I lost another half pound this morning. Gift from God. I sure didn’t earn it.
I’ve been stranded for a while. DH is a mechanical whiz and my car keeps stalling. He planned on fixing it this weekend and it wasn’t really a problem. I stayed home and used things in the freezer and pantry. I hadn’t been to the grocery for a while. Now he’s in the hospital and I don’t know when he’s going to fix my car.
Yesterday, I took his nasty-ass little car and ran around doing all the things I’d been putting off. His car is a manual clutch and I don’t like to drive it. Besides that, it looks like a trash can on wheels. Still, desperate times demand desperate measures.
I went to the grocery and stocked up on all the good healthy things I need in order to stay on my diet and brought them all home. Bought the ingredients for making a faux Wendy’s almond berry chicken salad for dinner, got some Pepperidge Farm 15 grain bread, some Boar’s Head oven-roasted turkey breast, fake fat-free swiss cheese, french fries and hot dogs for the grandkids, Kashi Almond Krunch cereal and Silk Vanilla soy milk. I picked up a couple of Lean Cuisines and some sugar-free popsicles. Stocked up pretty good.
I fixed my salad for dinner and it was pretty good. It’s a shame that Paul Newman’s fat-free raspberry vinagette is made just for Wendy’s. I bought something similar but not nearly as tasty. Ate my salad and then fell into a hole. It was like a trigger. I finished a huge salad and then made a turkey sandwich with two slices of bread and fake cheese. Ate all of that and then ate a helping of the kids french fries. I checked the label and it said 17 baked french fries only had 110 calories so I went to town!
You know how they say to dig a hole at ground level and place a glass jar with about an inch of beer in it in the garden to get rid of slugs? I tried that trick a few times when slugs were devouring my flowers. They’re attracted to the beer, slither down the sides of the jar and then they can’t get back up and drown. I felt like a slug last night. Like I’d slithered down that hole and was destined to eat until I couldn’t climb out.
I found myself eyeing the Lean Cuisines and came to a screeching halt. What on earth was I doing? It was like a houseful of healthy food was a trigger for me. Like I could eat until I drowned because it was all such healthy stuff. I did a quick revamp of the day…lots of stress, hadn’t eaten anything all day except for a hard-boiled egg and some tomato juice at breakfast, lots of tempting food around and exhaustion. Pure and simple. I was just exhausted.
I had a husband in the hospital, four grandkids running around and enough stress to rattle Gandhi.
I locked the doors, told the oldest grandkids (Andrew and Steven, 21 year old twins) to watch the two younger grandkids (11 and 13 and on “summer time” which means a bedtime around midnight…or later), went to my bedroom, shut the door, and went to bed.
I can’t say I slept good. I miss DH. I woke up twice thinking someone was knocking on the front door and woke up a half-dozen times to pee or adjust the thermostat (hot flashes).
This morning, I procrastinated weighing in but found that I lost another half pound. Thank you, God. I’m afraid a gain would have kept me down in the hole. I entered my food intake for yesterday and found that I came in a scant 20 calories below my daily allowance. Now I’m gearing up for another day of fighting the good fight.
5:30 Update – Just got back from the hospital where I spent three hours with DH. I’m tired and the sky looks like it’s ready to break open and rain down Hell and Damnation. I’m going to try to run out and do my pool laps while I can.
9:00 p.m. – Another day and I did pretty good. Did 75 laps in the pool and then worked with the aqua weights. DH called and said he wanted me to pick him up some fat-free, salt-free pretzels and take them to him tomorrow but I went out to Kroger and picked some up. I also took a look at my favorite salad dressing and was shocked to discover that Marzetti’s Simply Dressed Pomegranate Vinaigrette (in the refrigerated section by produce) has fewer calories than the low-fat crap I bought yesterday. Significantly fewer! Yay! Who’d a thunk?
I ran by the hospital and dropped off pretzels for DH (he is so lucky to have me!) Came home and fixed another faux Wendy’s Almond Berry Chicken Salad sans-a-chicken with yummy Marzetti’s Pomegranate Dressing and baked a tilapia fillet dredged in cornflake crumbs and parmesan.
I played it safe on logging in the food. Logged in an entire Wendy’s salad although I’m sure my version had significantly fewer calories since I didn’t add chicken and used a lighter dressing. I also showed 2 servings of tilapia because the fillet was rather large.
Still have almost 700 calories to play with so I think I’ll have a 100 calorie bag of Pop Secret, watch a little TV and then go to bed.