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My terrible horrible no good weekend!

Posted renewme on October 23rd, 2007 | Filed under General

Well, food and exercise wise at least.  My parents came to visit on Friday and stayed until Sunday afternoon.  I ate way too much and haven’t exercised since last Wed. or Thursday.  My inlaws were also in town, but stayed with SIL.  It was nice to get together with everyone, but why does it always involve food and why do I always eat too much?  We went out to dinner sat. night, at an all you can eat buffet.  Not my favorite kind of place.  lots of variety, but mediocre quality.  Had planned to bbq on Sunday after church, but it was extremely windy, so we decided just to order pizza.  Ate too many slices and breadsticks, and MIL brought some delicious turtle bars, which I couldn’t resist and ate too much of that.  Yesterday instead of getting back on track I snacked all day long, and didn’t exercise either.

 So, here I am again  3 lbs heavier than 1 week ago.  Lacking motivation and feeling disgusted with myself.  Somehow I will try to muster the strengh too turn things around and get back on track. 

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MY TERRIBLE HORRIBLE NO GOOD WEEK SO FAR!!!!

OK, it’s several hours after I posted the above, and what have I done?  Not a damn thing!  I dozed off on the couch.  What the hell is wrong with me?  I always thought it was the kids  that kept my house from getting clean.  As soon as I ‘d clean a room they’d be right behind me messing it up.  Maybe I am just a lazy fat ass.  Maybe I’m depressed.  Maybe I just don’t know who I am anymore.  I went from being  a college student to wife and stay at home mom very quickly.  Now my kids are all in school and I don’t know who I am anymore.  Maybe it just seems magnified the past few days, as TOM is very close, and I think I always get to feeling this way around then.  I don’t know.  I just don’t know why I do the things I do, and don’t do what I want to, or what I need to do.