The Never Ending Battle

OK, so I have allowed myself one whine post out of every 7.  Originally I would allow one a week, but I know me, and I would only end up posting my whines…..So since this is a brand new blog I am letting myself this freebie.

Now, my whine.  Drumroll please………. I have Wii shoulder.  Technically it is diagnosed as Tennis/Bowling/Golfing shoulder.  But Wii sums it all up.  And it hurts, did I mention that?  Son of a turkey butt it hurts!  We let the kids have the wii we got for them last Friday (instead of Christmas)  and we played it all weekend, other than 2 hours at church and an hour at the grocery store (must keep up strength for wii-ing)  Just imagine if I had gotten wii-fit!  Criminey Dutch, I would not be able to walk. 

OH, and I forgot to tell you, it hurts!~

Food was not horrible.  I tried to make a childhood breakfast that Paul or the kids had never had.  It was fried cornmeal mush.  It really is a whole lot better than it sounds (thankfully!)  But I was silly and looked up a recipe instead of making it from memory.  I should have questioned it when it called for 6 cups of water and one cup of cornmeal.  Sure enough it did not set like it was suppose to.  I was able to flour and fry a few slices, but the texture was mushy nastiness.  It is certainly worth trying though.  You make a cornmeal mush, texture of cream of wheat, then you pour it inot a loaf pan and refrig overnite.  Take it out and slice it about quarter inch thick and flour and fry it.  Serve with maple sryup over the top, good stuff–when it turns out right.  stupid recipe!

I also made homemade pizza that everyone loved.  Made my own crust, partially whole wheat flour.  Toping was canned sauce, and beef, onions and peppers, like a philly cheese steak.  Topped with cheddar, motz, and italian dried seasoning.  Baked the  crust slightly before toppings went on, I brushed the crust with Olive oil and garlic.  Fantastic stuff!

OH, and the crabby attitude does not really have a root cause, it just is.  And at this point I am fine with it, but much worse and I wont even be able to stand myself!

This journey/battle is no new thing for me ya know.  You would think that after all these years I would have it figured out, but I do not.  Head knowledge I have, heart knowledge (motivation) I struggle with so desperatly.   

I have heard about switching up your calories, for many years.  And I know my motabolism needs a huge shake up, thats for sure.  I have done some pretty good damage to it.  So I have been seriously investigating Calorie Cycling.  I found a great blog at Jenn’s Reasonable Weight Loss She is really dedicated to share her journey and I give here HUGE Kudos (well I would, but those bars are alot of empty calories!)

So my task this weekend is to figure out a plan, just one week, and then I will rotate it.  My son is SICK of chicken, in fact he went on a chicken strike last night.  He would only eat the potatos and a tiny portion of veggies because we were having chicken once again!  Had to break it to him that chicken was on the menu tonight as well! (tough news for a 16 yr old to not get his way)  So I guess I better start mixing in a little variety…..but when I do that I often get in trouble with fat contents.

Another thing I am battling with is accountability.  I think I need to inform a few more people about this plan so they can encourage me, I dont like to let people down, and that may be the motivation I need right now to keep on track.

And lastly, I got a workout video with my new Biggest Loser Scale.  I have thought about looking at the video—looking, I did NOT say participating……..so I am going to give that some more thought.

Time to focus.  Time to forgive.  Time to be diciplined.  Time to give myself permission to succeed, and to fail.

These are the battles I face.  Amoung others.  These are the battles I have with losing weight.  If it were as simple as not eating I would have it made.  I often, actually most always, go without breakfast or lunch.  And snacking is not really a problem either.  But it is not about depriving myself of food.  It is about the correct foods, the wholesome foods, and the balanced diet of small meals through the day.

Buying healthy foods is expensive, and I use that as an excuse.  My funds are limited, and it is often easier to just buy low quality foods.  But then again having a heart attack and being out of work would be costly, and that is what I could be facing in time.  That is my reality.  So why does not that not scare me?

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