Dear Jillian: Ow!

Posted by primaballerina on February 20th, 2009 |Filed Under 30-Day Shred, General, Pilates |

So, I’m going to go ahead and say that the 30-Day Shred is a good way to whip yourself into shape, because I woke up today and could barely move! I plan to do it all again today….I had better see a loss this week!

I thought I’d take a minute to blog about my next goal: my 5%.  I’m really loving weight watchers because it’s helped me set realistic goals for myself. I’m not big on the “I will reach this goal by this date” idea, becasue I find that my body does not consistently lose the same amount. By setting small goals like 5 lbs, 5%, etc, I won’t get discouraged and fall off the wagon if I don’t meet it by the set date. My one calendar goal is my birthday- I’d like to lose 25 lbs by then. I have lost 5.6 so far, and I have 20 weeks to lose the last 20.  I think it’s do-able. Either way, I’ll sure feel a lot better having tried and fallen a bit short of my goal than I would if I didn’t try at all.

I’ve been trying to set up rewards for myself when I reach goals, but I’m having a hard time thinking of things.  I didn’t do anything for my first 5 lbs- the 5 lb sticker at WW was enough for me! Amazing how good that makes you feel.  I think my first reward will be a new jar of Dr. Brant’s microdermabrasion in a Jar. If you haven’t tried it, get yourself to Sephora and pick some up. It’s expensive ($75), but it is THE BEST exfoliant ever. It makes my skin so smooth- people ask me if I’ve had a facial when I use it. I bought my first jar at Henri Bendel in NYC a few years ago when the salesgirl seduced me with a demo, and I’ve been hooked ever since.

I’m hoping that by the time I reach my 5% (that will be 9 lbs down from my starting weight) that I will be able to ditch the fat jeans I bought over Christmas.  I have a few cute pairs that used to fit me, and I’d like to get into them again.  I’ve also resolved that I’m not going to buy any more expensive jeans until I reach my goal- $40 Bluenotes all the way! Actually, my current fat jeans are from Bluenotes, and I love them. I’d buy them again because they’re so comfortable.  But my goal jeans are Fidelity- beautiful, and so comfortable.

It’s been so long since I felt good about my body, I can’t imagine what I’ll feel like when I reach my goal (125).  My dear friend and WW buddy (who is not nearly as big as me but has also been struggling with her weight) recently said something that stuck with me: “We are too young to be feeling this bad about our bodies”.  It’s so true.  I can’t remember a time when I felt good about my body. I had a tough childhood and started gaining weight like a freight train when I was about 13.  I think I somehow went from 115lbs to 180lbs overnight (major emotional eating).  I’m now 24, almost 25, and I’m sick of this shit.  This is the year I change my life, and FOR GOOD this time.


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  1. delitaagain on February 21, 2009 12:33 am

    Hey, welcome! You are sounding great! Sounds like you have a lot of good things going for you already! WTG! Delita

  2. primaballerina on February 21, 2009 3:19 am

    Oh Yay! I’m so glad someone read my blog :) Thanks, Delita!

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