So after more than a year of drama with several major medical issues with both husband and self, I am starting out again. Weight is probably about the same or more. Had lost 40 now gained it back. Just reread the article I posted last and it seems to run pretty true.
There is no choice but to keep trying. Weight is too devastating to the body - makes everything difficult. As I get older I am more prone to knee problems, neck and back problems.
So here is to a new year and trying again. If my husband can deal with his newly diagnosed diabetes and Valley Fever, I can deal with this obesity.
I am going to try and start this blog hoping that it will help me get started AGAIN!!! I should be painting, but I have run out of mental energy lately. Maybe it is the heat (112 today in Phoenix), who knows? I am getting over a cold (the first one in a long time) and hubby has just started his (thanks to me). I am wearing a heart monitor for three weeks to see if my occasional heart blurbs mean anything, so that complicates life a little. In four weeks I will be taking a trip to see my grandbaby and then on to see relatives and some friends. It would be nice if I could begin to get off some weight before then. In three months I go to Australia for 10 days with my son - I would REALLY like to be more comfortable on that long trip.
So where do I start? I have done this so many times and I see everybody has the same story - lose, gain, lose, and gain. There is no permanent answer I am sure, or at least I would be really interested to hear of someone who kept a vast amount of weight off for a lengthy period of time without making it their career. I read an article the other day that really hit home. http://www.nytimes.com/2012/01/01/magazine/tara-parker-pope-fat-trap.html?_r=1&pagewanted=all This is an article by Tara Parker Pope and it pretty much says what I have been hearing for a few years now - reported from scientists, etc. We are all fighting an uphill battle, that is pretty much not winnable. So why try? Good question. I guess because I don’t feel I can just give up. I want to see my granddaughter grow up and I have already done enough damage to my body with smoking for thirty years (quit 10 years ago) and eating wrong. I need to give myself a chance. What have I got to lose? Mostly the TASTE of food and the way it calms me and acts as an anti depressant.
So, my significant other is naturally strong and lean - he can eat what he wants and look great. However, he does have high blood pressure and I don’t - his sugar can run a little high, and mine is ok. He has sleep apnea and so do I. Does that make sense? I am 75 pounds overweight at least and he is perfect. Genes are pretty influential.
I have always done the best when I keep track, which I will do with Fitday. I also do better when I develop some pattern to eating. Sneaking in the fresh veggies and fruit will be the tough and important part. I tend to forget those things in my rush though the kitchen. I am not a cook and do the least I can do in the kitchen. I am a carb addict - especially sugar. Chocolate and sugar will be the difficult things to part with as they always have been.
I have no problem exercising, and have been doing that for many years, which is probably the reason I am not diabetic or have high blood pressure like my sister (who died at 63 from heart and diabetes). Exercise will be the least of my problems.
So here goes. Tomorrow I will faithfully keep my food record and get going. If I get depressed I will try to find another solution besides chocolate:)