I dont know what to say right now. I’m not going to have a seriously depressing blog..but I can’t help it right now. I ate a national debt worth of calories today. I hate binging. I hate everything about it, yet it comforts me. So today- even though this does not fix the binge problem- I joined Weight Watchers. I dont particularly want to- but I want to count calories. However there are too many number invovled in counting calories in the thousands so points will be easier to count!

Thank you for your encouraging comments. A big problem with this is that it is so isolating. I don’t bring up in casual conversation the fact that I frequently eat enough food for a family of 4.5 people. I leave for vacation in one week. I need to lose 50 lbs by then. No? Okay well I would settle for a binge free week instead. BINGE FREE WEEK ONE. AND……………..GO!!!!!!!

Plan for tomorrow:

  1. wake up early and go for a walk/run
  2. shower
  3. eat
  4. work
  5. dont binge
  6. buy food that i wont binge on
  7. dont buy food that i will eat on the way home (it DOES count if you eat it right from the bag before it makes it to your kitchen)