Mid-Week 20

Posted by primaballerina on June 3rd, 2009 |Filed Under General, Weight Watchers |

Uugh.  I miss my kitchen!!!!!

I’m SO BORED of eating oatmeal for breakfast, tuna and soup for lunch….I miss when I used to make my meals at home and eat all sorts of different things.  I think it helps my weight loss to eat a variety of foods, too. I just don’t know what to do sometimes!  I always end up blowing it at dinner since I can’t measure my food, and often I have no control over the menu.  I know I’m constantly whining about this, but GRR!! It’s SO frustrating, especially because I was really in a groove when I moved home.

I’m exhausted. I don’t feel like working out. I just want to lay in bed and watch tv. I’m just feeling SO lazy.  I stepped on the scale and I was at 173 lbs.  I have a feeling I’m not going to lose this week since I have 2 more days until my weigh-in.  BF is at work late again and I’m starving. I think I might just go ahead and eat without him.

I have felt uncomfortable in my own skin all this week. I feel like my clothes don’t fit me (how is this possible when I’m wearing the same clothes and I’m 15 lbs lighter?!), I feel flabby..i hate it.  Also, a girl I work with got SUPER offended when someone estimated that she weighed 150 lbs.  She went CRAZY- it was as if someone thought she weighed 500 lbs! I was like, well, great, I wonder how horrified she’d be if she heard that I weigh 170.  (Also, for the record, this girl isn’t all that skinny- she probably weighs close to 150, if not more…)

I’m also super bummed because my cousin is talking about eloping now, and I was supposed to be a bridesmaid in her wedding…and I was REALLY excited about it. :(  It was my goal to be down 40 lbs (147lbs) by her wedding.  I mean, I guess I can still aim for that date, but it’s disappointing.

If anyone has any great words of inspiration, I’d love to hear them.  I’m losing steam.


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