So last night I broke a rule - I ate at night. It wasn’t a binge - I only had a small cup of chili - but still, I should know better. I didn’t feel disgusting after I ate the chili, though. I felt comfortably full. It could have been a whole lot worse too because I was DYING for something junky last night, like a Chic Fil A sandwich with craploads of mayo. But I totally resisted all urges even though I live right near it!

My problem right now is forcing myself to eat on somewhat of a schedule instead of just when I feel hungry. Right now it seems I only feel truly hungry at around 1-2PM and 7-9PM, and it just seems so unnatural at the time to force myself to eat when I don’t feel like it. I like the feeling of lightness that comes from not eating all day, but then I always pig out at dinner since it’s usually all I’ll eat. It’s just something to get used to, though. My eating patterns have been total BS lately.

I’m doing a lot better since I first started the blog, though. I haven’t eaten anything shameful, or binged, or ate more than I needed to. LOL, well, okay. Maybe I had a drinking binge, but that’s overwith now. For lunch today I had half a sandwich (turkey breast and tomato on a slice of 12-grain), a pickle spear, and an apple. I didn’t do breakfast…I know, BAD! But I bought some whole grain bagels today, and I’ll definitely be a lot more willing to eat breakfast if there’s a bagel in the deal. I’ll probably just eat half a toasted bagel and a little bit of yogurt in the morning, or maybe some fruit or a poached egg instead of the yogurt (hard boiled eggs make me GAG, ugh, I cannot stand eggs usually).

As far as excersize goes…ummmm, we’ll see about that. I definitely know what I need to do in the gym, I’ve done it all before, but I’m just waiting on that for now. I’ve been out walking longer with the dog, taking the ipod with us and walking all through the park I live next to. Also, I got on a waiting list to get those Sketchers Shape-Ups so walking will a lot more of a workout than it normally is…they’ve been advertising the damn things for months and months now and I guess they just recently came out - and you can only get them online. They’re really playing the limited supply game to the hilt with it, too. It’s so obnoxious when companies intentionally don’t make enough product to meet the public demand, just to get some kind of advertising momentum going for the product. At this rate I’ll be waiting forever, but from the sound of the reviews it should be worth it.

Well, I’m gonna sign off here. I’m getting ready to go cook dinner for my dad, not sure what it will be (whatever he bought I’ll cook), but we’re both on diets right now so I’m sure it will be fine.