I have recently discovered meditation…Meditation for Dummies! Fabulous book! I am learning so much and it is just doing wonders for me in all sorts of ways. Well, yesterday I didn’t really get to do my regular meditation because of two things…one…I woke up the night before sweating to death and was awake for a long time so I was dog tired. And two…I went to Pilates and ended up doing Functional Resistance with weights right after it because everyone else in the class was staying and I just couldn’t be the wuss that left! :) (It was the same instructor and the same room) So, I was really looking forward to today getting a nice session in. Well, I just could not get my mind to quit writing! I used to write stories…lots of journals….poems…letters…you name it.. I kind of got away from that…lost that spark if you will. I am not quite sure where it went or if it is back for good… Only time will tell I suppose. I am hoping that my creativity here will spill over into my family blog which I have been sorely neglecting. No one reads it except family and close friends and I am sorry that they have not been getting as much of my writing attention.
So, why did I sign up for this blog you might ask if I am having trouble updating my family blog? Well, I am hoping by letting my muse go where she wants without restraint I will have more creative energy to turn there as well. Other than DH I have told no one of this blog and I don’t know why it feels more freeing to talk to strangers sometimes…I just know that at this moment it does. Can someone be a closet exhibitionist?
Whew…feel better now…maybe I can try to meditate again later… 
i’ve downloaded some free meditation podcasts from i-tunes. i know nothing of meditation but it sure is calming listening to the music just before bed time.
April 22, 2008 @ 3:32 pmRaven,
May 2, 2008 @ 2:45 amI think starting this blog is a definite move in the right direction. It would be wonderful if you could start journaling again. I say that, not having started yet, but I guess my blog has been my testing ground. It started out about weight, but as I progress, I realize the weight is only a symptom of other things. I was in a very unhealthy relationship for more than half my life, and am now realizing as much as my mind is becoming healthy, the body is a little slower to react.
WE are both on a similar journey. Mine is to find my authentic self. A life in which I am surrounded by things I love, a life in which I can be me. It is a process, and I am certainly on the right track, and that is so exciting for me. There are moments of doubt and fear, but I try to just force myself thru the momentary discomfort, which inevitably builds my confidence more.
Do you mind sharing your location and your age? What you do for work? Just a bit curious. Email me anytime.
Sandy