to start with the earthquake in japan and the tsunami is the pacific. very sad and upset about it. its just another reminder how one minute you can be living your life, and the next minute you can be dead, or someone you love can be dead. all i can do is pray for the people involved. pray for their strength to hold up, and to remain calm and that they can find peace in all of it. whatelse can you pray for?
now to happier news
my best friend is probably pregnant, she had a test that was positive, shes gonna have someone do her bloodwork this weekend for a better confirmation, just hope its a safe healthy pregnancy as she is still very overweight. i am so excited for her though, she has wanted this for so long, and they have been trying to adopt, got turned down by the korean adoption people because of her weight. which sucks..her husband is korean and adopted, so they wanted to do a second generation of it.
the past 2 days i have been slowly gaining, tom started today..well barely…i just want to get it over with so i can start losing again…its hard to know if you are on the right path if you just keep gaining and gaining…
i had got under 320, 319.2 but i am up a few pounds now, and im sure it will climb even higher for a few days…is it not bad enough that we get a period to start with…but then to add all the bloating and pain and emotions that come with it, its just cruel ha!
i am really tired, but i feel like i haven’t wrote here for days, just hard to get free private time with the computer…
been working on my bl video application, of course now my partner is pregnant….but i guess i will send it in anyways….you can’t win the lottery if you don’t play…..
my ear started hurting tonight…well more like sharp pains like 5 or 6 times…i don’t know what was up with it. been about a hour now since it happen…so i am hoping whatever it was is done..
trying to get the last bit of my water drank…almost 2am…i had been going to bed earlier…but with the tom etc..i was really tired today and gave in to a nap, about 3 hours worth. i ended up at 1500 calories, i was under a 1000 but i ate some great northern beans, and 2 fiber bars…haha yeah i know….but i think im getting a chocolate craving kicking in…and i needed the fiber..so oh well it is what it is.
i don’t know why i had so much problems getting my calories up today, i ate today..i had roast beef in whole wheat wraps. and a serving of buffalo chicken and brussell sprouts..cottage cheese and tomatos..and then finally the beans and fiber bars…that is another reason why i am trying to stay awake to finish the water and to give my food a little longer…been trying not to go to bed on a full stomach give it at least a couple of hours, and i think it has been a couple of hours now…or almost anyways..
i have noticed i have been trying to increase my protein but then my fiber goes down, so i have had a very high fiber day today, the past couple of days i had high protein days but barely any fiber, its hard to do both…so i don’t know if i should focus on the fiber or protein, or maybe alternate days..20 pounds away from 299..i am getting there slowly..tomorrow(saturday) is my last day of week 7!!! wow almost 2 months on plan. i would like to lose at a faster pace, but im just not willing to cut too much out of my diet right now, but im losing so its working, regardless i weigh 16 pounds less than i did. and i will soon hit 314…well maybe not soon…but 5 pounds away..and that is the lowest weight i could find recorded from last years diet…and that was one of my mini goals..
well i should go..