A Geek’s Quest to Get Skinny

One level up at a time.

Fast Day June 5, 2012

Filed under: Uncategorized — picklesthepirate @ 12:18 pm

Well, if I had any lingering doubts about a day of fasting after cheat day, they’re gone now.

I weighed myself this morning to find that I’m a pound UNDER what I was at on Friday. That’s no small accomplishment, given that after all my previous cheat days, I’d have gained about two pounds.

It honestly wasn’t hard at all. The hardest part was right before I went to bed, but that’s to be expected. That and when I got up this morning. I was so hungry that the thought of eating made me queasy.

Still, I’m really happy with how it’s going. That makes a little over 3lbs in a week. Hopefully this rapid weight loss will keep up for a little while longer.

In less pleasant news, the Ben Folds Five concert DBF and I were so looking forward to was ‘postponed indefinitely’. Part of me is not very surprised. I mean, they broke up for a reason. Still, we were both really looking forward to it. I think that, since everyone knows that it was cancelled and not postponed, they should give us our money back. It was more than $120 for the tickets.

Oh well. I guess all we can do is hope they either refund or put on a show.

Either way, I’m thrilled with the weight loss so far. It seems much easier this time, probably due to the legumes.

I just started watching Heroes, too. Completely absorbed in it. I’m only something like 4 episodes in, and I’m already hooked.

 

I’m an idiot! June 4, 2012

Filed under: Uncategorized — picklesthepirate @ 8:23 pm

It’s true. I can’t believe I did this. I had to quit my job to take care of my mother full time, which led to comfort eating in a big way. Last weekend I stepped on the scale to discover (much to my horror and shame) that I was at 205 lbs.

Still, at least I’m already working on fixing it. I stepped on the scale on Friday and I was at 203 or so. So, it’s going to be fixed eventually. I’m just super ashamed of myself for letting it happen. I haven’t been this heavy in years, and it was a major blow to me.

My sister-in-law graduated from Georgia State recently, and the pictures from her graduation party were horrendous! At least of me, anyway. Still, I keep reminding myself that I can take off the weight quicker than I did before. Last time I was this heavy, it took me two years and a round of anorexia to get to 155 (222-155). This time will be quicker (and healthier!). I can do this, and I can do this in a timely manner. Because seriously, this is ridiculous.

So, I’m back in the saddle, as it were. 4 Hour Body worked really well last time, so I’m using it again. I’m stricter now than I was before, but I’m finding it easier than I did before as well. Last time, I didn’t eat the legumes or veggies that I should have, whereas now I’m making sure I get all the nutrients I need. I honestly haven’t had any cravings and I’ve been on it for over a week now. Hopefully that’s a good sign.

Yesterday was my cheat day (say what you will about cheat days, but they save my sanity and keep me from feeling deprived), and I didn’t actually do that badly. Today I’m fasting, however. It’s a trick DBF (same one as a year ago) stumbled across, and seems to work well for him. Evidently, it gets rid of Cheat Day’s water weight, so we’ll see how it goes. It’s not nearly as hard as I thought it would be, but then, I did gorge myself yesterday.

As for my life right now….it’s on hold. In January, my parents asked me to quit my job and take care of my mother full time until this coming September. I’m happy to play the dutiful daughter (as the youngest daughter, it’s my responsibility), but I’m a little disappointed that I don’t get to move in with DBF like I had planned. It will come in time, though.

My biggest hurdle, currently, is crippling depression. Over these past few months, I’ve spiraled down several times, but have managed to keep myself from hitting rock bottom again. Depression and anxiety are both things that my family has a long history with. I’m hoping that focusing on weight loss and self-improvement will help keep me upbeat.

In the long run, this will be just a speed bump. Plus, everything happens for a reason, right? Maybe this is all teaching me something that I needed to learn.

I’ve also got two new tattoos which I absolutely LOVE. They make me happy. The one on my hip is large and has a ring of daisies surrounding the word “Laugh”. The other is pretty small (three or so inches in width), on my left shoulder, and says “Qualis Vita Finis Ita”. It’s the motto from our family Coat of Arms, and translates to something like “What kind of life, such is the end.” In English, we’d probably say “as a man lives, so he dies.”

 

Wow. November 28, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — picklesthepirate @ 3:34 pm

Well, that didn’t work. I don’t think I’ve gained any weight, but I certainly haven’t been trying to lose it.

My mother was diagnosed only about a week after the last post with a rare and incredibly aggressive form of breast cancer. About half an hour ago, she was admitted to the hospital for a few days to receive antibiotics for an infection in her breast (courtesy of the chemo).

So, needless to say, with such news, we’ve been comfort eating like mad.

Still, the shock is over, and today I’ve thrown myself back on the diet full force. I want to get to 165, and will do so (hopefully before christmas).

 

My goodness! November 3, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — picklesthepirate @ 9:11 am

Well, I fell off the bandwagon with a VENGEANCE!

I gained around 20 lbs (I’m too scared to step on the scale for a precise measurement).

But have no fear! Low-Carb is  here!

After that binge weekend, I fell off the bandwagon. I didn’t realize how badly I was eating until The Boy and I went to a close friend’s wedding. Seeing pictures of myself….I’m thoroughly disgusted. I’m a size 14, and probably around 180 or so. So I’m nipping this thing in the butt NOW.  I’ve already started 4-hour body again as of Monday, and am going strong so far.

I’ve also set more realistic goals for myself. I don’t think I’ll ever reach 145 while I’m living at home, if ever, (and my body could NEVER support my first goal of 135). Right now, my goal is 155.

The kids in my family take a group picture every decade. This December is the decade mark. And while I’m excited about having my (almost) sister-in-law in it with us this time, I’m horrified by how heavy I’ve let myself get. My sister in law is my height, my build, and probably thirty pounds lighter. I refuse to have an embarrassing picture for another decade. =)

On top of that, I’m moving in with my boyfriend in April. They’re still going strong on the 4-hour-body diet, after almost, what, seven months? Pretty much, I’d like to lose to 160-155 and maintain until I get down there, where it’s so much easier to be on a diet (they generally eat very healthy).

I’ve started a new job, as well. I’m a receptionist for an accounting firm, and really like my job.

I’m gonna need you ladies to help keep me motivated!

 

GURG! May 23, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — picklesthepirate @ 1:51 pm

I’m completely stalled. Friday, I weighed in at 161.0. I’ve been hovering around this weight for what? 3 or 4 weeks now?

I think it was the aspartame that stalled me. This past week I’ve been REALLY bad about water consumption and drinking to much diet coke/ice tea.

Sunday wasn’t the best, either. I ate a LOT of chips and salsa at a mexican place for lunch, and then had corn with dinner, so I bet my body’s going “Really? REALLY now? THAT’s what you’re gonna eat?” And then my butt and hips love the stuff so much, they decided to keep it.

Oh well. It provided a sort of mental break/kick in the pants. I can feel my clothes are tighter, so I HAVE to get back on that bandwagon.

In other news, I made some new friends this week that I click REALLY well with. Hopefully this will be something that lasts. I’ve also started playing Dungeons and Dragons with them (yes, yes, I can feel the judgement). ;)

Becca’s party is this coming weekend, and a bunch of people are coming into town for it, and staying at DBF’s place. I need to redye my hair, and give myself a pedicure, and get my eczema under control before then. I’d REALLY like to have lost to 155 by then, but that’s not going to happen. Frankly, I’ll be happy if I just break this stall. BOOOO.

 

Of life changes…. May 18, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — picklesthepirate @ 10:47 pm

Well, I’ve been thinking lately that it’s time for a change. I know everyone says to enjoy your “irresponsible years” as long as you can…but I think I’ve pretty much outgrown them. I mean, I had a good run, and I’ve done the kind of irresponsible, wild stuff that most other people are too scared to. I’m proud of that. But it’s time to start acting like an adult. I’m not saying that I’ll never be silly (this is me, after all) but I’m going to start taking more responsibility for myself, and presenting myself in a more responsible manner. I’m not the person I want to be, and I want to start taking steps in that direction. So I’ve been doing a complete overhaul of my stuff, going through my room and clothes, finding stuff I want to keep, storing others, and putting others away for donations.

I wish I could redecorate my room, since it’s still painted like it was when I was 9 (no joke, fairies on the wall).  But that requires money, and since I’m not bringing in any right now, I’ve decided it’s not important enough to ask for. Even if I were bringing in gobs of money, I’ll hopefully be moving out in a few months, so it doesn’t seem worth it.

Speaking of money and things I don’t have, I’ve been searching high and low for an internship in the IT field, and there are none to be found. Tomorrow I’m going to log onto KSU’s website and see if there are any available, but it’s slow going. I’m really hoping for a paid one, but every time I look at their qualifications, I feel uneducated, inexperienced, and unintelligent. So, for now, I’ve hit bottom….I applied at Geek Squad. Good pay, if I get it, and it’s something useful and relevant to put on my resume, but…still. It’s at the bottom of the Techie’s Hierarchy.

As for weight loss….weigh in is Saturday. I have been doing TERRIBLE about drinking water. I haven’t been drinking diet coke, but I -have- been drinking the table wine of the South…Sweet tea. We use Splenda instead of sugar, so while it doesn’t have calories, the aspartame could still stall me. Still, I brought myself in hand tonight, when I was going to refill my drink, and decided not to. Now, next to me is a glass of water. Hopefully, these past few days won’t hurt me too badly scale wise. I also need to measure this weekend.

I think I’m going to start asking Mom to come on walks with me. She has a very calming affect on me, and makes me want to be the woman she sees me as. She and I are really close. I was a pill growing up and constantly drove her crazy, but now that I’m an adult and Tricia (my older sister) has completely flaked out, Mom and I have grown really close. She’s practically my best friend, and I value her opinion probably more than she knows.

 

Of Monday and Restraint May 16, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — picklesthepirate @ 3:22 pm

Well, since three of us are sharing the one car now, it’s made getting around a little difficult. I had Mom drop me off at class at 10:30, since she had a docent lunch to go to. We were both expecting to be done by 1. Well, 1 rolls around and I haven’t heard from her, and I’m lightheaded with hunger.

As always, THAT is the moment temptation chose to strike. This time it was in the form of a woman announcing to the library that they were serving free chick-fil-a and cokes in the lobby.

Oh, be still my heart. It’s my favorite fast food.

I resisted, though! I was good! When I eventually got home (around 3:30) I went and had a salad.

Hopefully, Señor Scale will be kind and reflect this sacrifice on Friday.

 

Boooooo May 15, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — picklesthepirate @ 9:11 am

Weigh in yesterday was 162.8.

I’m really disappointed about it. I know there are several factors that make it an unreliable number: for one thing, it’s a different scale than I normally use, and for another, I accidentally cheated the night before. Not badly, since I just accidentally ordered a sweet thai stir fry instead of the normal one I usually get, but probably enough to make me gain a little water weight. Plus, it wasn’t first thing in the morning like I usually do…. 

I guess I’ll just have to be patient until next week. But I was doing so well, and I really had my heart set on somewhere in 160.

On the other hand, yesterday was awesome otherwise. I woke up early and went out to grab some donuts to surprise my boyfriend with, then made breakfast for him. We went to lunch at Mellow Mushroom and got the pretzel appetizer (YUM) and the buffalo chicken pizza (my favorite). It was too big, though. Neither of us could finish it, and poor DBF was in physical pain from eating so much.

We went and hung out with some friends, and then headed up to ATL after getting a birthday cake milkshake from Zaxby’s (DELICIOUS!). I noticed that people don’t take his car as seriously as they take my SUV. His car gets better gas mileage, but no one tries to bully my SUV out of a lane. ;) Atlanta drivers are…intense, though.

We hung out with my family for a little bit, then walked around the mall looking for a gift for a friend’s birthday. We also got milkshakes from the Godiva store in the mall before going to see Everything Must Go. I wasn’t a fan of the movie, because it was so depressing and the poor guy never seems to get a break. DBF liked it though.

After that, we went to a famous local place called the Marietta Diner. It has truly amazing food, but it’s known for it’s dessert. It’s really popular, though, which is the only downside. We got there around 10 pm, and there was a wait. They serve HUGE portions, though. DBF and I brought home a bunch of doggy bags. We also got dessert, because, well, you don’t leave the Marietta Diner without some sort of dessert. You just don’t. I got carrot cake, and he got chocolate suicide. They were SO good, but so big that neither of us finished them. I’m freezing mine till next week (it’s a HUGE slice).

DBF didn’t stay the night (he always prefers to sleep in his own bed and house). All in all, it was a really great day.

Now I just have to keep up motivation to make it to next weigh in.

 

 

Weekend at the boy’s May 13, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — picklesthepirate @ 12:58 pm

Well, it was a GREAT concert. My Chemical Romance puts on an amazing show, although not as great as the CAKE concert. This time, there were so many people (mostly teenagers) that DBF and I decided to sit in the seating area, as opposed to the floor.

I know this sounds bad, but watching all those teenagers made me realize how much more I hate them now than when I did as one myself (I hated them when I was one). I know why 14-15 year olds like them, but I think you get a lot more out of their music when you’re older and have more experience( and can actually remember when the band made their first songs).

I felt bad for all the parents who obviously didn’t care about the band, but couldn’t let their kids go alone into downtown Atlanta.  Especially when Gerard Way started cussing and telling everyone to “pick that motherfucker up” and send random people crowd surfing. There WAS a lot of crowd surfing, actually. I admit, though, that I laughed when we were patted down (everyone was) and this one underage girl got caught with a handle of liquor.  Watching the band was funny, though, because Gerard Way (lead singer) kept laying down on stage. I suppose it could have been because bouncing around on stage is tiring, but I got the feeling that he was trippin’ out on something. Haha.

Anyway, I’m glad DBF is on the diet, too, because it’s made eating correctly simple. Yesterday he stayed home from work so we could spend the day together, and it was really nice. We went to the pool and played around. We had some quality conversations, too, which seem to become rarer the farther along in a relationship you get. It seems the longer you know each other, the more your conversations become about needs to be done/friends/events, and less about connecting with each other. Later, we ended up going bowling. DBF is REALLY good at bowling, and I’m REALLY bad, so when we made a bet, he gave me a hundred pin handicap. It made the game really fun, with smack-talking and bantering.

Tonight, I think we’re inviting some of our friends over. Probably gonna go get mexican cause they have so many diet-friendly things. I’m in a really good mood, so I’m looking forward to it. Tomorrow is weigh-in day as well as cheat day. I really hope I’ve met 160.

Here’s a pic from the concert!

 

 

A Letter to My Bathing Suit May 11, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — picklesthepirate @ 5:04 pm

Dear Bathing Suit,

You and I have a rocky relationship. We are both to blame for this. Every year, I shove you in the darkest, hardest to reach corner of my closet for nine months, pretending you don’t exist. In return, you seem to magically shrink every time I see you.

This, I think, is your method of psychological warfare. Mental terrorism, even. You charmed me with your good looks and adorable polka dots, and wooed me with words like “50% off”. I work for months every year to make you love me, but every year you scorn my efforts. Like standing next to a skinny bitch, you make me feel like an awkward, hulking teenager again.

No more! The sneaky Summer Party has come around again. We have two weeks to improve our relationship. I’m issuing an ultimatum: either make me look good, or I’ll arrange a date with Mr. Incinerator.

Sincerely,

Ellen

P.S. – I mean it about the incinerator.

Don't trust her good looks

 

 

 

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