Mind…Body…Spirit
Just breathe…
Argh!!!
Posted ravengirl on October 14th, 2009 | Filed under Tales of Victory! | Comment now »
Can you believe they didn’t vote of Miss Evil on Biggest Loser last night?!!!! I am so mad!!! Man! I HATE that woman!!! Tracy is what is the worst thing about that show…and I sincerely hope that she does NOT win the whole thing! Ugh!!! And if Tracy is the thing that is the worst aspect of the show…Abby is the best thing…and what is the most important thing in all of this. She didn’t even enter the temptation to control the game…She brings tears to my eyes every time I watch and she inspires me… I can relate…I don’t know how she lived through the loss of her family…and the pain that she lived through and with every day makes me think about my own reactions to things…
“What have you done today to make you feel proud?” I have went to Power Pump yesterday, and I will go again tomorrow…my muscles are sore but not painful…and I have already put 30 mins in this morning on the CrossRamp and I will probably go again this afternoon… I have spent awhile bitching about the drive to drop off DH for work and pick him up…now…I am using that opportunity to work out and give myself the boost that I need mentally and physically… I am sure that next weigh in will be kinder…and if not…I am still feeling STRONG!!!
been eating…a lot…
Posted ravengirl on October 13th, 2009 | Filed under General | Comment now »
Well…things have been going poorly exercise and eating wise but I am really working on getting back to where I need to be. I think I have a good start… I am continuing with Power Pump class…(with a little more caution) :) And I have ridden my bike on Sunday, went to the gym and used the Cross Ramp for 45 mins and today is Power Pump class…I am in control…eating well… Using my fiber water… Hoping that I can undo some of this damage… 168 pds as of this morning… There you have it folks…
hurt myself…
Posted ravengirl on September 25th, 2009 | Filed under Whining | Comment now »
Yup I did… Power Pump not only kicked my ass it hurt me… I don’t think badly, but it was enough to make me pretty miserable the last couple of days. It went way past regular muscle soreness into the realm of the ridiculous. It basically hurts to even straighten my arms… I did some elliptical work yesterday, and I plan to bike this morning (maybe) :) There was no way for me to take the class again on Thurs. The class is on Tue & Thurs so I will see if I can do it on Tue if my muscles are better and I have a massage scheduled on Tuesday with my wonderful massage therapist….oooh…she is awesome! She is very very fit…and her massages all end up sort of “deep tissue”. 
Ugh…I am hurting…a little grouchy…no wait…ALOT GROUCHY!!!! But my food was pretty good yesterday…I managed not to stress eat…or frustrated and pissed off eat… :) Wish me luck for today… DD is home on a waiver day (don’t get me started on that!) I have a dog to walk today and maybe I will take her to the book store for awhile… (always one of our favorite haunts!)
Grump, grump, whine, whine…mutter, mutter…
Power Pump kicked my ass!
Posted ravengirl on September 23rd, 2009 | Filed under Tales of Victory! | Comment now »
Yeah…it was brutal and I am sore in places that I never knew that I had today…but I am thrilled. You see, I have tons of motivation (usually) for things like the elliptical…my bike…yoga…even Tae Bo…but weights…ummm it is kinda like Pilates for me. I know that it is great for me and important but I just can’t get motivated on my own to do it! I need someone kicking my ass and making me better. The class flew by and I used 5 pd and 7.5 pd dumb bells thinking that I wouldn’t have too much trouble…by the end of class everything was jello…including my legs (which really surprised me) and I couldn’t even think about going to the yoga class that was starting. So…I tucked my tail between my legs and went and got a salad! :) You know you are in trouble when you haven’t even left the gym and your muscles are hurting. I have been doing every yoga stretch that I know and I am still moving like a 90 year old! :) Ahh well… I don’t know if I will make it to class tomorrow…aaa aaa!!! Not because of my soreness, I am not a wimp thank you very much! <g> I have some errands to run and I don’t know if I can make it to class…I will just have to see.
To add insult to injury…I had a gum treatment today…so now I am sore in ALL places! And, when I was walking my dog (dog walker remember?) it poured! And I didn’t have my umbrella…yeah..he wasn’t happy about it either…he is kind of an indoor dog…hehehe
My eating has been on track and I have felt excellent other than the soreness and the gum thing…
It was a good day…
Been awhile hasn’t it?
Posted ravengirl on September 22nd, 2009 | Filed under Somewhere in between... | Comment now »
I haven’t been accomplishing much other than losing control since I have been away…but I am not worrying about that… I am also not worrying about the scale upstairs that is just waiting for me to step on it and suck all the hope out of my day. In fact…I’m not going to get on that scale for awhile… I know that the number is bad…I can feel it in the heaviness of my abdomen that was really starting to shape up awhile ago with the twice a week pilates classes… Well…since my falling out with the Y and the new pilates demon they hired I haven’t been to a class or done much of any ab work in ages…boy do you lose ground fast at this age! Ugh!! But, here is the thing, I have been struggling and fighting with myself and struggling some more. My rides have dwindled…the couch has been my home lately…other than what is absolutely necessary to keep the world spinning. I could wallow in all the things that I have let slide recently…or…I can just stand up and motor on. What do you think? I am finally on my feet again. DH and I went to a formal event over the weekend and despite the weight that I know that I have gained I felt beautiful…and it was an amazing time… We took pictures and I still felt beautiful… I can do this…
I am awakening today…I am going to the gym today…I am going to take a Power Pump class followed by some yoga and it is going to be a fresh start… I got up this morning and had a protein shake when all I really wanted to do was skip breakfast to feel lighter…it is already a start…
I am using an aromatherapy pendant these days to try to lighten my burdens…I don’t know if it will work but it certainly can’t hurt… I am still meditating twice a day…right now I am focusing on DHs healing, as he has another MRI coming up next month… I simply need to up my exercise again to get my motivation and endorphins flowing like they are supposed to… I can do this…there is no reason not to right now… My life is flowing easy…things could be so much worse…I need to stay present and enjoy every second of ease because life can turn on a dime and you pretty much have the choice of struggling and tiring yourself until you drown or float on the current and try to enjoy wherever you are dropped off…
I am still here people…still fighting…I am not giving in!!!
Back from sugar land
Posted ravengirl on August 2nd, 2009 | Filed under Somewhere in between... | Comment now »
I slipped back into my sugar zone…it was really sneaky…it starts with the “justas” justa bite of this white flour thing, just a small cookie here, just an ice cream there and pretty soon..it is 3 cookies, 4 cookies, more diet soda (which always makes me want more sweet stuff) We were away at a cabin at the beach for 3 days and ate every day, though, breakfast and sometimes lunch was still on track. I have also been having problems with my plantar fasciitis and that has been bothering my knee as well. We bought me a new bike because the walking has been killing my foot but I think if I switch completely to the biking that will kill my knee so I have to find a balance (always…the elusive balance…) I am Day 3 into my sugar detox and feeling loads better than yesterday. I was headachey, felt like my body was made of lead, and had a raging belly ache…yeah…tell me again that sugar isn’t a drug! I am also going back to RR and the potato, I am just also calorie counting and cutting the size of the potato I am eating, also I am nixing the butter and using spices and a little no cal butter spray. So, we will see how things shake out. I am learning a lot of things about myself…I think I used to consider myself a little shallow, I never really thought much about deep thoughts…I am moving from being a puddle to a lake… :) I am delving deeply into meditation and have been using mantra and self analysis…self awareness. I have been reading and watching a lot of Cesar Millan, he is helping me in more ways than just how to handle dogs…if you listen…he can teach you how to handle your life as well! My weigh in a few minutes ago was 165. So, I am re committing…I have an app on my ITouch to help me track calories and I am also doing the paper food journal for RR. Hopefully this is the beginning of the road to health.
Bad week…
Posted ravengirl on July 4th, 2009 | Filed under Whining | Comment now »
It was tragically bad. Huge appetite..binge? Stress? Emotional eating? TOM is in town so it could be all of the above. Ugh. 166.5. Losing ground bigtime. Well, maybe not bigtime but it sure feels like it. I have determined that the dogwalking/walking is not keeping me on the right track weightwise. I am going to have to breakdown and pony up the $50 bucks a month at the yoga studio. I have been trying to avoid it but I just can’t any more. I need the class environment for motivation, I need to push myself. Hopefully I will have better news to report. I am going to go and try it on Tuesday I think, see if the instructiors and classes can shake me out of my rut. Give me a jumpstart…anything to get the scale moving.
Oh hey, I will answer the comment from my last entry…love to hear that someone is listening! I haven’t been taking measurements…too scared I think…but the thing is, I know that those measurements wouldn’t be good either, my jeans are all getting tight…I am going to have to get new ones if this doesn’t turn around. I thank you for your encouragement though…and I am not giving up. I am working…always working…
Well…
Posted ravengirl on June 27th, 2009 | Filed under Somewhere in between... | 1 Comment »
To the weigh in…165.5. Yup. Up a pound, could have been worse considering the week I had, I am not kidding, I had two days where I pretty much ate everything that wasn’t nailed down and a third day where it was a little better but not stellar. TOM is due any second, I have started to get that lingering headache thing and ugh. Just ugh. It also drives me a little crazy that I can eat on plan, exercise, and not see any progress…then turn around, eat completely insane, not get nearly as much exercise and gain a relatively small amount like a pound! It does not make sense!!!!
Anyway, I am posting the weigh ins, good, bad, and ugly and hopefully let myself and everyone else know that regardless of how many times I go up and down between this weight, I will get through!!! I will get healthy and fit and take care of this wonderful body that is so strong and has put up with all the years of bad things I have done to it.
Foot hurts!
Posted ravengirl on June 22nd, 2009 | Filed under Somewhere in between... | Comment now »
Crap! My plantar fasciitis is really kicking it lately (no pun intended!) My food has been good today after a slight misstep with some pizza and breadsticks last night…why do I forget that that stuff makes me feel like the world is crashing in? About 3 hours after I ate it I was in the foulest most negative mood and this morning? I feel like sunshine and roses! Even though absolutely nothing has changed over night. My sunshine dog is still off to some place unknown right now, DH has another MRI coming next month and is having a shitty time at work, my Dad has another meeting with the oncologist on Wednesday to talk about his cancer. Sigh. Sounds kinda ugly doesn’t it? But I feel able to deal with it…not like last night when everything seemed too much to manage. Food? Who would have thought it? Anyway, my food has been good, I cooked for the first time in awhile and didn’t feel burdened about it…amazing…stretches…check…meditation…check…two minute plank today…CHECK!!!! So yeah, I have started mantra meditation and am currently working with a healing mantra for my DH & Dad… I have never delved into mantra before but I have to tell you I feel it…and it feels really right to me. I feel a peace that I haven’t felt in awhile…(well, on anti-d, but DH said it made me into a zombie!) We will see what this newfound peace brings at the weigh in this weekend!
Weigh in
Posted ravengirl on June 20th, 2009 | Filed under Tales of Victory! | Comment now »
Weigh in this morning is 164.5…so…almost back down again to where I was before and registering 1 pound loss for the week! I will take it! Especially since I seem to be feeling good, confident, and like my little experiment with the apple cider instead of the potato is working! Yay! Still too early to be positive but I feel like my serotonin is good…I feel strong and motivated and I just passed the mid point of my cycle (sorry if there are any guys listening!) where usually all hell breaks loose! So! I am optimistic and feeling pretty good about things at the moment! Well, except I have to go say good bye to my sunshine dog today and that is just devastating…he will be leaving for the airport this afternoon…ugh…I will miss him so much.
DH ordered a new pedometer for me since the last one most likely flew off when I was fighting off furious little ankle biters! :) My miles per day have been over 3 for quite a while. My dogwalking schedule has calmed down for the rest of the month unless I get new clients or something changes so I think I will be getting back to some elliptical workouts soon. I am still stretching every morning before anything else…doing yoga at downtimes during my day…meditating when I make the time (I know I should make the time every day) In other words I am doing everything possible to improve my mind, body, and spirit. And that makes me proud of myself!