Weekly Weigh-in - Oct 26th, 2008
The Sunday to Sunday loss this week is 3.2lbs. I’m a little surprised at that since I really haven’t done any regular exercise since Sunday, although I always adjust my calories down if I skip a workout. I’ve also felt generally without energy all week. I attributed some of this to an exceptionally heavy period so that may also explain the weight loss. I’ve also got a pretty nasty bruise on the one knee that I really don’t remember doing anything that would cause it. Oh well, I’ll just be happy with the loss and hope that I don’t find next week is a low one. The 9-week loss is 19.4lbs (2.16/week) which is usually the ‘number’ I look at to see how things are going overall. The other little compulsive number I look at is how many days I’ve been ‘on plan’ primarily with food. I still consider the maintenance week ‘on plan’ since I accomplished what I wanted to. So, since I started keeping track this is day 296 on plan with food.
I also feel I should at least acknowledge that I passed a milestone this week. I started back to my weight loss on December 7th of last year at 358.2 pounds. A depressing number as the first time I lost weight I had gone well past that point. So as of this week I’m 100.2 pounds below that point, a little earlier than I expected. I thought I would be happy if I hit that amount lost in a year, and here I am having hit it a full 6 weeks earlier than that. So… why am I not happy? I find with each milestone that I tend to end up more depressed than happy. I’m not really sure why. I can’t simply focus on the achievements. I tend to focus too much on the negatives. ie. I’m still considered morbidly obese, I still have a hell of a long way to go, etc. I’m not looking for validation on the positives (really, I’m not) I just can’t seem to shake the negatives away.
Anyway, this week’s chart:
Anne, don’t read this because I want to validate you!
I’m sorry you have a case of the negs. I see you as a Woman Of Steel and am so impressed with what you have done, and how you have gone about it.
Keep looking forward. I’m proud to blog with you!
Thanks Susan. I don’t know why I get this way each time I feel I should celebrate progress. I just suck myself down in the blahs thinking about what I have left to do.
Don’t look at what you still have to do, Anne, look at what you’ve already done! You’re phenomenal! I honestly don’t know how you stay so focused. You’re an inspiration to all of us.
CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR MILESTONE!!!
I think I stay so focused because I have to. I saw what happened when left to my own devices - I slowly regained. I should point out that I regained mainly eating ‘good for you’ food. Just a little too much of it, that’s all. I suspect it will be years after I’m done before I’ll be willing to stop tracking my food intake.
I agree, you are an inspiration, but I very much understand how those words affect you negatively as well as positively. I find myself slipping backwards often times when I am doing good. I haven’t yet been able to identify what exactly the cause of that is. I also tend to shrug off compliments and praises, knowing deep down there’s more I could do or a little better I could do… and then there’s that thing of the long haul. It’s a lifetime challenge and struggle for sure. Yours was the first blog I checked when I joined here. I greatly appreciate the info you provide us with. I have many questions but I’ll have to learn on my own along the way. Thanks for your encouragement comments on my blog. Good luck with everything including your studies. Last but not least… WAY TO GO on 100 lbs in less than a year. That’s awesome.
Thanks. I was watching a show the other day and they made a point about thanking people when they pay you a compliment on weight lost. That most people in the middle of their loss tend to say things like ‘thanks, but I still have a way to go’ or some type of qualifying comment. I’m very much like that. I think also I’m concerned that I’ll reach a point and say ‘hey, everyone keeps telling me I look great, so I’ll stop’.