Oh wow, you don’t know how much I was avoiding coming back on here… I feel like crap. Vacation was a nightmare! First let me say all the good things about it so at least you know that I did enjoy myself: meeting my in-laws was wonderful! They are both great people and so very sweet. It was great to see the place where my DH grew up and to experience life in New York. We even drove to Niagara Falls and went to Ontario, Canada for a day. All in all the trip itself was amazing and I’d love to go back every year.

Now for the bad: I was in a piss poor mood most of the trip and DH and I got into a HUGE fight the night before we left. (We have worked out things now and we’re good.) The drive was hell. My TOM coupled with all the other crap has kept my stress levels through the roof. Did I mention that my cycle is screwed up right now and I’m having 2 week long periods every 4 weeks? Nice.

The food was terrible and I was terrible right along with it… Please try not to barf while I relate my failure. If anything this blog is for my own benefit to see what I am capable of at the drop of a dime. 1.) The drive up DH and I got hungry so we were trying to decide where to stop at, we wanted to get out of the car to eat and it was really late, around 8:30pm. We ended up in the parking lot of the Golden Corral which is a buffet. I actually surprised myself, I did not eat until I was bursting at the seams… but I did eat way past satisfaction, including a plate FULL of dessert ( I did get a salad too, but it was LOADED with ranch.) 2.) First full day there my FIL asks us if we have eaten, we say no. DH wants to go to Pudgies Pizza, orders a whole calzone (that is humongous) and an order of cheese fries for us to share. Ate and was full. 3.) Same day, FIL and DH stayed home and bonded, MIL and me went to a casino and did some bonding of our own. Got back and the boys had ordered pizza. FIL encouraged us to finish it off- it was a party style square shaped pizza. Ate four slices because I was starved. 4.) On day two my FIL barbecued and made a metric shit ton of meat! It was awesome, but there were only 5 of us and there was food for 15 people. We had ribs, kielbasa, burgers, bbq sauce, salad… and everyone had to eat everything. I felt so full after this meal I thought I would be sick from overeating! 5.) Later the same day we went to an amazing ice cream shop and I got a huge cup of hand churned fair with plenty of extras mixed in. 6.) That night I had a pack of M&M’s too. 7.) The next day we drove to Niagara Falls and stopped at the Ponderosa for lunch, another buffet. This time the overeating was again natural to me, I ate until uncomfortably full… 8.) Got into a fight w/ DH, very upset- ate brownie, snickers bar, ice cream cone, and pack of combos. My gas station cry for emotional help whilst being stuck in the car for 2 hours with a man I couldn’t stand at the moment. 9.) Same day, MIL made Sunday dinner- ate fried chicken, collard green w/ ham hocks, macaroni and cheese, and cornbread. 9.) The drive home stopped at Burger King (at this point, I’m obviously in denial and not caring) ate chicken sandwich combo and then ate 3 donuts from Dunkin on the trip home. 10.) After arriving home (I drove from 2am to 10am)  DH ordered pizza that night- I was too tired to care/cook. Ate 2 huge slices from an XL supreme pizza. DH also bought me a BAG of candy for some awful reason and I ate all of it over the course of the next day and a half. 11.) Next day after arrival, still not caring, avoiding blog. Ate Beef n’ Cheddar from Arby’s w/ medium fries and cup of cheddar. One supreme crunchy taco from Taco Bell. An egg roll off DH’s chinese take out and 2 cheese sticks w/ marinara. Oh yeah, a pint of Ben & Jerry’s to add insult to injury.

Can you say diet suicide? Apparently I cannot because I’ve been committing it for days now! I want to blame it on the family and the fight, I want to blame it on the road trip, but at the end of the day… I know it’s my body and my choice. No one stuffed food down my gullet, no one pointed a gun at my head and told me I had to eat ALL the BBQ. I made a decision to be passive about my diet. I knew that I needed to be aggressive, I planned on it, but I FAILED. I am to blame. I will pick myself back up and I will do better.

Now that I have been through Step One of the Twelve Step program, I must continue on to find the power that can restore me to sanity. You can relate the AA 12 steps to any and all addictions… I believe that power to be this blog and all of you that keep me accountable. I blogged every day for over a month and did not overeat or go off program once. I leave for 5 days and here I am on skid row again. I checked out of rehab too soon and it’s time to check back in- in my heart of hearts, I knew that this vacation would spell disaster for me and that’s why I desperately did not want to go.

I must say in my defense that I was completely helpless on this trip, DH did not once encourage me to remember my diet. FIL insisted that I eat more and more and more. Even when I mentioned I was trying to lose weight his response was that I looked great and everyone needs a little meat on their bones. BTW, my FIL and DH’s father’s side of the family are all obese. Around them, I did not feel heavy and was the smallest of the bunch. It was even commented that I ate like a bird! Since when do birds eat a burger, salad, sausage, and 4 ribs in one sitting? Maybe a vulture? After day two I was sooo bloated with salt that my once comfortably fitting ring was stuck on my finger. ***WARNING TMI ALERT*** When I finally took a crap, I shat a log that was over a continuous foot long!!! It literally disappeared into the whole in the toilet and then stuck up out of the water on the inside of the bowl!!! Good Lord is that possible??? ***END TMI***

I have not stepped on the scale and I refuse to until next weeks weigh in, I don’t want to discourage myself by seeing a huge gain. I’ll just get all depressed and give up for a while and I know it. I am rebooting as of today and going to act as if nothing has changed for my sanity. The good news is I broke down and asked my Dad for some money, I’ll now have money to make the car payment and have some extra. I’m going to join that gym I wrote about tomorrow and start going EVERY day, even if it kills me. If he sends me enough, I’m also going to get a bodybugg or similar monitor to help out with the exercise tracking. If anyone is using one let me know what brand and if you like it. I want one that doesn’t require a monthly subscription to use the software.

If anything I am truly embarrassed, I feel as though I have been found by my parole officer passed out in an alley way with the syringe still in my arm. I am sorry to all of you, but especially myself that I have let us all down. (I beat myself up for fear that no one else will! I need tough love, but kind words help too since I am so hard on myself.)


  Do not weigh in until next Sunday, if that weight is over last weeks weigh in of 165, I MUST get back to 165 by the following week in order to get back on track for Halloween goal.

  Completely back OP starting now- diet wise.

  Join local gym, go everyday for at least 1 hour, if not more. Do cardio, strength, and pool. Do cardio at home with home equipment.

  Drink at least 100 ounces of water per day to aid weight loss, I have not been getting enough by any means. On the trip I only drunk at most 60 ounces of fluid period each day because we were driving/ busy the whole time.

  Forget about this horrible time and focus HARD CORE on the exercise. It was all a bad dream and it will be over with before I know it.

That’s my first claim to shame, tragically, you all know that I am not superwoman and I need to trade my “S” in for a big fat red “A”. I so cheated with food this week! Good luck to all this week and I’m making a promise to you and myself right now that I won’t let this happen ever again. I am better than this!


We are leaving tomorrow morning to go to NY, probably staying until Sunday night- maybe Monday morning. I want to meet the family and see where my DH grew up, but I really don’t want to go right now. I’m doing so well with the diet and I am just starting to get into the exercise, now I’m basically interrupting all my efforts. I still plan on keeping up with the diet program, I’m just really afraid of the pressure. Part of my journey is learning how to relax and not stress, yet it seems I cannot escape stress even for a moment.  I will try not to worry about the whole ordeal, but I must admit I have another obstacle to overcome at the same time- my TOM symptoms. I have pretty bad PMDD. I get crazy hungry and irritable 2 weeks before TOM and that is now. I have been crunching on dry cereal all day and already had a fit of rage in the car earlier. Wish me luck, I plan on taking the lap top, so as long as I have a little down time each night, I will still post.

Today I got so pissed off at life because I ACTUALLY woke up at 8am this morning to get all my stuff done; cleaning up, packing, making sure all dishes/trash were taken care of, vacation hold on the mail, errand, etc. I was going to get in an early morning work out too, then DH calls, he forgot something and needed mw to bring it to him at work. Ok, that’s fine. I have never been to his job before but he makes it home in 20 minutes going the back way so I plug it into the GPS and I’m off. It took half an hour. I get to the base and I can’t find the building he’s in b/c the military sucks and building J doesn’t go in between building I and K. wander aimlessly around the flight line looking for the building, hit the hangars then the carriers,  and I realize I had to have gone too far. I turn around and now it is lunch and the place is crawling with pedestrians and for those of you that do not know, you MUST stop for ALL pedestrians at any crosswalk or jay walking. Do you know how many guys are hoofing it at noon on a Navy base? Took me half an hour just to get back to where I started at! Finally find the building, DH gets lunch, we sit for half an hour talking. By the time I got home it was after 1pm. I wanted to get my errands done, worked on those until 6pm, cooked dinner, ate, and now I’m here. Nothing has been packed, nothing cleaned, no trash taken out and we leave bright and early in the morning. I am so tired from waking up early to day. Uhg, sometimes I really hate this crap.

Well I should go after venting now and pack my bags. I’ll try to post tomorrow after we get there. Good luck to you all for the rest of the week. Night chickies!

20 Pound Challenge- 94 days left

Bicycle butt! Wowzers, my butt hurts like crap this morning (NPI)! After consistently riding the bike the past few days, I am coining a new term to describe the effect that it has on my rear. For the first 5 minutes, the bike is fun and non-painful. From minutes 5 to 10, it becomes uncomfortable. Between minutes 10 and 15 however, I feel like my butt is going to fall off one cheek and tailbone at a time and want to quite literally jump from seat like a jumping bean. Now after minutes 15 to 18, the rear goes completely numb and all is well. If you can call not feeling anything between your hips and upper thighs well… this will be now known as bicycle butt. The after effects are quite nice too it seems, I now find activities ranging from sitting at the kitchen table to trying to take a pee close to intolerable at times. Guess I’ll burn more calories standing all the time. I should look in to finding a more comfortable seat to buy, but money is too tight to worry with such frivolous matters as my rear falling off. Maybe I’d like it if it did just drop on the floor one day- I’m sure it weighs a good 10 lbs! 🙂

So yesterday I got up rather early and went to a local recreation center that I read about on the Internet. I found it while I was looking for local dance/zumba classes to join. They offer classes from group fitness, dance aerobics, belly dancing, couples dance, zumba, and a lot more. The classes range from $29 to $49 for 6 weeks and they even offer other things like karate, self defense, lifeguard training, etc at higher but reasonable rates. To participate you have to pay a membership to the rec center first, then choose classes. I went yesterday to check out what all they have to offer and I was VERY impressed! They have a swimming pool, tennis & racquet ball courts, 2 full basket ball courts, walking trails, tons of classes ranging from exercise to cooking & crafts, childrens programs and activities, adult games room, a free weight room, a circuit training room, a cardio equipment room, and more that I’m sure I am forgetting. The rooms aren’t very large, but there is a wide variety of equipment. They even offer personal trainers and health assessments for additional fees. BUT the only thing you have to pay extra over the membership fee is for personal training or classes. All the pool and equipment use comes with the membership! Guess how much that is? $72.00 (yes, seventy two) for a WHOLE YEAR. Wow, maybe I’ve been in the dark, but I’ve never heard of a place such as this anywhere else that we have lived. They are state sponsored to provide low cost fitness and community activities so that’s why they are so affordable, I REALLY REALLY want to join. It’s only 1 mile from my house and they are open from 6am to 9pm M-F and 8-6 or so on the weekend. I talked to DH about it yesterday and he said if I really really wanted to do it, we would find the money when he gets paid in October. I’m so excited just thinking about using all the cool stuff to tone with! Plus I really want to start waking up with the chickens and if I go at 6am there probably won’t be too many people there for the first couple of hours. If there are, I’ll just swim in the pool.

I really have to get over my fear of working out in front of people. I have this one woman in my mind that is at every gym everywhere all the time. She is the one wearing a sports bra and bicycle shorts with her earbuds in. She is on the stair machine/ elliptical going at warp speed and you can see the vertebrae in her spine while she trudges up and down. She scares me. What must a woman like that think when she sees someone like me? I think she looks and scoffs at the poor little fat girl that probably can’t walk up a flight of stairs without getting winded. Maybe she is nice, who knows? I don’t because I avoid her at all costs. Maybe she just makes me realize how much I hate myself for doing this to my body and I cannot stand to face her because she is what I could have been, if I had only cared- only tried.

Before this is all over I WILL talk to her and find out the answers I am so scared to seek, if I do anything else for myself on this journey, this has to be it. Have a great day chickies and stay OP always! 🙂

 20 Pound Challenge- 95 days left


Cry me a river…

I know that all of you have probably had a day like this before, if not, well I guess i’m just an oddity of life that belongs in the Smithsonian… from 5pm to almost 9pm I spent 50% of the time in tears today. I think I had just bottled up so much frustration that when I went to talk to DH about some of the feelingings I was having, the faucet turned on and sprung a leak. In short some of the things I spent the evening bawling over were (in no particular order and I’m sure I’m leaving stuff out); feeling worthless for not having a job, feeling like crap b/c I don’t even have a quarter to my name b/c of lack of job, feeling like I wasted the last 9 months of my life b/c of all the BS that we got put through with our move, feeling like a failure b/c I will not be attending school this semester, regretting so badly ever stopping my diet/exercise plan 2yrs ago, wanting desperately to be thin and fit just once in my life before we have children and my body becomes unrecognizable… Let’s just say I had a ton up there that I didn’t even realize was bouncing around in there! DH sat quietly and held me, he doesn’t say much- he won’t lie to me and tell me that it will be ok, but he will listen and at least pretend that he understands. I must have lost 2 lbs of weight in mucus and after getting it all out, I feel much better other than my contacts being shellacked to my cornea from crying all day. I am a crier for sure. I don’t do it in public and I never tell anyone, but I cry a lot. For me crying is a way of releasing toxins- be it anger, sadness, frustration, etc. It helps me, even if it does make me a cry baby. After the cry session we cooked dinner and sat down to watch a movie together. It ended up being a complete tear-jerker and my oversensitive self of the day cried through out the whole movie too! Now DH is tucked into bed and I feel a lot more at peace- for the time being, until it all builds up again.

I actually did something kind of neat today, but I’m going to save that for tomorrows post since I can barely see through my contacts right now. I did work out on the bike again, this time for only 20 minutes, but something is better than nothing. I have also continued to stay OP today. Have a great night chickies and I hope to have a more positive day and post tomorrow for you all.

20 Pound Challenge- 96 days left

Official weekly weigh in, scales says, 165.0 lbs!!!! Yah! I surpassed my goal by .8 lbs and made my “mental” goal for this week! Only 10 pounds to go by Halloween to reach my first big mini goal! I feel happy. Ok, now for the general chatter for the day… Woke up late *again* (how am I ever gonna get a job?) Started the huge mass of laundry that I had been accumulating and got about half way done with it. Did some other miscellaneous errands/ housework. Then I made the descision to start this new week off right and exercise. I went for an hour on the bike and burned around 500 calories! Yah! I’ll probably be sore tomorrow, but oh well I needed to really jump start things. With a 2.8 lb loss this past week I know I have to work really hard to get in at least -2 lbs this coming week, especially with our trip looming. I hope everyone had a great weekend, I think I’m going to try to capitalize on what’s left of it right now and relax for a while. Good night chickies!








Happiness is just outside my window
Would it crash blowing 80-miles an hour?
Or is happiness a little more like knocking
On your door, and you just let it in?

Happiness feels a lot like sorrow
Let it be, you cant make it come or go
But you are gone- not for good but for now
Gone for now feels a lot like gone for good

Happiness is a firecracker sitting on my headboard
Happiness was never mine to hold
Careful child, light the fuse and get away
Cause happiness throws a shower of sparks

Happiness damn near destroys you
Breaks your faith to pieces on the floor
So you tell yourself, thats probably enough for now
Happiness has a violent roar

Happiness is like the old man told me
Look for it, but youll never find it all
But let it go, live your life and leave it
Then one day, wake up and shell be home
Home, home, home

-The Fray, ‘Happiness’

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=esbwaveblz0&feature=fvw *Hear it here*

20 Pound Challenge- 97 days left


Where to work?

Scale says 165.6 this morning! I getting too excited for my own good, I just know it. I really need to get my butt in gear today and work out some more; I haven’t for the past two days because I was sick thursday and too busy yesterday. At least I have come closer this week to making my exercise minutes goal than I have all month. I wanted to go to the beach and swim today but Hurricane Igor is causing “dangerous rip currents and swells along the eastern seaboard”, so I guess that’s not such a great idea. I spent all morning cleaning up the house- I also have neglected it for the past two days for the same reasons. I really don’t even know if there was much point though, as the house usually gets trashed over the weekend. Oh well, deja vu on monday. My DH’s leave got approved so we are going to New York next week, probably the 22nd to the 25th or so. I feel a little better about the possibility of staying OP now since he said he only wants to spend a couple of days there instead of the full 6 days. On the 28th I have a doctors appointment and DH is having more oral surgery so he’ll be home for another 5 days straight, meaning I can nix getting anything productive done. At least by the time this trip is over and the appointments are done, it will almost be pay day! AND, then I should be done with all my BS hassle stuff and be able to apply for some jobs. I don’t know what I want to do yet, but I do know that I want a break. Before we moved I was working at a high paced, very stressful and involved management position and I can’t go back to that right now. I want something simple, easy, and with minimal responsibilities. Don’t get me wrong, I am a TRUE HARD CHARGER, I work my ASS off for every company I have ever worked for, but the truth is I am BURNT out. Too much work, too much heart, too little pay, and too little appreciation. I’ll still do the hard manual labor, but I don’t want a job where I have to remember a bible full of rules and regulations and procedures and blah blah wonk wonk wonk… Here is what I’m thinking, cashier or stock person, maybe sales associate at one of the following places; Blockbuster or video store, Barnes & Nobles, Petsmart, maybe a clothing store dk on that one, Food Lion or other grocery chain, or a movie theater. I know, I know, you’re probably thinking why set your sights on basic jobs? Well the cold hard truth is, even though I was an honors student with a 3.8 gpa, my parents were poor and my high school sucked at helping anyone get into college or get scholarships. This is my path and it’s ok with me, I do worry that one day it may be very hard to make ends meat- but I’ll deal with that hurdle if it comes. I want to go to college one day, if we can ever afford it, but I still really don’t know what for? Anyways, if any of you girls have worked in any of these types of places can you tell me a few things… 1. If the pay was at least competitive or higher than minimum? 2. How much responsibility did you have? 3. In general was that particular company good to work for? I really don’t want to end up in a nightmare job again, I’ll have to save that for another day. Also, I’m open to suggestion if anyone has something that they think might fit my criteria- also part time is A-ok, could do full time too. I know not all companies give you the choice. I cannot work in food services, no way, I’d be 400+ lbs in no time flat! Thanks in advance for any suggestions chickies, much appreciated! Well I’ve gotta get off here and do something with my weekend, I’ll probably update later after DH goes to bed- he has to work all weekend again. Peace.

20 Pound challenge- 98 days left

Today was so busy for me! First my phone alarm didn’t go off like it was supposed to and even though I went to bed much earlier last night, I didn’t wake up until 11:00am… Off to a slow start at first. I try to get all my errands, work outs, hobbies (like blogging & reading blogs), and other solitary things done by 4:30pm, that way when my DH gets home we can eat dinner together and hang out for a while. He usually goes to bed between 9:30pm & 11:00pm and then I spend the rest of the night catching up with friends, cleaning, and blogging again before bed. So with that information in hand, that left me with 5.5 hrs to take care of business today. I had to go to the Dr. today to get blood drawn for lab work, I’m actually really excited because I have a physical on the 28th and I’ll get to discuss the results with my Dr. While I’m there I plan on inquiring about prescription weight loss meds and feel out my Dr.’s position on them. I’ll take any help I can get and FDA approval is a big plus. I also plan on asking about my exercise. I have a problem whenever I try to do intense cardio and always have as far as I can remember. I’m not weak and I have good stamina, but once my heart rate gets up and my breathing gets heavy, I feel like I’m not getting enough oxygen. My muscles start to feel weak and I have to slow down to catch my breath. No matter how many weeks in a row I try- it never gets any better. I think that the cause of this is my nasal passages. I have a pretty skinny nose and I can breathe out of my left nostril, but if I try to only breathe out of the right side I can’t get enough and start to feel like I’m suffocating. I’m 99% sure it’s not asthma, I only have this during intense cardio, I don’t have any allergies, have no difficultly holding my breath, and no one in my family- at all, has it. Plus I recover as soon as I slow down. It’s probably a deviated septum, but I’ll let the Dr. diagnose me. Has anyone else had this and if so, how did you have it fixed and what were the results like? I’d love to run and actually not feel like my legs are going to give out!

Next on my list, I went to the grocery store and stuck to my list and made it out in half an hour and $105.00 dollars later. Swung by the local department store, got all my girly things that I was out of; conditioner, foundation, tampons, etc. Came home, unloaded, made some phone calls, tried to blog & read blogs- got distracted, then my DH came home not too much later. It’s weird, now that I typed it out it doesn’t seem like I did a whole lot… maybe I was temporarily abducted by aliens and then they erased my mind? Oh well, all that matters is that I felt like I got a lot done even though I woke up really late.

The great news today? Scale says 166.0! My master plan is coming together quite nicely and just maybe I can hit 165 at Sunday’s weigh in! Just maybe… Anytime I feel like I’m accomplishing impossible tasks I always imagine myself doing some crazy stunt while belting out the chorus from Motley Crue’s “Home Sweet Home” because I’m On My Way! I’m On My Way! Home Sweet Home! I can feel it, it’s getting closer, just keep pushing.

20 Pound Challenge- 99 days left

Today scale says 166.6 lbs, things are shaping up quite nicely for me this week it seems. 🙂 I’ve got 3 days until Sundays weigh in and I’m uber excited! If I can squeeze out a half pound a day until then, (she’s got hi-i-igh hopes, she’s got hi-i-igh hopes) I will reach my next mini goal of 165.0 lbs! I’m just so crapping excited! The last time I lost weight before this I got to 164.4 lbs back in January of this year, that was before my adventures in ‘hoboville’ where I gained 30lbs in 3 months. The smallest I got before that was in September of 2009, I got down to 158.3 lbs right before our cruise to Alaska. I’m just on the cusp of all these milestones- my all time ‘low’ was 153.8 waaay back in October 2008- before my mother died and I gave up. I consider 155.0 lbs to be my real low since it was actually consistent though. I’ve got 45 days to lose 11.6 lbs, that’s .25 per day, 1.8 per week- I CAN DO THIS & I KNOW I WILL! That is to reach my first big goal of 155.0 lbs by Halloween.

Today has been the hardest in a while… I am staying OP and I will stay OP, but the cravings are HORRIBLE right now! I’m out of crackdiet-Pepsi and am going into DT’s as I type. Plus I only slept 3hrs last night and have been up for 12hrs already with another 6 hrs to go. I want to swim in cheese sauce right now, I’m a horrible cheese addict… or maybe some gravy… oh, I know! Chocolate chip waffles loaded with syrup & butter from the Waffle House. Lord help me! I may never wake up early again! Don’t worry though, I’ll be ok. Believe it or not, being accountable to all of you really helps me out. I would be so embarrassed and ashamed to have to come on here and tell you I binged. I’ve always been really sensitive to embarrassment!

BTW: Today is officially ONE MONTH of not eating OFF program! Hoo-Yah!

20 Pound Challenge- 100 days left


I could not sleep at all last night! I got into bed at 1:30am and was lying there awake until around 3:30-4:00am, then at 5:30am I woke up to make DH a nice breakfast before his exam. He leaves at 7:00am and I attempt to go back to bed, AWAKE< AWAKE< AWAKE… then at 8:00am DH calls. Guess what? Administration screwed up and did not order an exam for him… After all that studying and hoping… Gah! He even asked them twice before the due date if he was all taken care of and they assured him things were fine, even though they had not given him a profile sheet. The good news is there is a substitute exam, but it is different from the one we just spent the past 2 months studying for. Although, I looked over the material that is supposed to be on it and it does look a little less involved. The bad news, we will only have 2 maybe 3 WEEKS to study before the new exam. Let me tell you girls one thing, if you ever plan on joining the military or have a son or daughter that does, DO NOT expect things to be all squared away just because these are government agencies. I hate to say it but it is the truth, we have been screwed more than a street walker in Vegas on a Saturday night in the last 5 years. THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH, for you kind words of encouragement and your luck and prayers. If you have any left send more this new exam. I’m just going to take this as a sign that DH will do better on this exam and that things will all work out.

Since I’m up at such a bright and sunny hour, I think I’m going to try to take care of a lot of business while I actually have a full 8 hours on my own. I will post more later today. Thank you all again!

UPDATE: After I wrote this post, DH called around noon and told me that Admin. had an extra test and he did take the test today! Admin. would have gotten in trouble if they had to order him a substitute exam since it was their fault. I’m glad it is over and I will be praying that he makes high enough to advance! The results won’t be out until mid November to early December- so now, we wait.

Also, I got up and went out to take care of business, got a few things done and then I started feeling like crap- literally. I have not felt like this in a long time. I literally had to stop what I was doing and drive home to meet our porcelain friend… I still feel yucky, blech. Maybe I won’t be getting so much done today…

The good news is I completely detailed my car this afternoon! After feeling so crappy, I didn’t want to actually leave the house, so I did a few things around here. Still feel a little sick, so I think I’ll take a rest day from exercise.




Hey chickies please wish my husband and I luck for tomorrow! He is taking his advancement exam for the Navy tomorrow and he only has 2 chances left to get promoted before he is involuntarily discharged. For everyone that has no idea what I’m talking about… The exams are given twice a year and you compete against all the other people that do your job for promotions. He has always passed the exam, but has come within 2 points of making high enough to get promoted (they only have so many spots available). For each pay grade there is a set amount of time that you have to advance in or else get separated. He’s only got 2 chances to make the next rank and only another 2 at this point to make the rank after that. If he doesn’t make it this time that leaves him only one shot to advance 2 ranks- which is really hard to do in 1 shot. So please wish good luck, pray, anything to help him/us out tomorrow and THANK YOU ALL!



Yesterday I pledged to join Sistah Pat’s 20 Pound Club. Today I’m starting the challenge at 167.0 pounds, this is my official weigh in for this challenge. The goal, to weigh at 147.0 or less by Christmas! Wish me luck! I will post more later today after my work out. Peace out, Pepagirl

Just had a great workout and feel really sleepy! I did 20 minutes on the bike, 20 minutes on the treadmill, and 10 minutes lifting weights. Yah! Gotta work on dinner now, be back later.