Light Reflections

Carb Hangover. I finally get it. So, this week I guess I finally moved into P4 instead of the the P3.3 I was going. I found that P3 with a few add ins here and there worked fine for me. Easy. My comfort zone.

We had guests and each day I added a bit more. Checked the scale and so that encouraged me to try more and more each day. Which is nice. I had not had pizza or booze this whole year. I found that if I stuck largely to my old routine and added a few things here and there I was fine. I continued to eat every few hours as is my norm. Plus between the flax seeds in my CSP shake or the psyllium in my protein pancakes, I think it helped things along the next day.

But, yesterday, whew. Out all day and a few too many carb choices.

The good news is that it is out of my system. And I am gladly enjoying my yogurt and berries as was my norm. After dinner yesterday I was okay this is it. And this morning, feeling as crappy as I do, this is definitely it. If the guests were still here I would have insisted on eating my way or separating for a meal. Just can’t do it anymore.

As I snarfed down a piece of pizza last night (yes, after dinner) I was like hmm, this is not that good. I had several pieces the day before and I suspect it was the novelty of it. Yummy. But, it was as if once I was done, I was done. Cold pizza was not as good as I remember from 2011. Yesterday reminded of me old eating habits. Oh pizza is in the fridge I will eat it. And if the pie was still there, I would have eaten that and so on and so on. And that was behavior I needed to catch as well.

This heavy, slow, tired, dull feeling is just not attractive or enticing. It’s like drinking and feeling the effects. I could have never compared carbs to booze but that is what it feels like. Good in mouth. Bad later. And that just isn’t fun anymore.

And sugar is not that great anymore either. I enjoyed it the first day or so then after a while it had a sticky uncomfortable taste. It really does not belong in every single food item. And should be used to enhance or compliment not mask. Not necessary.

Unfortunately we have a few days to bounce back before this weekend hits but I think I will set more limits. Guests will know that you worked really hard to get this this point and will not push it. Plus, it won’t kill them to eat healthy or light for a few days. I will look for restaurants with broad menus so we can all be happy.

I just don’t always like getting the ‘boring stuff’ meat and veggies when we go out. Part of it is that as you guys stated the veggies are limited and usually not even that good as what we make at home. We buy good meat because we rely heavily on the taste of it. No sauces to disguise or cover it.

I was afraid to move into P4 because of my perceived sensitivities. I thought that if my tummy felt a bit bad or different after eating an item I could not have it. I was wrong. I may not want to have it but I can. Strawberries don’t feel as easy on my stomach as other berries and I will eat large amts of them because they are so sweet and juicy. It was not an issue. I can also have a tiny amt of booze and some carbs. Bread is tricky but not always. I will have to play with that.

I based a lot of this on initial reactions to certain food items but it could have just been that my body had not had it in over 6 months and just did not know what to do it. I honestly don’t know. Except that according to my theories I should not have been able to eat as I did this week and I was until I stopped balancing the day. One of my meals might have been fine but not both. And definitely not the booze but I knew that from reading what you guys say.

The key thing I have learned is to stay connected. To develop a support system.  There’s a measure of accountability in the connection.

I am working with another pancake recipe. I don’t have the nutritional information but it might be doable for some of you.

Who diets and eats pancakes?

107 combined pounds lost

To date DH and I have lost a combined 107 pounds.

I need to get back here and post more. So much to say.

GOAL!!! 130.8 pounds…Wednesday April 4, 2012

I did it.

131.8

Oops, should have posted this a few days ago because as you can see from the above post, things have changed.

So, this is a big deal. I know I said 130 was my goal. But, I based it on the above number. 131 was the lowest I had seen in the past decade. I got down to 132 but that was 5 years ago and for a brief moment I remember seeing 131 and then it never budged and went back up after that. It is the reason I have some clothes in smaller sizes but not that much because I don’t think I was in the 130’s that long.

So today on April 1 when I saw it, it was no joke (he he) it was the real deal.

Until recently I had been waivering on phasing out. I thought i had slowed down to 1 lb a week and thought I should be at a certain weight or size or something. But more than anything I thought I would just know and numbers while helpful don’t always determine that. I was sure I wanted to go another 15 more pound or so.

But in recent days, actually this past week this diet did something really interesting. It hit some key areas which helped the jeans fit a lot better and told me I was genuinely closer goal.

And yet coincidently closer to my 100 day commitment and my original goal of 130.

I am still kinda freaking out a bit and feel like there is more that I want to say but perhaps I just have to give it time. This diet is very interesting in what it works on and how. I still can’t figure it out. I was told that it works last on your middle area and arms. I know that sounds odd and can feel odd for a while as certain areas remain thicker than you are comfortable with. But in recent days it feels like those areas have moved down. It is very visible in my face. But, that middle area (thighs and belly) have moved down as well. Could also get into those medium jackets I bought in Feb that fit but were wayyyy too tight in the arms.

I really am freaking out this weekend. This first day in April. It certainly feels like something has shifted, something has turned the corner.

Got some make up. The things you let go. My make up was so old, none of it was usable. Also plan on getting the hair done and a few other things. It’s spring. It is time.

If I had thought on New Years that come spring I would be, well at this point, I never. Anyway. So thankful to Ideal Protein and this diet. It was rough going there for a bit with all my weirdo aches and pains and the hormonal stuff and weeks 7-10. Don’t know what that was about. Really hated the diet then but here I am, less than 100 days and seeing my goal number. The lowest number I had seen in over a decade.

smaller sizes

I got into a 6 this weekend and that kinda freaked me out but I am okay with it. It used to freak me out more but I am okay with it now. I still have trouble in stores determining my size. I still can’t look at something knowing it will fit. As well, since I am a bit reshaped I seem to have a different look now. So, a lot has changed but it’s all good. All good.

I am currently a size 10. Been wearing some 8’s lately but this past weekend I got into a size 6 pair of jeans so we will see.

Smaller sizes use up a lot less fabric. That has taken some getting used to.

As of yesterday, weighing in at 128. Wow. Really getting there.

Stats - 3.27.12

Okay, so far on this diet of almost

90 days, I have lost

27 pounds and around

30 inches

I am a medium in tops, which is growing more comfortable. Some are still snug.

I am just starting to wear size 8 jeans. AND

I was able to zip up size 6 jeans over the weekend.

Onward…

Getting ready for the future

Lately, I have been thinking a lot about the future. Eventually, I will be off this diet and on my own. Eventually, this will become a lifetime process. When we first committed to this diet, we gave it 100 days. As that day is approaching it is time to think about the future. The plan was always to see how far we could get in 100 days but to go beyond until we felt we got to a stopping point. We have an initial goal and then a long term goal and we just weren’t sure if we want to be on that diet that long. But, that’s okay. The initial goal puts us in a good place. Actually where we are at now is a really good place.

So, it’s time to think about the future. Next month I start to phase off IP. What that means is that over the period of a few weeks I will be reducing the number of packets I eat and replacing it with real food to get my pancreas going again. Yes, the little guy has been resting for the last few months but eventually he needs to wake up and start working again.

And so I have been doing a lot of research, a lot of learning. I am finding interesting videos and books and diets. No, I am not planning on another diet. I am just looking for ideas on how to eat and recipe books for suggestions. I obviously can’t go back to the way I ate before and enough time has passed so I don’t think (or hope) I won’t but I want to have enough fail safes in place.

As well, I feel that now is the time to work on re-training myself. This diet is so structured that you honestly don’t have to do much thinking on your own but in order to be successful after it I do feel you need to have some kind of plan in place because those carbs will quickly start poofing you out,.

So, to knowledge and education. Self-education.

Onward…

Combined 80 pounds

in 84 days.

Wow…

and wow.

As of today, DH and I are down a total of 80 pounds since we started this diet.

Wow!

Song - Halfway Gone

The song title says it all. Just heard this song and started cracking up. It’s Halfway Gone by Lifehouse.

“Cause I’m halfway gone and I’m on my way…”

Down 23 lbs. Halfway there.

Okay, I still sing this song and should have posted this last week but I forgot so as of today, 3.20.12 I am weighing in at 134. 26 lbs down which is over halfway there but I still like the song.

Onward…

Around IP in 80 days

So, DH and I are now down 75 pounds.

Technically it is only day 79 for me but I will count it.

Weighing in today at 135. wow…yes, seriously…wow!