The life and times of a ex-fat chick

My name is Rena and this is my story.. I am 45 year old and mom to two ADHD teenagers..  I once was married to a wonderful man- but he fall to a type 1 diabetes 6 years back..

He died at the age of 49 years and only 49 kgs.. It got me thinking what the hell was I doing to my body, putting the lid on his coffin really moved me and I don’t forget how lucky I am..

This was me 6 years ago, depressed and down having a very sick husband and one child out of control with his ADHD.. I almost killed myself taking handful of sleeping pills..  Between my husbands pain, his dialysis machine beeping non stop nightly and my son crying nightly.. I was a wreck..  My husband died and I put my son by own wish in a foster home.. He is a wonderful boy today and we are close..

This is me at 65-67 kgs I also have a summer weight- because of my job I have to eat more in winter so I don’t suffer from the cold..

I am a gym rat and was before my spinal injury- high impact aerobics is bad on the spine- but I have learned to keep it low impact and strength train.  I am now medication free for the 6th year..  I lost my weight thanks to a small danish weight watcher type concept here in denmark and I have control over my weight so it doesn’t annoy me anymore..

I eat when I have to and can say no to crap food and what I can do with my body- I can only say wow.. 

My only life philosophy is the following saying..

“I shall shape my future. Whether I fail or succeed shall be no man’s doing but my own. I am the force; I can clear any obstacle before me. Or I can be lost in the maze. My choice. My responsbility. Win or lose, only I hold the key to my destiny.”

Posted on March 21st, 2010 by rena1965
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