Weigh-In, Week 22 and 23

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After such an exciting loss on week 21, I was back up to 173 on Week 22. :(

Boo.  I’m just yo-yoing. It’s so frustrating. I lose and then gain the same 2-3 lbs over and over and over again.  I know I’m doing the best I can do, considering my circumstances, but still…I just really want to be under 170.

Last friday was my 25th birthday. I had a goal to be down 25 lbs by that date and I am only down 15.  Oh well. I guess 15 is better than 0.  Unfortunately I have been very ill since my birthday and am actually home sick from work today. I don’t have much of an appetite but am feeling like maybe I could eat something now.  I missed my meeting on Saturday because I was out of town, but will definitely be going this week.  I just stepped on my scale and I’m down to 170.2- so close!  Then again it’s 2pm and I have’t eaten anything yet today, so I don’t know that it’s the most accurate number.  I just SO desperately need to reach a goal or do something to get myself motivated again.  I agree with Tracy’s comment on my last post- I wish I could just pick up a box of motivation at the store!

Weigh In, Week 21

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Further proof that my body makes no sense. This week I lost 2.4. This is actually the most weight I’ve EVER lost in a week (I lost 2.4 once before- week 8, maybe?). Anyway, I’m happy to be down into 170, but it’s not really that exciting, considering I gained 2 lbs last week. It’s really like I lost 0.4, but I’ll take it.  Current weight is 170.6.  Total pounds lost: 16.4, and  45.6 lbs to go.

I’m trying so hard to get back into the swing of things…I didn’t think I did that well this week, but I guess I did better than I thought. I’d really like to get into the 160s, and now I think it’s attainable.  Maybe even next week!  169 is my 10%, and it would also put me one step down on the BMI scale (29- still overweight, but better than 30!).  It is actually ridiculous how long I’ve been yo-yoing, and I’m just really tired of it. I wanted to lose another 15 lbs this summer, and so far I’ve lost 1.6.  I really have to get my ass in gear. I need to have something to show for myself when I go back to my original WW meeting.  I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again- I never realized how helpful those meetings can be until I no longer had a good one to go to.  I’ve been to 2 different meetings in the past month and a half, and I find myself SO bored…I can’t stand the leaders and they treat the meetings like a marketing seminar- all they do is try to sell the WW food! It’s ridiculous. I didn’t sign up for that. It’s like being at a tupperware party (remember those? do they still have those?)

Well, I’m off to have bruch with a friend. We’re going for thai….I guess this is my treat for the week!!  Have a great week, everyone, and wish me luck….

blah again…

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I’m not sure what’s wrong with me, but it’s just not happening.  Again, I feel like I’m really doing the best I can. I’m really good at breakfast and lunch, and I try my best at dinner, but without being able to measure things, I know I’m not losing.  Again.  GRR!! This is so frustrating. If I had continued at the rate I was going at before, I would be down another 10 lbs by now.  This is ridiculous.

Just had vietnamese for dinner. I haven’t had it since I’ve been home, and I’m trying to mix up my food a bit in an effort to get the weight coming off again. This lack of progress is really discouraging to me and it’s making my motivation dwindle…What I really want right now is a giant brownie.

Weigh-In, Week 20

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WTF.  I gained 2 lbs.  I have NEVER gained more than 0.8 in a week, and I wrote that off as salt bloat.  2 lbs?! I’m back up to 173. I feel like getting into the 160s is an impossible task. I’ve been yo-yoing between 173 and 171 for the past 7 weeks. I feel like I’ve been wasting time, but I know that I need to be cooking my own food to be successful.  What can I do apart from eating at subway every night? I do fine with breakfast and lunch, but I can’t control dinner. It’s basically impossiblet to know what’s going into your food when you eat in a restaurant.  I feel helpless. No matter how specific I am with my instructions for preparation, it seems that I can’t ever get exactly what I want.  I am SO disappointed. :(

Mid-Week 20

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Uugh.  I miss my kitchen!!!!!

I’m SO BORED of eating oatmeal for breakfast, tuna and soup for lunch….I miss when I used to make my meals at home and eat all sorts of different things.  I think it helps my weight loss to eat a variety of foods, too. I just don’t know what to do sometimes!  I always end up blowing it at dinner since I can’t measure my food, and often I have no control over the menu.  I know I’m constantly whining about this, but GRR!! It’s SO frustrating, especially because I was really in a groove when I moved home.

I’m exhausted. I don’t feel like working out. I just want to lay in bed and watch tv. I’m just feeling SO lazy.  I stepped on the scale and I was at 173 lbs.  I have a feeling I’m not going to lose this week since I have 2 more days until my weigh-in.  BF is at work late again and I’m starving. I think I might just go ahead and eat without him.

I have felt uncomfortable in my own skin all this week. I feel like my clothes don’t fit me (how is this possible when I’m wearing the same clothes and I’m 15 lbs lighter?!), I feel flabby..i hate it.  Also, a girl I work with got SUPER offended when someone estimated that she weighed 150 lbs.  She went CRAZY- it was as if someone thought she weighed 500 lbs! I was like, well, great, I wonder how horrified she’d be if she heard that I weigh 170.  (Also, for the record, this girl isn’t all that skinny- she probably weighs close to 150, if not more…)

I’m also super bummed because my cousin is talking about eloping now, and I was supposed to be a bridesmaid in her wedding…and I was REALLY excited about it. :(  It was my goal to be down 40 lbs (147lbs) by her wedding.  I mean, I guess I can still aim for that date, but it’s disappointing.

If anyone has any great words of inspiration, I’d love to hear them.  I’m losing steam.