Eat Clean Challenge — Day 1 completed, 3 pauses left
Well, I got through. It was not the greatest, but on the weekend I will take it. I ate too much, was stuffed doing it but did it anyhow. And for this challenge, I will allow that, though not for long. The important thing is to eat clean. The next is to ax the cigs and alcohol and plan and review my eating…but let me get this under my belt a bit more…
In any case I have had a lousy weekend, though I got to the gym and made some vegetable stew last night and now, before 6:30 a.m. I have lunch packed and am about to get ready to go to the gym before work. What I mean by a “lousy weekend” is that nothing “good” (things that make me feel happy!) is coming from the outside, so it’s a real bummer. On top of that, negative and “downer” things are coming.
And insteand of feeling good about the good things I’m doing for myself, I just feel angry and irritated that I have to do everything with NO real reward. Losing weight just doesn’t do it. I guess I have to come up with some other reward that hinges on whether I eat clean, i.e. buy myself something or do something cool IF I get through a certain number of days of clean eating. Also, I may breakdown the challenges in smaller elements, because “eating clean” in a good way involves all these other things, like buying food, cooking it, packing it, all things I am not good at. Sigh. Ok, just wanted to get it out here…..