I need to lose 40 pounds. now.

Sam is four months now.  I added 30 pounds to my last weight, time to get motivated and DO IT!  I think I am ready!

Why is it that the night before I start to diet I go on a huge eating frenzy?  I hope I am not the only one!

I’m pregnant. That is seriously going to change my goals. I think my new goal is to only gain 20-25 pounds.

I am excited!

The past two weeks have been awful and the scale shows it. I need help being motivated again. HELP!

Under 230.
I am amazed.

I get to buy new running shoes, but I think I will wait a few more weeks.

YAY

I counted my calories all weekend.  My pal Patsy took me to a weekend in Traverse at a hotel with a spa.  I didn’t get a lot of gym time in but I did have a nice massage and I was good with the food.

Man there is a cafe in town that really makes an amazing latte.   They use Intelligensia beans.  MIghty fine.

How did you gals do this weekend?  Time to check out your blogs.

Awesome, and helpful for me anyway. Maybe not so helpful for the few that might happen to read a post or two.

I have already noticed a pattern! I write about crabby cranky things. I don’t know why. But, I do. I am glad that I am not writing fearful posts…like I am scared that I won’t be able to do this…but maybe if I focus on how awesome it will be in the future, and not how crabby and stupid everything is right now it will help. Ha! I need some shrink to happen upon this post and give me free advice.

Here is the good stuff: I have been going to the gym a ton! I can tell that I am more tone. Awesome!

Here is the bad stuff: Oh wait, I have just not decided to think about all that right now!

I must have eaten 3000 calories and was too tired to go to the gym.  Fitday says that I burn nearly 3000 calories sitting on my a$$ all day but still I want to loose weight NOT maintain.  If I gain two more pounds i am back in the ‘obese’ BMI and not just overweight.

UGH. CRABBY.  Will I ever find the will power to cut my calories??

I guess that is okay. I have made it to the gym lots.

However, I have been eating lots of sugars and carbs which makes me crazy.

I REALLY wanted to be under 230 by Friday….I am STILL at 231.6. ARGH.

However, I will not count calories and starve to get there.

I ate cake and nutella and lots and lots of terrible carbs.  I ran yesterday but I am feeling really really really down about today.   Starting tonight I will stop the sugar again.  Starting right now I will stop the sugar again.  Meh.  I wanted to relax at home tonight but I better go to the gym again.  I really need a freakin’ break though.

I really don’t enjoy counting calories so I have stopped for now.  I will see how the next few weeks go and if there is no weight loss, then I will try to start again.

I have been really good at getting to the gym.  Yesterday I made one of my goals and ran four miles.  Yay me!   It was easy because there was no one at the gym so I could watch whatever I wanted and turn it up really loud.  I really like snap fitness.

I was down to 230.6 but went back up to 232.5.  It is weird how much I fluctuate from day to day.