September 11th, 2009
I know that I haven’t written in ages. I’ve been a bit distracted trying to learn how to be a Starbucks barista. The job is actually going really well. There’s a ton of stuff to learn, but the people there have been great at helping and teaching me the ropes. I think I will really enjoy it once I’m no longer the newbie in town. I sure hope so because I don’t want to get another job and be another newbie. Very stressful for me!
My weight has been another stressful issue for me. I seem to be stuck between 241 and 243 lbs and I’m sick of it. I think I’m eating closer to maintenance and not dropping the calories enough to get things moving. I plan to change that starting today. I’m going to drop my calories to 1400 and see what happens.
I haven’t been exercising to the level I was before starting Starbucks, and of course, the temptation to drink coffee all day might not be helping me either. Then there is the hormonal issue, which might have something to do with me not losing. Joe went and bought me a book on menopause. It’s depressing but it could be time to start thinking about that new chapter in my life.
Whatever the excuses are I have to fix it. I also have to fix my mental. I realized last night that I’m just not that gun-ho like I was when I re-started in June. For a long while weight loss was the most important and exciting thing going and now it’s become a chore that I really don’t want to do. That is dangerous for me and I have to get my excitement back.
It’s getting cooler and I WANT to wear the winter clothes hanging in my closest! I want to look great at work in my uniform. I want to be able to be comfortable when naked with Joe. Uggg so many wants. It’s time to kick it in gear and get this body going in the right direction again.
I’m off to the gym!