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Holding Steady……

Posted renewme on September 2nd, 2008 | Filed under General

or close to it.  2 weeks ago when I went to WW, I had a +1.6 weigh in.  That was a bit discouraging, but not totally unexpected.  It was TOM week, and I had not been very careful with what i ate.  I did not go to a meeting last week.  My parents were in town and I was busy getting the house cleaned up, and never got around to going.  I was not very careful with my food intake over the weekend.  As usual, my mom brought a bunch of junk along.  We also made a trip to the grocery store.  We walked by the halloween candy display, and she told dd to pick out a bag of candy.  I said we didn’t need any, but she insisted she get some.  At  the frozen sections, she saw Edys 2/$6 and picked out a 1/2 gallon or whatever size it comes in now.  I said here, you should pick out this slow churned low fat or yogurt.  She said I don’t buy that stuff it has to be the real thing.  Whatever.  She said go ahead and pick one our for yourself.  I looked at it but decided that I really didn’t want any.  Because even if it is low fat, I will eat too much, and that’s not good.  So we continued on over a few aisles and I realised mom had wandered off.  When we found her again, she was coming back from the ice cream with ANOTHER container of ice cream!  So now they are gone, and we have to almost full containers of extremely fattening ice cream sitting in the fridge.  When we checked out she also bought herself a candy bar.  This is a woman who had diabetes and is supposed to be watching her sugar intake!  I can’t change her, but I can change myself.  I didn’t do as well as I would have liked, but I did resist some of the temptations faced this weekend.  I got on the scale this morning and it was around 178, so I didn’t really gain anything over the weekend.  I just need to get back to healthy eating and exercise. 

I’ve been feeling a bit of discontent lately.  The kids are in school all day and I’m home alone.  I’ve done a bit of cleaning, and started to go through some pics that have been waiting for years to be put into albums.  I know there are other things that need to be done around here, but at the same time I feel there’s got to be more to life.  Am I just a maid and babysitter?  That’s how I feel sometimes.  What do I do about it? Do I volunteer my time at school or church or some other worthy cause during the day?  Should I try to find a part time job that allows me to work only when the kids are at school.  Or, a little more daunting do I go back to school and try to get the degree I never earned?  I went to college for 3 semesters before I got married and had kids.  I never declared a major, and quit after dd was born.  That was 15 years ago.  I don’t know if any of my credits from that long ago would even be honored anymore.  Would the cost of pursuing a 4 year degree even be worth it now?  I’ve thought if I could somehow get through an RN program by the time dd is in college I could be making decent money to help pay some of those costs.  DH seems to think she is going to get a scholarship, and while she is a straight A student, I tell him we can’t count on everything being paid for, and have to have some sort of plan to make up any difference.  I just don’t know.  Who would have thought at 36 years old, I’d still be trying to figure out what I want to be when I “grow up”.