I was writing to a group of friends today, actually asking for pray support during this battle journey, when I realized something.
The only time I was at a healthy weight since I was 9 years old (thats 34 years folks!)….anyway they only time I was thin was when I was 18 and 19. And I was drinking like a fish.
I found that very profound, a little scarey, and a reminder on why I rarely drink now.
I did NOT weigh myself every day this week so far
And while NOT doing that I did NOT see a couple pounds off in just 3 days
I did NOT eat peanut butter every day for the last 4 days after not having it around for several months
I did NOT justify the measured quantity of PB for the sake of protien
I did NOT look up recipes for oriental chicken type recipes that call for Peanut Butter
I did NOT dream about a hair brush shaped Recee’s peanut butter cup…….seriously, cause if I had done that I would seriously wonder about my sanity!
I did NOT give thanks that hubby works out of town and he has to leave Monday morning, and I did not swear under my breath when Hubby called and said he was sick and coming back home that afternoon.
I did NOT jump up and down when he left for out of town again this morning at 4 freaking-dark-o’clock
Just a quick post to say I am going to post! HA
I am staying on plan, tracking everything, and doing well……….day one of the detox 7 day plan has started, half way through, already tempted with fast food, and with chocolate cake, I opted for the Applebees chili-lime chicken salad, 250 cals
SO if you ask many people “what is your biggest challenge for weight loss?” They would typically say things like; cutting back on portions, cutting out fast food, getting rid of the chips etc, too many carbs, too much fat, etc…..right?
For me it is so different. It is such a challenge for me to eat in the morning, and even at lunch. About 10am I get a little hungry, but a cup of coffee takes care of that usually. Then I eat dinner at 6pm-7pm, and rarely have a snack. BOY the damage I have done to my system! When I eat like that I dont lose ANYTHING, it is a way of life for me and has been for many years.
So my challenge is eating 3 meals a day and 1-2 snacks. Today I am doing well, I had half a cup of yougurt with a third cup of honey bunches of oats ontop. Not alot, but as much as I can handle right now. I had a snack of 2 pieces of whole grain toast and some JIF reduced fat PB, around 10:30. And I packed a lunch too……….so far so good!
Great Pasta dish
Whole wheat spaghetti, or any pasta shapes
Sautee onion in some EVOO, (I used 1 small) when about half done I added 4 cloves of garlic chopped, and 1 tsp red pepper flakes, cook a couple minutes. Add 1 pound of raw shrimp, shelled and deveined, and some kilbasa (can omit if you like–I used hot kilbasa) Cook until the shrimp is done and kilbasa starting to brown. Dump in one can of tomatoes (I used whole toms, large can, and squished them up) add all the liquid with it. Season with salt and pepper. I also added frz brocoli, but would be excellent with fresh spinach, Toss in your cooked pasta and let absorbe the liquid. YUMMY! Cals and portion is all dependant upon your ingrediants, but mine turned out to be a nice sized portion for 380 calories!
SO the last line was suppose to read………
And I still cannot figure out how to add a weight tracker to my blog.
BUT my thoughts went faster than my fingers, and I type 70 wpm…….so apparently there was a tornado inside my head!
I’m trying to get my groove goin’. Know what I mean? Ever feel that you have to get it all together? I’ve got a list you see, and it is longer than Santa’s I am quite sure! Some are one time actions, and some–many–are habits I need to start getting into. And not very many of these items are getting crossed off!
The list could go on and on…..but that is depressing.
And I still cannot figure out how to add
Christmas Party tonight for work, bound and determined to have fun! Kids go over the passes tomorrow, praying for safe travel and decent weather before the next storm rolls in and blasts us some more with snow and single digit temps.
One more try on this darn tracker, then I give up!
Not great things happening here. With the exception of weight loss, everything else is CRAP! It has been a tight year, my income is down by 20% for the year, bills are high, food is high, etc…..it’s the same story everywhere, so this is not news to you (my make believe audience) Paul had been told he would be getting a Chirstmas bonus that was equal to 2-4 weeks of salary, so we had things all figured out! That would pay for the kids Christmas….no problem. Well he finds out this week that there is no bonus for anyone, nothing, nadda! I have no clue what we are going to do now. The kids were to go to thier dads last night until Christmas, then come home and celebrate with us. The weather is so bad they cannot get over the pass, so we are waiting to see if it clears. SO, I have no Christmas for the kids…….I can wing it on the 31st, and make it happen, then we will be short the following month. Times like this I wish we had not given up credit cards. I would have a real Christmas, and then bills for the next few months….wow, I take that back, I don’t want the credit cards back! So this is where faith comes in. I beleive in God, and I have a great church family, and I need to trust that God will provide. AND I need to be better with my finances and not plan on things that MIGHT happen to cover the expences. I am thankful I dont have CC debt.
The scale is teetering, and the monthly monster is here in full force. SO I am hoping that I will take the final plunge to 302…………that is SO so very hard to type for me. But I started on Dec 2nd at 306 AND had a birthday in the middle with pizza and peanut butter pie, and then ice cream the following day. SO if I can truly be at 302 by the 23rd that will be 4 pounds in 3 weeks………not stellar, but I will take it. I really want to be under 300 by the end of the month, and I think I can do that, I just really need to watch myself. And if I can do that during the holidays I can really use that as a motivator!
OK, I am rambling, and need to get back to work.
It’s really hard for me to get into the Christmas spirit this year. Not sure exactly why, but it is.
Was very happy to see the scale moving again this morning, so far this week I have lost 3 pounds, in 4 days. Today was my birthday celebration at the office. (THE day is tomorrow). Its a good thing that I did not eat my usual (as of the last 4 days) breakfast of 350 calories. We had pizza and peanut butter pie! And I have had over 1000 calories in just that one meal. Im OK though, that leaves me with enough for a dinner tonight which will be very late, we will be out until about 8pm
Made a rice dish that was fantastic! I really need to get my camera going so I can take picutures.
stir fry in onions, then add the vegetables and the garlic, stir fry until veggies are heated through. make a well at the bottom and add your water that you disololved the bullion and spice into. Add soy sauce. bring the liquid to a boil and then add all the rice and mix until all is incorporated (everything is equal amount of yellow) Very low in calories, very tasty! Curry could be hotter if you like, curry paste would be could too, I did not have any.
Just get on the track, Jack
Stick to the plan, Stan
Food is not a toy, Roy
Just set yorself free
Build your self-trust, Gus
You need to discuss much
You can’t hide or flee, Lee
Just set yourself Free.
Now, if you have that horrible Simon and Garfunkle song stuck in your head all day please don’t hate me!
Why does a silly number on that white flat box in my bathroom set my mood? I was down a pound this morning from last week (or down 4 pounds from mid week) And seeing that number gives me hope for this battle. REALLY STUPID thinking. I really must retain my brain. THat number does not define ME, my weights does NOT DEFINE ME, my past does not define me, my current situation does not define me. All those things are just trivial to who I am.
So back to the topic, my plan. I will be calorie counting and calorie cycling. On a seven day cycle it will look something like this
Every OTHER week day 3 (my high calorie day) will be a free day where I will not worry about tracking anything.
So there is my plan, No I just have to stick to it.
