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Tii tired to come up with a title. I’ve put in 54 hours worth of overtime in the last 3 weeks and dieting of any kind has not really been a priority. Last week I went to WI and had gained .2. Okay, I can handle that even I was only .4 away from my 10 percent goal. So to celebrate, I went to Bojangles and got a chicken sandwich and fries. And then I went to Taco Bell and got a .99 burito. And then I got sick!!! And certainly deserved to! So another busy hectic week has gone by, went to WI last night and had gained 2 lbs. No surprise there. But instead of going to feast, I went to Catos and hit the clearance racks. I tried on clothes for an hour. Sometimes that can be very depressing, but last night was good. I got 4 blouses that I can wear to work or casual for only about $40 bucks. THEN, I went to McD. and got a LARGE fry and a Mcdouble. But, I had not eaten anything all day because my stomach was still full of problems from the previous week. Will I ever be able to be in control of my actions when it comes to eating? Only a very few times in my life has that been the case. Well I’m determined to at least try again. As long as I keep going to the meetings I haven’t given up. But summer always seems the easiest time to lose weight and winter the hardest, I feel like I’ve blown my best time. But I need to quit feeling like this is some kind of race, this is my life and this battle is one that I will fight forever and ever not one which I’ll win some time and then go off happily into the sunset to enjoy and relax. This will NEVER end. I just have to accept that and go from there. Even with GBS, people still have to fight that battle, they just have an advantage and a big head start on the enemy. I have so much to say but I am SO tired! Maybe I can get back on tomorrow and add more and say what I’m feeling!