SO the last line was suppose to read………
And I still cannot figure out how to add a weight tracker to my blog.
BUT my thoughts went faster than my fingers, and I type 70 wpm…….so apparently there was a tornado inside my head!
I’m trying to get my groove goin’. Know what I mean? Ever feel that you have to get it all together? I’ve got a list you see, and it is longer than Santa’s I am quite sure! Some are one time actions, and some–many–are habits I need to start getting into. And not very many of these items are getting crossed off!
The list could go on and on…..but that is depressing.
And I still cannot figure out how to add
Christmas Party tonight for work, bound and determined to have fun! Kids go over the passes tomorrow, praying for safe travel and decent weather before the next storm rolls in and blasts us some more with snow and single digit temps.
One more try on this darn tracker, then I give up!
Not great things happening here. With the exception of weight loss, everything else is CRAP! It has been a tight year, my income is down by 20% for the year, bills are high, food is high, etc…..it’s the same story everywhere, so this is not news to you (my make believe audience) Paul had been told he would be getting a Chirstmas bonus that was equal to 2-4 weeks of salary, so we had things all figured out! That would pay for the kids Christmas….no problem. Well he finds out this week that there is no bonus for anyone, nothing, nadda! I have no clue what we are going to do now. The kids were to go to thier dads last night until Christmas, then come home and celebrate with us. The weather is so bad they cannot get over the pass, so we are waiting to see if it clears. SO, I have no Christmas for the kids…….I can wing it on the 31st, and make it happen, then we will be short the following month. Times like this I wish we had not given up credit cards. I would have a real Christmas, and then bills for the next few months….wow, I take that back, I don’t want the credit cards back! So this is where faith comes in. I beleive in God, and I have a great church family, and I need to trust that God will provide. AND I need to be better with my finances and not plan on things that MIGHT happen to cover the expences. I am thankful I dont have CC debt.
The scale is teetering, and the monthly monster is here in full force. SO I am hoping that I will take the final plunge to 302…………that is SO so very hard to type for me. But I started on Dec 2nd at 306 AND had a birthday in the middle with pizza and peanut butter pie, and then ice cream the following day. SO if I can truly be at 302 by the 23rd that will be 4 pounds in 3 weeks………not stellar, but I will take it. I really want to be under 300 by the end of the month, and I think I can do that, I just really need to watch myself. And if I can do that during the holidays I can really use that as a motivator!
OK, I am rambling, and need to get back to work.
It’s really hard for me to get into the Christmas spirit this year. Not sure exactly why, but it is.
Was very happy to see the scale moving again this morning, so far this week I have lost 3 pounds, in 4 days. Today was my birthday celebration at the office. (THE day is tomorrow). Its a good thing that I did not eat my usual (as of the last 4 days) breakfast of 350 calories. We had pizza and peanut butter pie! And I have had over 1000 calories in just that one meal. Im OK though, that leaves me with enough for a dinner tonight which will be very late, we will be out until about 8pm
Made a rice dish that was fantastic! I really need to get my camera going so I can take picutures.
stir fry in onions, then add the vegetables and the garlic, stir fry until veggies are heated through. make a well at the bottom and add your water that you disololved the bullion and spice into. Add soy sauce. bring the liquid to a boil and then add all the rice and mix until all is incorporated (everything is equal amount of yellow) Very low in calories, very tasty! Curry could be hotter if you like, curry paste would be could too, I did not have any.
Just get on the track, Jack
Stick to the plan, Stan
Food is not a toy, Roy
Just set yorself free
Build your self-trust, Gus
You need to discuss much
You can’t hide or flee, Lee
Just set yourself Free.
Now, if you have that horrible Simon and Garfunkle song stuck in your head all day please don’t hate me!
Why does a silly number on that white flat box in my bathroom set my mood? I was down a pound this morning from last week (or down 4 pounds from mid week) And seeing that number gives me hope for this battle. REALLY STUPID thinking. I really must retain my brain. THat number does not define ME, my weights does NOT DEFINE ME, my past does not define me, my current situation does not define me. All those things are just trivial to who I am.
So back to the topic, my plan. I will be calorie counting and calorie cycling. On a seven day cycle it will look something like this
Every OTHER week day 3 (my high calorie day) will be a free day where I will not worry about tracking anything.
So there is my plan, No I just have to stick to it.
OK, so I have allowed myself one whine post out of every 7. Originally I would allow one a week, but I know me, and I would only end up posting my whines…..So since this is a brand new blog I am letting myself this freebie.
Now, my whine. Drumroll please………. I have Wii shoulder. Technically it is diagnosed as Tennis/Bowling/Golfing shoulder. But Wii sums it all up. And it hurts, did I mention that? Son of a turkey butt it hurts! We let the kids have the wii we got for them last Friday (instead of Christmas) and we played it all weekend, other than 2 hours at church and an hour at the grocery store (must keep up strength for wii-ing) Just imagine if I had gotten wii-fit! Criminey Dutch, I would not be able to walk.
OH, and I forgot to tell you, it hurts!~
Food was not horrible. I tried to make a childhood breakfast that Paul or the kids had never had. It was fried cornmeal mush. It really is a whole lot better than it sounds (thankfully!) But I was silly and looked up a recipe instead of making it from memory. I should have questioned it when it called for 6 cups of water and one cup of cornmeal. Sure enough it did not set like it was suppose to. I was able to flour and fry a few slices, but the texture was mushy nastiness. It is certainly worth trying though. You make a cornmeal mush, texture of cream of wheat, then you pour it inot a loaf pan and refrig overnite. Take it out and slice it about quarter inch thick and flour and fry it. Serve with maple sryup over the top, good stuff–when it turns out right. stupid recipe!
I also made homemade pizza that everyone loved. Made my own crust, partially whole wheat flour. Toping was canned sauce, and beef, onions and peppers, like a philly cheese steak. Topped with cheddar, motz, and italian dried seasoning. Baked the crust slightly before toppings went on, I brushed the crust with Olive oil and garlic. Fantastic stuff!
OH, and the crabby attitude does not really have a root cause, it just is. And at this point I am fine with it, but much worse and I wont even be able to stand myself!
This journey/battle is no new thing for me ya know. You would think that after all these years I would have it figured out, but I do not. Head knowledge I have, heart knowledge (motivation) I struggle with so desperatly.
I have heard about switching up your calories, for many years. And I know my motabolism needs a huge shake up, thats for sure. I have done some pretty good damage to it. So I have been seriously investigating Calorie Cycling. I found a great blog at Jenn’s Reasonable Weight Loss She is really dedicated to share her journey and I give here HUGE Kudos (well I would, but those bars are alot of empty calories!)
So my task this weekend is to figure out a plan, just one week, and then I will rotate it. My son is SICK of chicken, in fact he went on a chicken strike last night. He would only eat the potatos and a tiny portion of veggies because we were having chicken once again! Had to break it to him that chicken was on the menu tonight as well! (tough news for a 16 yr old to not get his way) So I guess I better start mixing in a little variety…..but when I do that I often get in trouble with fat contents.
Another thing I am battling with is accountability. I think I need to inform a few more people about this plan so they can encourage me, I dont like to let people down, and that may be the motivation I need right now to keep on track.
And lastly, I got a workout video with my new Biggest Loser Scale. I have thought about looking at the video—looking, I did NOT say participating……..so I am going to give that some more thought.
Time to focus. Time to forgive. Time to be diciplined. Time to give myself permission to succeed, and to fail.
These are the battles I face. Amoung others. These are the battles I have with losing weight. If it were as simple as not eating I would have it made. I often, actually most always, go without breakfast or lunch. And snacking is not really a problem either. But it is not about depriving myself of food. It is about the correct foods, the wholesome foods, and the balanced diet of small meals through the day.
Buying healthy foods is expensive, and I use that as an excuse. My funds are limited, and it is often easier to just buy low quality foods. But then again having a heart attack and being out of work would be costly, and that is what I could be facing in time. That is my reality. So why does not that not scare me?
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