Okay!  So I got quite a bit done today despite feeling cruddy…then I got a two hr nap so I feel much better!  Both physically and mentally!  I am letting myself off the hook…being kinder to myself…cutting myself some slack.  I am dealing with alot and doing the best that I can.  I have made the decision not to weigh for awhile…not to avoid facing reality but to not allow the scale to throw me off mentally.  I need some time to eat moderately, and after all this time, I know what that means, and to just let my body do it’s thing and just see where I am after doing the best that I can…no matter what that is at the moment.