I can wear my wedding ring again! This is the first time I’ve be able to in years. It makes me so happy to know that I can do this without any help from a trainer or more importantly, pills. I kind of always thought that I would be fat forever and I would never be able to lose it on my own. But I can!! It might not be as fast as taking pills, but it’s much healthier and hopefully more long-term.
Happy Friday all!

Download this motivational song: “I am changing.” From the Dreamgirls soundtrack.

I’ve lost another 3lbs since last week! I hope I can keep going at this speed. I’m feeling really great, but I’m getting kind of bored with my food. I need to look through some recipe books and find some way to spice up my life. LOL

I’ve been exercising on my elliptical pretty much everyday.  I would like to start doing some strength exercises, but I’m reluctant to join the gym.  Why can’t all the Skinny B’s have their own dang gym?  They are in there running marathons on the treadmills, ellipticals, etc.  I guess I’m a little self-conscious to workout in front of them.  I think I need to make a fat girls coalition and we can all just charge in there and take up the machines and boot the skinny b’s out!

So I started WW last week and I weigh in on Thursdays.  I’ve been tracking my points online. It is really easy!  It seems kinda to good to be true.  I’m staying on or under my points everyday and started  exercising on my elliptical.  I’m still trying to do a lot of low GI foods, eating the right kinds of carbs, etc.

I’ve lost 19.5 lbs so far (this round) and a total of 40.5, since last year.

PCOS update: I’m a lot more hopeful about pregnancy after talking to my husband and my recently impregnated friend :).  I decided that I would continue my weight loss efforts and after 6 months, (if I’m not PG) we’ll try the metformin.

Okay, I’m going to go eat dinner and get ready to watch Biggest Loser!

My closest friend just found out she’s pregnant. I am so happy for her… I know she’s struggled as much as I have. But I can’t help but feel jealous. As soon as I hung up from talking with her I just started crying. I know, that’s lame, but it was completely involuntary. Will I ever lose this weight and be able to get pregnant?

Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) is a condition that I struggle with daily.  PCOS is a hormonal disorder that effects many women and is a major cause of female infertility.  Here is a list of some of the most common symptoms associated with PCOS:

• Acne.
• Weight gain and trouble losing weight.
• Extra hair on the face and body.
• Thinning hair on the scalp.
• Irregular periods.
• Fertility problems.

Yes they can be very embarrassing symptoms.  After I stopped taking my birth control pills (trying to get pregnant), I started getting some of the symptoms.  It seemed like I gained 40lbs overnight.  I started having really oily skin and horrible, painful acne.  I actually didn’t have my period for 6 months.  It was really scary.  I didn’t understand what was going on with me.  After being basically waved of by my doctor, I went to a specialist and found out what was wrong with me.

The best ‘treatment’ of PCOS (in my situation) was to lose weight.  So far I have lost 36lbs.  And my cycle is getting back on track, YEA!  I still have some acne problems here and there…but my symptoms have lessened greatly.  I’m excited to continue on my weight loss journey and glad that I have somewhere to go to talk about it!

Life’s a journey not a destination ~ Aerosmith