:)  Yeah, I don’t know if anyone reading this (is there anyone reading this?) will get the reference but it is a pretty old tv commercial…  I have been wobbling on my program lately…  I think I figured out where the wobble started and I am working to fix it.  I think it started with Atkins bars…  I checked the label and the sugar/sugar alcohol content was fabulous (as in almost non existent) and the carb count wasn’t high enough to become alarming buuuut….my reaction to them seems to have been less than favorable…my journal writing wobbled…my eating in between meals crept in…and I have been over eating and my cravings for all sorts of insane foods have been INTENSE!!  In fact, I found myself with doughnuts staring me in the face a couple days ago…  I am happy to say that they did not win…but I also have to say that the reason that they didn’t win is mostly the thought of telling DH that I ate the doughnut and the ensuing sugar madness…  The look of worry and disappointment on his face…I could see it…and that is what really gave me the strength to walk away…  I have not had a serious craving for a doughnut since I began RR.  I believe that I have pinpointed the problem however and am running back towards the path.  Yesterday was good…in so many ways…  And I am feeling good this morning as well.  It was also funny that Friday was the day I had the in your face meeting with the doughnut…  I had just walked out of the store and DH called…  I was still feeling frustrated and squirmy and bitchy…and then I got home and checked the mail…my bodhi seed bracelet that I had ordered from Shakya Design had arrived…even though I had only ordered in like 3 days prior…  It is basically for meditation without drawing attention to it.  Sometimes they call it Focus jewelry…I like that…I really do.  And for several nights before the bracelet came I had slept really poorly and awoke with nightmares…they have stopped since I began wearing it…  Could be coincidence…maybe not…but they do mention on the website that they can help with nightmares…seems kind of odd…  Have you ever seen bodhi seed?  It is very smooth and beautiful..but flawed as well…and the scent is earthy and rich and soothing…my bracelet has a carved bone endless knot in the center and that is how I like to envision my life with DH…entwined and endless…

Today is a new day…and it is beautiful…and right now…I am firmly on the path…no wasted thought of the days spent wandering alone in the dark…I am on the path…I can see the light ahead and I am moving toward it…