I am hiding in my room right now. I locked the door and am chewing gum and I refuse to get up because if I do I will walk downstairs to the kithen and make a peanut butter and jelly sandwhich. Not only am I out of points, but it is 11:30 and I’m not hungry- so I’m staying put and hiding from a binge that is looming. More on my points in a minute..

It is wonderful to wake up in the morning after a day of good eating! I woke up this morning and I felt empty and hungry! Not groggy and bloated :( After breakfast I went on a very long walk then I did the 30 day shred again. I am sore and loving it! I hate doing the push ups the most- I can barely do one real one! I can’t wait for it to get easier so I can FINALLY move to the next level.

So I went a little over on points (1.5)- that is if I am not using my activity points- which I dont want to. I overdid it on my sugar free pudding and popcorn. It’s better then a full meal of Wendys so, its a step in the right direction.

  • B: Cheerios, branbuds, strawberries, and skim milk
  • L: Egg Salad Sandwhich, carrots, popcorn, and 2 sugarfree puddings *yikes
  • D: Flat out pizza with tom. sauc, mozz cheese, zucchini, spinach, and peppers
  • Dessert aka mini binge: slice of bread w/ s/f jam, spoon of PB, ANOTHER popcorn and ANOTHER pudding- okay they are only 60 cals each but yikes 3 is enough.

Day Two is always the end of my diets. This is the first time I’ve been honest about what I have eaten and definitely the first time I have written it out publicly. It’s hard to look at that damage, but bingeing is a hard thing to get over. Usually on day two, I give up, binge, then rationalize that this diet was not for me and that tomorrow I’m going to start something new. Usually tomorrow comes a week later and I have done monumental damage to myself in that time. Not now. I can work weight watchers. I don’t feel deprived and I believe if I avoid sugar I can get away from bingeing.

 Thank you ladies for your comments and encouragement! I always feel a little less isolated when I read about someone going through similar situations as me with eating. So I hope I can do the same for at least one person! Good luck to everyone, stay strong and have a great week!