This SUCKS

Posted by primaballerina on March 19th, 2009 |Filed Under 30-Day Shred, General, Weigh-Ins, Weight Watchers |

Well, it’s not been a good couple of days, ladies…

First, I finished my 10 days of Level 2 of the 30 Day Shred on Tuesday night.  I was super excited to take my measurements….I have only lost 0.1 inches OVERALL.  What the hell??

Then, at my weigh-in on Wednesday morning, I GAINED 0.4.  I know it’s not a lot, but it puts me that much further from my goal, and since I always stay within my points, it was really frustrating.

I’m just so pissed. I’m not doing anything differently- I really thought I had figured out what works for my body, but apparently it’s going to fight me tooth and nail the entire way.  I know I shouldn’t compare myself to other people, either, but frankly, it just REALLY pisses me off that I have only lost 7 lbs since starting the program 2 months ago.  This is RIDICULOUS!!  There are people in my meeting that are the same size as me who lose that much in a week!

My WW buddy is trying to talk me down from my ledge.  I appreciate her efforts, but I just feel like nobody can say anything to make me feel better at this point. Even more aggravating is that I’ve been working out like crazy since I started, and I’ve only lost 1/2 an inch from my waist. I’m wearing pants that were tight when I started, and they’re STILL tight. I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin, and I actually feel like i’m getting fatter and more flabby this week.

Anyway, I’m having a major pity party this week. I feel like absolute shit.  I made some pasta salad from the week 1 book last night, and I’m going to do my best to eat ONLY filling foods this week. Maybe I just need a kick-start.  If I don’t lose this week, I will be devastated.  The last couple times this has happened I’ve gotten over it by Thursday, but this week, I just feel so helpless. I don’t know what else to do.

I guess I’m just going to have to accept that this is going to take me a VERY long time….My leader gave me the “what’s the alternative?” pep talk at the meeting…I am just having a really hard time accepting that it could take me 5 years (or more!) to get to my goal.

I feel like such a cow today, and I’ve pretty much given up hope that I’ll reach my goal of 25 lbs by my birthday, as I am now 3 lbs behind. Yesterday my WW buddy and I went shopping and tried on bikinis for fun.  She looked amazing- even the sales girl told her that she has a perfectly flat stomach.  I looked like complete crap- cellulite, stretch marks, bulging everywhere.  SO depressing. I can’t even conceive of a time when I’ll be able to confidently wear a bikini in public.

I ordered the Turbo Jam workout dvds today- they really worked for my WW buddy and at this point I’m willing to try anything. I just really don’t want to feel fat anymore :(

So, as it stands, I’m 1.8 lbs away from my 5%, which i feel like I’ve been working towards FOREVER, 2.8 lbs away from my 10 lb goal, and 55 lbs away from my ultimate goal.  Uugh.


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  1. beerab on March 19, 2009 5:05 pm

    Maybe you aren’t eating enough? I upped my calorie intake and the next week lost 1.5 lbs :) I’m hoping this week for another pound loss :)

  2. primaballerina on March 19, 2009 6:37 pm

    Hi beerab- thanks for reading!

    I have actually tried the same thing on my leader’s recommendation, and it worked very well- i think i lost about 2.4 lbs the first time i tried it- but it seems like i have to keep changing it up because it sure didn’t work this week! Uugh…

    Congrats on losing your 1.5! That’s awesome :) Let me know how this week goes!

  3. tracy7151980 on March 19, 2009 6:59 pm

    HEY!! I can relate to the pity party… I am in a weird funk right now myself. I just wanted to say I know you CAN do it! Have you thought trying simply filling for a week to change things up… You would be cutting out any junk food you might eat that would be op for flex. Just a thought. I think I may try that next week if I have another little loss. Also, you have to stop comparing yourself to others… Everyone is different- everyone losses weight differently. What is normal for you WW buddy or a person sitting in the row in front of you at your meeting is not normal for you. The only thing that will accomplish is just making you feel like you aren’t measuring up to those other people. Just keep it up… if you track your points and exercise it will eventually catch with you! *Hugs*
    http://3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/tracy7151980/

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