Well, for all my consistency, I learned something about myself this week. I am most certainly a stress eater. I would have said that I wasn’t, but I was obviously wrong.
Shit.
On the good side, I did fine on the math (37/40), my Cad is still good (sitting 99.6% average on the 12 drawings we’ve done). However, I had my third test in processes tonight and I’m not confident I’ve pulled it over 80%, and I’m ready to kill most of my Communications partners for the report (that I feel I’ll be finishing up this weekend because with the exception of one of the four, they’re pretty much useless). We’ll find out when we need to present Friday (worth more than the report), but we have nothing done for it. It’s possible we may need to have it done for Tuesday (report due Monday). I’ve also decided I’m going to do the extra credit proposal, since I don’t have a lot of confidence that we’ll do well on the project/report.
Okay, back to the stress eating. I’m not sure why I went off the rails yesterday, but it started in the grocery store about 2:30pm. Bad choice to go in on my way home, but I’ve done it before. Although to be fair, I usually eat my lunch in the car at school before driving home. So bad options in the cart, and then an inability to not eat the fucking things. Bad day #1.
This morning wasn’t any better, started bad, went worse. Tomorrow I need to get a handle on it. I’ve sat down and planned for a lifting day. The only positive thing is that the congestion is gone, I haven’t coughed all day, and I should have enough calories in my system that lifting tomorrow should be fantastic.
I’m not going to post the details (although I have logged them in FitDay). So, remembering that maintenance is somewhere around 3000 cals, the totals for the days were:
Tuesday - 4754
Wednesday - 4636
I didn’t get on the scale today, but I will tomorrow. It won’t be pretty, and I know from the past it will take probably a week to right itself. Tomorrow will be day #1 of being back on plan.
Now I’m off to sleep. I actually only have one class tomorrow (11-1pm), so I’ll lift in the afternoon and then work on my Communications report in the afternoon/evening.
This is a tough situation. I can go and say oh it happens to us all but who wants to hear that? You’ve been at this a long time, you’ve seen the results and , to me, you seem to know what you’re doing. I see you haven’t blogged in those past few days. I noticed that about myself too. Meaning that when I’m slipping off plan, I almost don’t want to report about it. But I usually do get around to it. And then I feel good about it. I know this isn’t going to go off without a hitch, and what good would the struggle and success be without the ups and downs and trials along the way? In no way am I glad that you’ve had this struggle the past couple days, but I am encouraged to hear that happens to everyone, even those who have come so far and seem to have a handle on it. SO THANK YOU very much for sharing. Wishing you an easy transition back to plan. Hang in there!
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Well, today was day one, and although it wasn’t easy, it wasn’t that hard. I think it’s just as important to share the bad days as well as the good.