Pushing through

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Did my 3rd run yesterday and my hip actually wasn’t killing me this time. I think it was just muscle tightness. My run was pretty pathetic- I only ran about 1/2 the time (or maybe less…). I’m guessing the fact that I didn’t eat before going didn’t help matters either. I was in a rush and wanted to get a run in before I had to get on with my day. Won’t make that mistake again!

I’m hoping to get a pilates session in today. I think it would really help with my endurance. It will also help me tone up and get into the dress I want to wear for my grad in a month and a half.

Hip Pain, day 2

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Well, I did it. I ran again. 10 minute run, 1 minute walk. X3. Then a 5 min cool down. I did have to do a power walk about 1/2 way thorough my 3rd set because my hip was KILLING me, but at least I finished it.  I weighed in at 180.6 today (what the hell..HOW did I let myself get here again!?)

One step in the right direction…

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Well, I finally got up off my ass and did something. I got myself a running buddy (2 different ones, actually) and I went for a 30 minute run/walk (but mostly run) yesterday. Dear GOD my hips are killing me. I mapped it out on map-my-run, and I think we did just over 4k.  Today the plan is run 10 mins, walk 1 x 3, and then another 5 min run.  I hope I can make it without collapsing.

I am still disappointed in myself for letting my weight get away from me again….but all i can do is take it one day at a time. I’d like to be in the 160s by the time I graduate. I’ve been trying to get there for over a year, and every time I get close, something happens to throw me off.  Sigh. I don’t know if it’s realistic to expect to lose over 10 lbs in 7 weeks, but that’s what I’m going to try to do.

I’ve also not been going to WW….I can’t really afford it anymore and I feel embarrassed to go back. Sigh.

*hangs head in shame*

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It’s been so long since I’ve updated this…I’ve been doing really poorly and frankly i’ve been ashamed to document my failures. I’ve been struggling with depression and general unhappiness with my circumstances, as well as some new health issues, all of which has had a pretty negative effect on my weight loss. I’ve gained 10 lbs. I’m back up to 180 (I swore I’d never be there again), and I’m feeling pretty bad.

I want to start running again but keep getting conflicting information from my health care professionals (because of my back surgery). I’ve decided that I’m going to do it anyway. It’s my body, and I’m tired of feeling bad about myself. I’m shooting for 5 runs this week. I’d appreciate any words of wisdom as I struggle to get started YET again….

Weigh in, Week 11

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171.2 lbs. Meh. I stayed the same.  Oh well.

I tend to do this. I will have a few decent losses, then my losses slow to somethign like 0.4, or I just stay the same. The good news is that I have accepted that this is what my body does, and I know I will continue to lose in the future. No point in fussing over it.

I need to start doing Turbo Jam again. It’s the only thing that is effective for me. New goal (since the jumping rope inside one didn’t go too well…ha!): Turbo Jam 4 times this week. 45 minutes each session. I can do this!
Am definitely excited about trying a weighted hula hoop. Since i’m going to be moving across the country in a few months, I think i will wait until I get home to buy one (just another awkward thing to ship!)  Remind me that I said this in May 2010, okay?

Btw, I wanted to send out a proper congrats to Tracy on her wedding and her 60 Lb weight loss! Tracy, you look stunning in your wedding photos! Your hard work really paid off- You look like a different person, but with the same big smile as always!! I’m so impressed and happy for you and your accomplishments.  Wishing you and your hubby a very long, healthy, and happy life together! :)  Everyone should check out Tracy’s blog- her photos are very motivating! :)  (Link is in my blogroll)

Have a great day!

Starting fresh- Week 1

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Well, I had to rejoin WW today since I had been away from my regular meeting for so long, so I’m starting fresh!

My weight today was 177.8.  So, up about 8 lbs since my last weigh in, which was at the beginning of July.  It could be worse. I’ll take it. To be fair, I also ate 3 sushi rolls and movie theatre popcorn last night, so I would expect that negatively affected me, too.  Anyway…water under the bridge. I’m excited to get back on track.

So, starting at 177.8 (let’s just call it 178), my new 10% is 17 lbs (161 lbs) and my new 5% is 8.5 lbs (169.5).  At my last weigh in I was 0.8 lbs away from making my original 10%….crap :(

The plan is as follows:

1) Track, Track, Track.- filling foods, measuring EVERYTHING that goes in my mouth, and getting in all the good health guidelines.

2) Exercise, Exercise, Exercise- I’m getting back at my turbo jam program- cardio EVERY day, and will try to do Abs every day, too.

3) Stay focused on the big goal- losing 62 lbs.  52 to go.

Today I had 2 pieces of ww toast with a tablespoon of peanut butter and a banana (5 points).  Then I made the Blue cheese/arugula salad from the week 1 book. Delicious. I love that stuff. The goal for this week is to stick to the filling foods and ww recipes as much as possible. I don’t think I’ll be going out at all this week, so that should be easy enough. I’m looking forward to sharing lots of recipes here- as some of you know, I LOVE to cook! I couldn’t be happier to be back in my kitchen.

It was so great to get back to my original meeting today. I was welcomed back by my leader with a big hug- she’s THE CUTEST. Period. I missed her so much! I wish everyone who did WW could have a leader as great as her, but unfortunately I know from experience that’s not the case. I don’t know what I’ll do when I have to go back home permanently! Her support and tips and meetings are what keeps me going.

As I think I have mentioned in previous posts, I have some big events coming up for motivation:

1- My cousin’s wedding in FEB 2010. I’m going to be a bridesmaid, and I’m completely thrilled! It’s a winter wedding, and the colour that she’s chosen for us to wear is “platinum”, so basically a dark grey satin.  I think it will be nice, and hopefully something I can wear again!  Luckily it’s not something like yellow or light pink- light colours + extra weight= DISASTER!! I would really like to be in a size 8 dress by that time, or at least feel more confident in my body. 6 months to meet this goal!

2- My graduation from law school in MAY 2010.  In an ideal world, I would have liked to have met my goal by this time.  I think I may be able to get close, but after gaining and falling off the wagon this summer, I’m not sure it’s realistic.  I want to look good in my grad photos- no fat cheeks!  This summer, I bought a gorgeous magenta satin Diane Von Furstenberg strapless dress. I would love to wear it to my grad. I thought it would fit me now (it’s a size 12 and I’m generally wearing a 10 or 12 these days) but I think it must be mislabelled because I couldn’t even do it up. Further support for this theory is the fact that it is only a *little* big on my mom, who is a size 4-6.  I left it at home, and will try it on at Christmas.  Inspiration! Hopefully I’ll be showing a big loss by then.

3- Trip to Greece with my mom- JULY 2010.  I will be writing my Bar Admission Exam in June 2010 (eek! does that mean I have to be a lawyer soon thereafter?!) and to celebrate the end of my formal education, my mom and I are going to Greece. It’s somewhere we’ve always wanted to go, and it will be nice to have some mother-daughter time.  I want to feel confident in my body by this time so that I can take lots of pictures on the beaches of Santorini! I want to wear a bikini and not look like a beached whale.  That’s my ultimate goal. I’m too young to not feel confident in a bikini!

So, there you have it.  Thanks for reading, and hope all is well with you! I will be updating much more frequently now that I’m home, so check back soon :)

How did I get here?

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What a summer…Update coming soon…

Weigh In, Week 21

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Further proof that my body makes no sense. This week I lost 2.4. This is actually the most weight I’ve EVER lost in a week (I lost 2.4 once before- week 8, maybe?). Anyway, I’m happy to be down into 170, but it’s not really that exciting, considering I gained 2 lbs last week. It’s really like I lost 0.4, but I’ll take it.  Current weight is 170.6.  Total pounds lost: 16.4, and  45.6 lbs to go.

I’m trying so hard to get back into the swing of things…I didn’t think I did that well this week, but I guess I did better than I thought. I’d really like to get into the 160s, and now I think it’s attainable.  Maybe even next week!  169 is my 10%, and it would also put me one step down on the BMI scale (29- still overweight, but better than 30!).  It is actually ridiculous how long I’ve been yo-yoing, and I’m just really tired of it. I wanted to lose another 15 lbs this summer, and so far I’ve lost 1.6.  I really have to get my ass in gear. I need to have something to show for myself when I go back to my original WW meeting.  I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again- I never realized how helpful those meetings can be until I no longer had a good one to go to.  I’ve been to 2 different meetings in the past month and a half, and I find myself SO bored…I can’t stand the leaders and they treat the meetings like a marketing seminar- all they do is try to sell the WW food! It’s ridiculous. I didn’t sign up for that. It’s like being at a tupperware party (remember those? do they still have those?)

Well, I’m off to have bruch with a friend. We’re going for thai….I guess this is my treat for the week!!  Have a great week, everyone, and wish me luck….

Orville Remorse

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Okay. It’s almost 2 am.  I’m studying for a massive exam on Tuesday and am about to go insane.  I just polished off a bag of smart pop.  I’m having serious eater’s remorse right now!

It’s not that I think it’s the worst thing I could have eaten.  I really had a craving for something salty, and normally I would NEVER eat this late, but I’m on this studying kick…so, I had it anyway. It was SO salty and delicious, and now my mouth is dry. I’ve had 4 glasses of water post-popcorn, and my mouth is still dry.  What was I thinking?!  I usually avoid salt like the plague in the days leading up to my weigh in.  That’s why I always have sushi on wednesdays after my meeting- so that the salt has a week to get out of my system.  Uugh, I feel so guilty!  I have to keep telling myself that this is not a big deal. I had the points, and I didn’t even have to dip into the 7 APs I earned today.

Okay, let’s talk about the good things I did today…Turbo jam Cardio party, plus Ab Jam.  I honestly love this program so much. I can’t recommend it enough for people who hate exercise.  I *almost* always look forward to doing it.  It’s a really good variety of workouts, too, depending on time and energy level.  Dare I say that I feel like my arms may be getting more toned?  BF was watching me try on some outfits for Vegas tonight and told me that my stomach is considerably flatter.  That’s a great feeling! I’ve actually felt that I’ve slimmed down in the area above my belly button, which for some reason seems to be the place where all my fat loves to hang out.  I’d kill for a cute belly button. It’s one of my non-scale goals.  I should do some measurments again after day 10 of TJ, which is 2 days from now.  I have also been feeling like my legs are losing fat.  One day, right before I reached my breaking point and started WW, I was putting lotion on my legs and I was totally grossed out to feel how they were rippleing under my hands.  Throughout all my battles with weight, I’ve always had pretty decent, toned legs, so this was kind of a last straw. I was getting cellulite dimples and the skin was all loose…Not a good scenario.  I still have a lot of fat around my very upper thigh, but the lower part seems to be toning up…it feels a lot more smooth these days.  Exciting!

I must get to bed…sleep, study, sleep, study!! This is my life until Friday, when it’s all over, and I get to be in vacation mode for 2 weeks :) Yahoo! 5 more days…

A New AP Record

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Hi everyone,

I was feeling guilty for the past 2 days of inactivity. I know I said I was going to do AT LEAST the 20 minute Turbo Jam last night, but I didn’t….I just went to bed instead.  Sometimes I just feel like I need to catch up on my sleep so that I can be useful/productive.

Today I got up at a decent hour, did a grocery shop (lots of healthy pre-exam foods!) and then did the Cardio Party.  I was sweating buckets!  Last night I was on beachbody.com reading people’s turbo jam comments, and someone said that they had been doing the cardio party regularly. She had seen some decent loss,  but when she started the Turbo Sculpt she found that her body changed even more drastically.  So, after Cardio Party I did Turbo Scupt, too!  I was exhausted by the end, and scored some MAJOR activity points- 12!! This makes up for the past 2 days, and the 8 extra points I had consumed.

I was remembering my last exam period today…I can’t believe all the crap we used to eat.  Wendy’s, pizza, Chinese, Indian, fried chicken, EVERY NIGHT!! It was SO gross, and I didn’t even enjoy it. It was just out of convenience.  That kind of food makes you feel so sluggish and tired, so it’s just counterproductive in the end.  I’ve stocked up on veggies, ww pasta, chicken, etc, to get me through the next week.  Just think…this time next week it’ll all be over!  A scary and great thought at the same time.

Well, it’s official- BF and I are going to Vegas! We’re booked in at the Bellagio for 4 nights.  I am SOOO excited.  I’ve been to Vegas before, and it has been a lifelong dream of mine to stay at the Bellagio.  If you’ve seen Ocean’s 11, you know how opulent and beautful it is.  I especially love the fountains and pools, since I’m a water baby. In preparation I tried on a bikini that I wore this past summer, right after I got out of the hospital. I had been in for spinal surgery, and spent about a week on an all-morphine diet, so I was looking and feeling pretty good. Judging from the fit of my jeans then and now, I’m probably back down to about the same size.  Not feeling 100% confident but not feeling as flabby as I was 10 lbs ago.  Since I’m so short, 10 lbs can make a huge difference.  Anyway, the bikini didn’t look awful (i.e. the bottoms weren’t cutting into my hips, so I just may wear it in public.  I don’t really care who sees me there, anyway! I’m not out to impress, just out to be comfortable.  BF bought us tickets to see the Phantom of the Opera, too, so I’m super excited!  I’ve seen it in Toronto, London, and New York, so now I can add Vegas to that list! (As you can probably tell, I love music theatre- I used to do tons of shows back in my dancing days. I was probably a better singer than a dancer, even..)

So, the next challenge is to not gain weight in Vegas.  Possible? Maybe.  I’ve started doing some research online, checking out restaurants, etc. So far it looks like there are a lot of decent, healthy places to eat. Vegas does cater to anorexic celebrities, after all…. I’m planning to swim lots, walk lots, bring healthy snacks with me, and just try not to overeat. That’s really all I can do, I guess…

Must get back to my law books…

I’m leaving you with this amazing video of the Bellagio fountains. If you’ve not familiar with the hotel, it’s famous for its “Lake Bellagio”, a HUGE man-made lake out in front of the hotel.  Several times a day, they put on a spectacular light/fountain show, complete with music. If you check out youtube there are hundreds of videos of all sorts of different shows (they change the songs up every time).  This particular video is really cool becasue it was taken from a room at the Bellagio that overlooks the lake, so you get a really good view, plus you can see the Paris Hotel in the background, which gives you some context for how big this lake is!

Here’s the Youtube link: watch?v=CdpV0ebFHz8&feature=related

And here’s a photo of the lovely Bellagio!

Have a great weekend!

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