Really Thinking Today About How I Can Get What I Want

Posted by pinkprincess58 on July 30th, 2009 |Filed Under Uncategorized | 1 Comment

Peggy, why do you write down goals unless you are really going to try to reach them?

Today’s goal is to spend some time thinking about what I really want and how I’m going to get there. I may ditch WW and try to eat “normal” and see how I do.

So basically today my goals are

Drink drink drink water, instead of reaching for a specific target today, going to see how much I can drink “normally”.
Eat 3 meals. (never a problem, lol)
Write it all down that I eat.
Limit snacking especially after 8 p.m.

I’m going to try to retrain my habits. I feel good about these goals and am considering today my restart day. (again! lol)

 
I found the neatest ezboard weight loss group today.  Dead, but neat, lol.  I was so disappointed. Am I the only one always looking for something that I think may really motivate me?  I did notice today that this few minutes of “thinking about it” seems to have had an effect on my thought process.
 
August 1st is almost here and I’m going to create a new plan for myself. Have been thinking about it for a couple of days now.  I want these last 5 months of this year to be healthy months for me.

Making Peace With Food

Posted by pinkprincess58 on July 16th, 2009 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

I was so frustrated yesterday, I had decided to do something different today.  I decided not to count calories or points, but to allow myself whatever I wanted within reason, as long as I cut back from my normal intake. It worked. Today I only had 37.5 points. (I counted the points at the end of the day just to use for comparison.)  Then tonight I found this website about Intuitive Eating.  I was so surprised to read the 10 principals. One of them was to make peace with food. It felt like I was reading about my day today.

http://www.intuitiveeating.org/10_Intuitive_Eating_Princip.php

I’m going to continue this food program for the rest of this week and see how I do.

I feel like something happened last night when I journaled.  Today it felt like I had really made my mind up.  I have had some food temptations today that would put me well over my allowance again, but I’ve told myself, it’s ok, those foods will be there tomorrow.  You don’t have to have them today. They will be waiting for you tomorrow if you still want them, and by then you will have more calories/points to spend.  I even went ahead and brushed my teeth early to give myself the signal that today’s eating was over.   Maybe, I’ve finally gotten on the right track after so long.  I hope to repeat the successes of today again tomorrow. I’m starting to visualize myself wearing some of those clothes I want to wear and it feels great!

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Time to Take Control Not Let Food Control Me

Posted by pinkprincess58 on July 15th, 2009 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

Here I am again. Writing about my disgust with myself, and my disappointment. Why?  I can change this. I can change this. It’s all a matter of what do I do next?  What do I want to accomplish?  I want to get healthy. I hear people all around me dying of massive strokes, heart attacks that weren’t suppose to happen. And even though these things can’t be controlled, there is a certain measurement of prevention one can take. Eating healthy, and lots of exercise.

Christmas is coming, which means a Christmas banquet. And come Thanksgiving, I will be wishing I had lost weigh so I can look nice at the banquet.  And I need to get prescription refills soon, and eventually the doctor’s office will say they need to check my blood sugar, and I won’t have done enough to prevent the diagnosis of diabetes.

So what are my short term goals to get me going on this journey, seriously, once and for all?   A loss of 20 pounds would help immensely.  Hmmm, 20 pounds. I will go and delete all my tickers and set a new one for 20 pounds.  My first 20 pound goal will be 267.  I have already lost 3, so that leaves 17 pounds. I can do this. And how hard will it be to eat one fruit and one vegetable on a daily basis?  That should not be that hard to do. And I will keep my exercise up, and add strengthening and resistance training to it at least 3 times daily.

I can do this. I can. Remember when you lost 65 pounds in 1998?  I had gotten down to 212 from 277.  Just 12 pounds from Onederland!  I almost forgot what happened and how it was that I didn’t make it.  I was in a car accident, broke both my wrist and leg, so I was pretty much incapacitated for several months. So I didn’t move,couldn’t move, and ate and ate.  Before the wreck when I was losing, I remembered one thing I did that caused me to lose weight. I pretty much ate what I wanted, I just cut my portions in half.  i remember throwing away half of a happy meal, and being amazed that I could do it.

When I went out for dinner on Sunday with my family, I really thought I was starting to get back in the mode. I had whatever I wanted, but I only ate half or less of a serving. I was satisfied, and I left feeling proud of myself.  But here I go again, it’s Wednesday, three days later, and I have not controlled my eating.  Hmmm, control. That’s what it’s all about. Do I control the food or does it control me.  It’s time to tell food who is boss.

Now I try to count points, and I worry that I estimate too much and don’t count enough points.  Maybe what I need to do is carry my WW books around with me for a couple of weeks, and look up every point. I would like to count calories, but it’s too time consuming.  With all the challenges I’m in at 3fatchicks, I’m already spending loads of time logging on them every night, but they do seem to help me. I even moved my blog to 3fatchicks to give me the feeling someone may actually read it, and I need to do good.

I am going to change my goal just for Thursday as a test. I am not going to count points, but instead I am going to limit my portion size, and I’m going to stop at 10:30 p.m. and see how I feel when I go to bed, proud of myself or frustrated.  Gotta keep trying until I get it right.

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Sunday’s Entry

Posted by pinkprincess58 on July 13th, 2009 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

I’m counting this as Sunday’s entry. These thoughts were on my mind yesterday to journal, I just forgot to do it. I shut the computer down on a whim, because my restless legs were really bothering me.  And I went to bed.

Sunday was my dad’s birthday. He loves Golden Corral. And I noticed that my food attitude was different.  I put carrots and spinach on my plate. At Golden Corral?  What?  I wanted to eat healthy.  I wanted to get out of my mind that Golden Corral wasn’t so special, that I wouldn’t be back there again soo.  I also made sure I got some fresh fruit.  MMMMMM, cantalope!  It was delicious.  I can tell this feels different. I will be successful on this journey and I will get what I want.

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Today Is The Day

Posted by pinkprincess58 on July 11th, 2009 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

I have such a hard time coming up with journal entry titles. That’s why a lot of them sound the same. 

Today was such a good day. My sisters, daughter and I went shopping at a mall together. We also had lunch out together.  Life is grand!

This morning I was getting ready to go, when all of a sudden I began to think of myself as beautiful. I was shocked that I was feeling this way. And it seemed like maybe I was unearthing something that causes me to self sabotage.  I’m going to start thinking of myself as beautiful. I’m going to put more effort into my appearance when I go out.

I watched Oprah a couple of days ago. It was a repeat, but she was talking about getting down to the real reasons one can’t lose weight. And that’s about something besides the food, and wanting the tastes. I had felt terrible for several days, and had really been shoveling the food in. I began to think about what she said.  She said to ask yourself “What is it that you really want?”  And I began to think about that. I realized I had been so irritated with myself for spending so much time on the computer and not getting enough done.  So that day, I began to do more around the house, and I kept a list of what I had done that day.

I noticed that night, I was more in control of my eating. I think I may have hit one of the nails on the head. So I’m going to start a flylady page on this blog. Because apparently, clutter at home has a whole lot to do with body clutter. In fact, I have that book, I need to read it again, starting tonight.

I am retaining fluid bad, the worse I have seen in a long time. I had stopped having that problem after 12 weeks of consistent exercising. Now after not doing so much in June, apparently it is back. I have got to stay on top of my exercise.

I’m also going to start a page called “Just For Today.”  It will be where I journal my food.

I’m also not going to worry about how personal I get in this blog, and who will see it. I have decided I really am committed to losing this weight with the help of 3fatchicks.  And moving my blog from Blogger to here, well, I seem more connected to people who really care.

Yes, I am really going to do it this time!

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I’m Going to Prove It!

Posted by pinkprincess58 on July 11th, 2009 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

Sometimes, my dad is very critical.  He was so sure my son couldn’t repair the body to his car and get it running, I cheered my son on, just to prove him wrong. And he did!  He did a great job.

Now, it’s my turn. I challenged my dad to 25 pounds loss by Christmas.  He began telling me I needed to lose it by eating the way he did.  I keep telling him Weight Watchers works if you work the plan. And that I couldn’t do his plan and just eat one meal a day. My metabolism would completely shut down.

So 25 pounds by Christmas by doing WW, here I come!  I’m going to do this!  In fact, I believe if I really do the program, I will lose more than 25 pounds by Christmas Day.

I took the time today to make a list of all the challenges I’m involved in at 3fatchicks and Weight Watchers.  I am determined to do this.

Some of my goals on one challenge is to drink at least 24 oz water daily and one vege and one fruit daily. I have learned to go ahead and complete these goals early in the day. If I wait to do them just before I go to bed, I totally forget them and they don’t get done.

I also thought about my WW plan last night. It’s always hard for me to decide do I do flex, or winning points, or which ww plan? About a month ago I was losing, and I was eating 40 points a day. Now I don’t want to do that, but what I decided to do is allow myself 36 points a day.  This is 31 plus 5 daily flex points. And I’m going to bank them like winning points.  Maybe this will work for me, I’m sure it will.  On Sundays, I just do the best I can, and will only count it as 36 if I go over. We usually go out on Sundays for dinner after church, and sometimes depending on where we go, it’s hard to stay within the point range. And it’s also usually 2 pm or later when we eat, so it throws my whole regular eating schedule off.

So here I go again:
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Why Can’t I Stay On Program

Posted by pinkprincess58 on July 4th, 2009 |Filed Under 100 days, haste, journal | Leave a Comment

I spent a couple of hours this morning, starting over on challenges and getting things organized so I wouldn’t forget what I was participating in. And tonight I just feel like throwing in the towel again and not worry about how much I have eaten. What is wrong with me? What is it? Why Can’t I get going on this? I know if I can get about a week or two under my belt, I will be ok. Oh, I will have slip ups because I’m human, but If I can just get one week, just one week, under my belt. One good loss to start it off.

I just ate 2 starcrunches. And I snatched them like I was afraid someone was going to take them from me. So there’s part of it. Eating in Haste. I was going to look up the definition of haste and found the quote, Haste makes waste. Hmmm, haste makes waist! I like it. So I’m going to institute a plan. Before I eat anything in haste, I’m going to see how much I have already eaten, I’m going to go to my room and look at the outfit hanging on my closet door I want to wear, I’m going to feel the fat I’ve noticied recently on my hips and backside, I’m going to drink 8 oz of water. If I still need help, I can twitter, I can read an article in my WW magazine, and I can go to WW or 3fatchicks. Maybe by the time I do all that I will not eat anything in haste. This will be my mini goal for this week to avoid any haste making any more waist.

I’m glad I took the time to write in my journal today. I can see it has helped.

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Another One of Those Days!

Posted by pinkprincess58 on July 2nd, 2009 |Filed Under journal | Leave a Comment

I so overate yesterday even with the extra calories Sparkpeople allows me on my limits. At one point, my stomach was hurting from being full, and I still got up and got more brownies. And I knew when I was doing it, I was self sabotoging. I knew I was!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The scales were showing 278 yesterday, but I wasn’t trusting myself, and was calling it 279, but I know it was actually 278. I had probably 1000 calories of brownies yesterday. Am I going to give up brownies? No. Are they a red light food? No. Brownines are just what I had available to eat. On my 21 day challenge, one of my goals is to eat a fruit everyday. And I have been eating canned peaches. And I’m getting hooked on them. And that’s what I wanted to do from that challenge. In fact, I’m decideing now, when I go to my dad’s tonight and fix his dinner, when we are watching a little tv together, I’m going to offer him some peaches. He’s wanting to lose more weight, too. A lot of times when I fix dinner, I will cook some type of green vege over there, and he will make the comment we don’t really need that with the (whatever it is) hamburger and potatoes. He only wants a meat and one side dish. And I tell him, “but we are supposed to be getting green veges in, too.” He always eats it, whatever I cook, whether it be green beans, asparagus, whatever.

I don’t know what I’m thinking, I’m so motivated on my exercise. My Word, I have done over 100 miles watp this year already! That’s a huge accomplishment for me, but I keep shoveling the food in, which counteracts the exercise I do There I said it. I’m more or less wasting my time exercising. Unless I’m going to be a 300 pound woman with great muscles in her legs. Hmmmm, I’m getting deep into thought now, I think I will have to copy this over to my blog, lol.So what am I going to do about this? For one thing, I need to quit giving myself permission to overeat by telling myself the next day, “Oh, well, I needed to shake things up.” No, the only thing you shook up was your digestive system wondering where it was going to put all that food! I started out in January telling myself I had a whole fresh year to lose some weight, plenty of time to do it, no problem. I checked, I weighed 280.2 when the year started. That’s it. No more playing around, no more self sabotage, no more excusing myself with lame excuses. It’s time to do it, and do it now. Can I still lose 60 pounds this year? Who knows, it’s been years since I really really stuck to a diet. My first week of really being good, I may drop several pounds.

So what works? Calorie Counting? Yes. Weight Watchers? Yes. How do I know? I have read where other people follow the same plans and they lose their weight and reach their goals. And I know God didn’t make the mechanics in my body much different than anyone elses. Yes it will work, if I “FOLLOW” the plan. I have committed to Sparkpeople for the month of July, to see what happens. And I will continue my exercise and my activity on this group and on 3fatchicks.

How Much Water Do I Need

Posted by pinkprincess58 on June 4th, 2009 |Filed Under Article, Water | Leave a Comment

A person who is 280 pounds and is exercising for 20 minutes ,is not pregnant, is not breastfeeding, does not live at a high altitude,does not live in a dry climate,drinks 0 alcoholic drink(s),when the weather is not very hot or very cold,and is not sick with fever or diarrhea should have:

142 ounces of water today, or 4.3 liters.If you eat a healthy diet, about 20 percent of your water may come from the foods you eat. If you eat a healthy diet you can drink 113.6 ounces of water today, or 3.4 liters.

Remember that water is the best source for your daily fluid needs. Other good beverages include milk, herbal teas, low-sodium broth, 100% fruit and vegetable juices. Soft drinks will also count toward your daily total of fluid, just remember that sugar sweetened soft drinks and fruit juices add extra calories to you daily diet that you don’t need.

Taken From
http://nutrition.about.com/library/blwatercalculator.htm

Why Can’t I Get on Any Diet Plan for My Eating?

Posted by pinkprincess58 on June 4th, 2009 |Filed Under Hollywood, journal | Leave a Comment

Why, why, why? I get so angry with myself. I want to blame it on not having enough groceries, and in some cases this is true, some cases it is not. Today I’m going to explore in my cabinets, and just see what healthy foods I have to eat.

I was reading yesterday about a lady named Galen, who has lost over 100 pounds in about 6 months. How did she do it? Plain old Weight Watchers. Yes, it does work, if we work the plan. I did note she said she was on the Momentum plan and trying to eat all the satisfying foods marked with a green diamond in her program book. Well, I don’t have those books, but it shouldn’t be too hard to figure out, foods with lots of fibre.

I have also taken note of a couple of people on some of my favorite tv shows have lost some weight and they look fantastic. Now, before you go and post remember they are stars and blah, blah, blah, they have lost weight. They were never big, but they have lost. One of them recently had a baby and she’s the tiniest I have ever seen and she even stated she had worked hard to look this good. The other one, I never really noticed she had lost but her face shows it, she has dimples now, that didn’t show before. I thought about Tori Spelling and Kate G., and how food is probably not the focus of their day. They are too busy with other activities with their professional lives. No, I don’t really have that kind of professional life, but I decided yesterday to try an experiment. Both of these ladies take great pride in their appearance. To be honest, I don’t, not really. My goal usually is just to look nice and clean. But I’m going to work at this. I’m going to get my exercise done earlier in the day, and get my shower done earlier, and work on my hair. I need to find a new do. Maybe if I start acting like I look my best, I will really start looking my best.

I know in the back of my mind, I have been thinking about what foods are healthy for me, like fruit juices for instance. I never get enough fruits and veges. I don’t wear makeup, but I could eat the right foods to have natural makeup and look my best. For instance, I always have dark circles under my eyes. I just read hydration, fruits, veges, and vitamin C. I can do that, and of course, enough sleep, which I know I don’t get enough of.

I need to make sure I put some focus every day on my plan, by journaling and visting the forums I’m in.

***After I wrote this in my journal this morning, it was reported on TV that Kate G. exercises everyday on an Elliptical or treadmill for 45 minutes burning 800 calories. See it takes work. It seemed like some kind of sign that this was reported on the same day I wrote this.
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