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Where did my motivation go?

Posted renewme on January 24th, 2008 | Filed under General

Ok, I made it through the holidays only gaining 2 pounds.  Now here it is almost the end of January, and things really have not changed much.  At my weigh in, which was last Friday, 1/18 I was at 206.8, which put me at a total of 12 lbs. lost, that’s where I was at before I gained the 2 lbs. right before christmas.  Why have I stalled?  I have a number of excuses.  It was the holidays after all…….I only gained 2 lbs, in past years it would have been much more, and I probably would not have taken it off again by now.  I thought I had removed all temptation foods leftover from the holidays, when in came the girl scout cookies!  I cannot have stuff like that around!  It doesn’t matter if it’s in the freezer either, I have no problem eating a frozen cookie!  I never could understand how people could put them in the freezer and still have them the following year when orders are taken again!!!  There are no more in the house not though.  WE had 4 boxes left and I told dh to take them to work.  He said he was going to try to sell them!  (dd is a girl scout and people were asking if we could get more and then we won’t have to pay for them either)  We went out of town for 4 days over the long MLKJ weekend.  Stayed with MIL.  She always makes awesome desserts!  She had a scrupmptious pound cake, which didn’t help my weightloss efforts.  We also took my grandma out to lunch on Sat. and had Papa John’s Pizza Sat. night.  I was soooooooo over my weekly point allowance it’s not even funny.  It’s down right sad.  I’ve been snacking alot lately and it’s not on good stuff either.  DH bought some Lil Debbie cosmic brownies the other day.  I had one before I looked up the points- one was 7 points!!! That’s like a whole meal in one little brownie!  I have not had one since.  Alas, all the above are just excuses.  I made the choice to eat what I knew would not be beneficial to my goals.  I chose the short term “satisfaction” of eating something over the long term goal of getting healthy and feeling good about myself.  Why do I do the things I know I shouldn’t?

I need to get to a meeting and get back on track.  I was up a few pounds on the home scale this morning, but I had already had breadfast and 20+ ounces of water, so it’s probably not that bad.  I’m going to be super”good” today.  My points reset this morning, so it’s a clean slate.  Despite not doing well with food, I did exercise 3 or 4 days last week and had to shovel snow last Thurs., so I’m doing pretty well with exercise.  I’m going to hope that at my weigh in tomorrow (unless I gather the courage to go sometime today) that I’m at least even with where I was last week.  Then hopefully we’ll start seeing a good downward trend.