4thFebruary

Week 5 Jan. 29-4

Updating a day early this week, I am so swamped. I am also SO behind. I am not going to weigh in this week because I know it will be demotivating. I have NOT been on track this week. I am about to resort to drastic measures and begin taping cutouts of victoria’s secret models all over the house again. I do this every so often believe it or not, seeing those skinny bitches looking at me while I eat cookies is serious buzz kill. DH finds it hard to take a crap though with Giselle Bundchen staring at him from the bathroom mirror… he’ll get over it. I am going grocery shopping tomorrow and I swear I’m going to buy nothing but bags of salad, fiber bars, oatmeal, and fresh fruit and veggies for myself. I don’t want to screw DH in the health food department because he is trying to eat better too, but I don’t know what else to do. I’m sick of being fat right now, I think sicker that I may have ever been. Its funny how we can get to a point like that… I mean I’ve been way fatter and cared a lot less. I am like DESPERATELY WANTING to wear nice summer clothes this year and feel good in bathing suit. This may be the last summer that we live at the beach and I want to enjoy it! On a completely serious note, how much weight do you think I could lose if I ate nothing but the aforementioned for the next 3 months? I’ve never done a “stick to only this food” diet before, I’ve always allowed myself flexibility within my calorie range, but I’ve gotta do something to break this vicious cycle this time. I have the next two days off work and plan on working like a mad woman in my house to get it perfect for the week. I am STILL NOT going to the gym! Why can’t I get the motivation? I come home from work and get bogged down in other things and just don’t go! I really REALLY need to change this and soon. I am not drinking enough water again and am replacing it with snacking, I think I need to start using fiber powder again between meals to feel full. I am not a big protein girl, so fiber is my filler. I’m babysitting monsters overnight tonight until the evening tomorrow so I’ll have to fight to get anything done, hopefully I’ll find my path soon. Bikini dreaming, Pepa

4 Comments

brseay says 4th February @ 17:58

Sorry to hear that you’re struggling. I found a book that has surprisingly been very motivating. It’s called “Push” and it’s by Chalene Johnson, the lady who does Turbo Jam. It’s a 30 day goal setting program that only requires about 10 minutes a day to complete. The daily assignments are good but for me it’s the daily reminder to be healthy that’s helping.

As far as your hubby is concerned, tell him to pretend he’s Tom Brady if he has a problem w/Giselle being in the bathroom :)

didibuttonsley says 5th February @ 14:43

Ok, the thing about your hubby taking a crap w/ Giselle watching him made me laugh.
I am with you on the “Sorry, hun, but I need to eat healthy or I will go shit-city insane” feelings. All I have been craving is greens, raw stuff, and steamed vegetables, so that is what I am going to buy the next time I go grocery shopping. I spent the last four months buying boyfriend/kid/cousin friendly items that all of us could share, but I have hit a point where I would rather eat my own stuff. I want salads for dinner, nor burgers, spaghetti with meat sauce, or pizza.

goodnuff says 6th February @ 11:08

Ok Pepa, how about going back to your tried and true? Read some posts from when things were going well for you, what were you doing then? Pick one thing that you know works and make a 30 day commitment (see Didi’s post). And no matter your weight enjoy that beach! Don’t wait til your my age to decide you are going to enjoy life no matter what!

susana says 12th February @ 13:22

Pepa, the secret to losing weight is sticking to your plan no matter what. A good diet is a life-long diet… We have all grown impatient, but there is nothing we can do to hasten weight loss. The liver cannot get rid of more than one pound of fat a week (and that, if you go fasting for a week!), so we have to be patient and allow our bodies to get rid of the fat at its own pace. It’s the only choice we have! In the meantime, while that happens, build a life which does not revolve around food. I’m sure you can do it!


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