from my pudge and 0.5 from my boobage. Combination of laziness and eating crap during the Christmas period.

I managed to reach 161 lbs on my weigh in for the first day of January 2012 – but now I’ve managed to get back up to 163 lbs. I’ve just not been exercising and my period is due this week. Need to get back into Insanity and drink more water methinks.

However, despite a crappy December, 2011 was a great year for me in terms of weight loss. I lost 39 lbs, lost 6 inches from my stomach and 4 from my boobs. For the first time in my adult life I actually stayed true to my promise to lose weight – something I’ve been saying on January 1st every year since I realised I was overweight! Now I’m just 31 lbs away from victory.

I figured I would copy my post from the “This time last year” thread I made in the forum since I felt good typing it:

This time last year I was around 200 lbs and completely in denial about my weight. I was hoping to get funding for a breast reduction because I thought I was so out of proportion. When I actually looked at the measurements for my relaxed stomach and breasts they were almost equal – meaning I wasn’t out of proportion I was just fat. Needless to say the funding was denied.
I wasn’t exercising, I was eating at least 4 meals a day (and not good meals) and I was the heaviest I’ve ever been.
I had no confidence in my looks, my body, my abilities as a person and scared of the future. I didn’t have a job and I was terrified that I wouldn’t be able to find one. I was recovering from a major breakdown the year before and still felt waves of depression. Sometimes I would cry myself to sleep.
My relationship with my boyfriend was rocky, we were still working through issues due to my lack of confidence since it got in the way of our relationship. I wouldn’t believe him when he said I was beautiful, I would doubt his feelings for me, I would be paranoid if he ever hung out with a girl for fear that he would realise I’m fat, ugly and boring.

This year I weigh 162 lbs, close to 161 lbs. I’m just 11 lbs away from a healthy BMI. I realised that I was in denial about my weight, and once I stepped on the scale and calculated that I was actually obese I decided to stop feeling so sorry about myself and DO SOMETHING. I trained and ran a 10k, I came second to last with a time of 1 hour 11 minutes but every single person who saw me running to the finish line applauded me and cheered me on. It was one of the proudest moments of my life. I have lost 6 inches from my stomach and 4 inches from my breasts, I feel sexy for the first time in my life.
I’m now exercising 6 times a week doing the Insanity programme. I’ve cut out the junk food, eating healthier and I feel like I’ve made a huge lifestyle change with my diet. I don’t feel like I’m on a diet or cutting back, I feel like this is exactly what I could eat for the rest of my life and it’s good for me.
I feel more confident than I ever have before in my entire life, I found a job and I’m saving to move to Japan to teach English, and I feel I have completely recovered from depression. I haven’t shed a tear of self pity since I started losing weight.
My relationship is better than ever before, I’m so in love with my boyfriend and he is in love with me. I believe him now when he tells me I’m beautiful, I no longer compare myself to the girls he meets and I think he’s pretty darn lucky to have me!

So much has happened, it’s important to look back and think of the good things that I’ve done and the amazing progress I’ve made. I’m happy to say that I’ve inspired my parents, who are both obese, to lose weight too.

In 39 days I’ll be seeing my boyfriend for the first time in 7 months, it’s the longest we’ve been apart for 3 years and it’s starting to get really tough. I’m so stupidly excited to see him, and a month ago I wanted to be 150 lbs by the time I see him but after the stall it’s not going to happen. I want to make it into the 150s for sure before I go, but at this point I’m just going to lose as much weight as possible. The last time he saw me I was 181 lbs, which meant I was obese; being in the 150s means I’m so close to being healthy.

While I’m there I’m going to continue exercising, he works out a lot too so it won’t be hard to stay motivated around him, and I’m going to limit my food treats to one a day. I’m also going to perhaps work out twice a day if I feel that I’ve eaten too much or I see an increase in my weight while I’m there! He lives in a place where outdoor activity and exercise is worshipped, so I’m pretty confident I won’t let myself slip up like I have done in the past. Plus, I know endorphins make me feel sexy which will definitely be a good thing around the boyfriend!

Right 2012, I’m here, and I’m ready to reach my goal once and for all!

Reflections and Revelations

Posted riestrella on October 17th, 2011 | Filed under Weight Loss Journey | Comment now »

It’s been a while since I’ve wrote a journal entry, and I felt like now is a good time to reflect on what’s happened in the meantime. My last entry was about the 10k race I had finished, I was on Cloud 9 that I had got around and finished it, even though I was in second to last place! I felt fit and healthy, ready to take on anything. I weighed in at 177 lbs.

It’s now October 17th, 9 weeks later, and I’ve lost 7 lbs. After starting half marathon training I had to put it on standby since the weather was terrible and I just wasn’t enjoying my runs any more. I decided to take on the Insanity challenge by Shaun T. I’m now in week 5, and I’ve been enjoying it thoroughly.

However, the last week was a terrible one. I worked out once, felt drained and sluggish towards doing any of my workouts, and was eating terribly. Luckily I maintained 170 lbs that I had achieved the week before, but after seeing so much progress from running I got disheartened that I wasn’t seeing much results with Insanity. I’ve lost 1 lb since starting Insanity, but I think a big reason for that is because of my period. I’ve been experiencing lengthened periods, so I will suffer from the symptoms a week and a half before I actually start. Then it takes forever for the actual period to begin, sometimes I get the ‘signs’ that it’s coming for 5 days.

I also haven’t been drinking water or sticking to the meal plan that I set out for myself at the beginning of Insanity. Partially because of time constraints with work (I can’t eat mid shift at work like people with office jobs can) and partially because of laziness. I should be preparing my meals the night before or in the morning so I can just eat it and go.

So with the combination of period weight gain/water retention, lack of water to help with the former, lazy week with no exercise and eating food that isn’t good for me – I’ve remained at 170 lbs for 3 weeks. The great thing is is that I didn’t GAIN weight, so for that I am thankful and hopeful that with a week of dedication I will quickly begin to lose weight again.

Being at 170 lbs makes me realise how desperately I want to be in the 160s. It holds a couple of milestones for me. The first being 165 lbs, which is the halfway point to healthy BMI. I’ll be halfway towards healthiness, something I’ve never experienced in my adult life. The second is 164 lbs, which is the weight I was when I was 18. Getting below that means that the next time my boyfriend sees me, I’ll be the thinnest he’s ever seen me be. Getting through the 160s is important to me, because once I’m in the 150s I’ll be so close to that healthy BMI. So I suppose the 160s is exciting because I’ll be so close to a very important goal.

My ultimate goal is 130 lbs, but knowing that I am healthy will be an amazing feeling. Saying goodbye to 170 lbs feels like I’m saying goodbye to my past, the hard times I endured that made me gain the weight, goodbye to obesity (I will never see you ever again!) and it will open a door and make me see my goal clearer than before. Just 1 measly pound to lose and I’ll feel so much joy and excitement!

So my plan is to get on it with exercise, drink water religiously and maintain a healthy eating plan. I’m also starting the pill today in order to hopefully curb my period symptoms and make sure my periods are regulated so I don’t experience water retention for weeks. I’ve lost 23 lbs so far, I’m not going to give up like I have done so many times before. This is the thinnest I’ve been since my trip to Italy in 2009 and back then I felt confident and happy with the progress I had made and determined to keep it going. I failed in that, so now I’ve got a second chance and I’m going to keep that promise and make it to my goal weight.

No more excuses, no more slacking – just do it.

Completed My First 10K!

Posted riestrella on August 14th, 2011 | Filed under Weight Loss Journey | 1 Comment »

Copying this from the message board to document it here in my journal:

Hi everyone!

I feel happy (and sore) and want to scream from the rooftops that I completed my first ever 10k race!

There were about 200 contestants and let me tell you – these guys were not fucking around! I think I was one of the few who just looked like average every day people (and one of the few overweight people too). The rest were all part of running clubs, looked very much in shape and it was very intimidating. The track itself was rural which was nice, had good scenery to distract me! There were some challenging parts of it, including a few steep hills both up and down.

When we started people went sprinting off and I felt very awkward just taking my time and jogging the first 2 miles. I was actually last for a lot of the race. The route was a loop, and there was a point where it crossed back on itself. Just past the 2 mile mark and heading up the rear I crossed with a guy who was in the lead heading BACK. He was so so fast it was crazy!

When I hit the 3 mile mark I felt like giving up – I felt a bit disheartened that I was in last and I just started to feel really sick and tired. But I quickly slapped myself metaphorically speaking – I didn’t want to give up on something I had been training for for 7 weeks, I didn’t want to tell my family who had come to support me and I didn’t want to come crawling onto the 3FC boards saying that I failed!! So I took that little cup of water from the 3 mile water lady, I drank 10% of it and spilt 90% of it over myself and persisted through!

I managed to come in 2nd to last with a time of 1:11:20 (on my watch, might be a bit different to the officials). On my way in a lot of the runners who had finished were applauding me and encouraging me to the finish line – which I thought was super awesome. I got my medal which I was over the moon about, I thought I might have got a t-shirt but wearing a medal just felt amazing!

I’m not too disheartened about the position I came in, because 90% of the contestants were serious runners and considering I did 5 miles during my training in 1 hour 9 minutes I’m proud of the time I did it in. Also, what really mattered to me was that I didn’t give up, even though I was seriously considering it, and I pushed through to finish what I had started.

But what’s important to me is in the 7 week training period I’ve lost a total of 6 lbs, 0.8 inches from pudge and 0.5 inches from boobage! So I’m hoping to continue training to keep the results coming in.

Now time to train for that half marathon! =D

My Mum took a few pictures on her camera, but I took a picture of me with my medal. Happy times!

Waiting for the big 10k

Posted riestrella on August 12th, 2011 | Filed under Ramblings, Results, Weight Loss Journey | 2 Comments »

I haven’t updated this here blog in a while and thought I would. Unfortunately I had to take it off the public feed because I kept getting masses of spam in my comments for some reason =(. I might change it again and see what happens.

My 10K training has come to an end. Here are my results after 6 weeks:

Ran a total of 53.25 miles!

Lost a total of 6 lbs, 0.8 inches from pudge and 0.5 inches from boobage!

I’m very happy with the results, and I’ve got the running bug so my next race is a half marathon. As soon as I run the 10k on Sunday training for the half marathon will begin. I’m crazy, yes, but I’m loving the training programme as I’m getting fitter, stronger and losing weight.

Today and tomorrow are stretch and rest days, so all I can do is wait for the big day on Sunday. I feel a bit nervous, I’m wondering if I’ll make it around. But I know it’s all for me, I’m not trying to beat a time I’m just there to do it and finish it and feel like I’ve accomplished something.

I’m currently at 177 lbs, 2 lbs away from taking another picture of myself to see the progress. Can’t believe I’m in the 170s, feels like yesterday I was trying desperately to get out of the 180s. Weight loss is slow, and I’ll probably be in the 170s for a while longer, but it’s nice to know that I’ve come so far.

16 lbs lost, 47 lbs to go!

“Can’t cry it all away”

Posted riestrella on June 30th, 2011 | Filed under Weight Loss Journey | Comment now »

Title comes from a song I am listening to right now: Evanescence – Understanding. Love the band!

I’m on day 4 of my 10k training and so far so good! I did 2 miles in 21 minutes Tuesday and 2.5 miles in 32 minutes today. I’m a bit disappointed that it took me 11 minutes more to run the extra half mile, but I had to stop a few times because my calves were on fire and I had one hell of a stitch.

But there has been some great news this morning – I WEIGHED IN AT 181 LBS!

It’s the first time I’ve seen that number in the last 2 months so I’m super thrilled by it. I’m just 2 lbs away from not being obese any more, which makes me really excited. I’m hoping I can keep that number by Sunday and possible be at 180 lbs!

I don’t really have much else to report, but felt like the 181 lbs was an achievement enough to write up!

My first 10k

Posted riestrella on June 27th, 2011 | Filed under Weight Loss Journey | 1 Comment »

I’m happy to say that I have entered my very first 10k race! I’m really excited about it, and think it will be a great incentive to keep on top of my exercise no matter what – because I want to finish that race without dying! I just can’t help but tell the world…


I weighed and measured yesterday and here are my results:

Week 9 (26th June 2011)

Weight: 183 lbs ~ + 1 lb (Total 5 lbs lost)

Pudge: 42.1 inches ~ – 0.2 inches (Total 0.9 inches lost)

Boobage: 42. 8 inches ~ Same (Total 0.8 inches lost)

End of June Results

1 lb lost

0.4 inches lost from Pudge

0 inches lost from Boobage

A disappointing month in general in terms of boobage and pounds lost, but I’m quite happy that I’ve lost some measurements off my pudge. The pound gain was down to not working out as consistently while I was away and also the fact I’m on my blob.

BUT! I’m back on track with this 10k race and I found myself a great training programme for it. It pretty much looks like this for 7 weeks:

Monday: Strength & Stretch

Tuesday: Short run

Wednesday: Cross training (something different to running so biking, swimming, walking etc)

Thursday: 2 mile run + Strength

Friday: Rest Day

Saturday: Cross training

Sunday: Long run

Each week the distances and time of cross training increases, and the plan is open to modification for personal scheduling. So I’m quite happy with it.

I’m hoping to get my Mum involved on this too. She’s an amazing runner – she’s ran marathons, 10k’s, half Ironman’s…but I think she’s losing focus since she keeps focusing on a goal then relapsing on herself. I think if she enters this race and sees that we BOTH have to train it will help her a bit.

Back at Home Blues

Posted riestrella on June 23rd, 2011 | Filed under Concerns, Ramblings, Weight Loss Journey | Comment now »

My holiday was great. I ended up being there for 17 days (managed to get 4 days off in a row at work so didn’t have to come home so soon), and it was lovely spending time with my boyfriend. I love being around him, and it was amazing to not have to zip off to work like I usually have to when he comes to visit me.

I managed to get a blog entry in during my first week, but I ended up falling off the bandwagon a little bit after that. We got into bad habits like staying up late, drinking caffeine drinks, waking up later and skipping breakfast. It shifted my eating pattern off by a lot, meaning I was eating a 3rd meal later in the evening which I couldn’t really work off since all we were doing was lazying around.

I did do a couple of Thai Boxing sessions, which were great. After the first one my whole body ached the next day, it was awful but at the same time I really felt like I got a great workout.

I started to mentally shift too, I began to get really lazy and even though the BF was trying to encourage work outs I would protest.

So, I let myself down again. I wasn’t able to weigh in during my time there and I weighed in this morning at I’m at 186 lbs =/. That’s a 4 lb increase, but I am approaching my period and I’m going to do my best to stay on track with exercise. Plus, there’s no temptation of nipping out to the shop to buy caffeine and eating sneaky bags of crisps.

I also failed my second mini goal, which was to be at 180 lbs by the 12th June. Granted, I didn’t have a scale during my holiday, so maybe I was at that goal in week 1 of my holiday when I was being good! But I can’t say for sure, so I can safely say I failed it. I’m now in mini goal #3 which is to be at 165 lbs by 25th September. That means I’ll have to lose 17 pounds in 13 weeks. That means I’ll have to lose around 1.5 lbs every week to meet it.

I feel a bit sad too because when I’m around my BF I get so used to having someone there with me all the time. When I come home and I’m on my own I get really lonely. I feel like there should be someone there just be in the same room as me. I’m an independent person, so when I do live with friends I love the time alone, but when it’s forced on me to be alone I react strangely. I know it sounds like a contradiction, but it’s the best way I can describe it.

Also, I’m started to get increasingly sad about the fact that the BF is moving back to America on 16th July. I’m going to be moving with him when I have enough money, but I’m not sure how long it will take for me to save up the money. I know it’s silly, because I will see him again, but it might be another 4 months before we see each other. The time difference is awful too, right now that we’re in the same country we can text and call each other but when we’re in 2 different time zones it gets complicated. So when I’m done with my day and ready to relax and talk he’s about to zip off and get on with his day. I don’t know, maybe I’m just PMSing!