We only needed one more. We had Jake, Scout, Andrew, Steven and Holly all weekend. Both DS’s were here. Nine of us all weekend. It was not relaxing in any way, form or fashion.
Not much to write about. My life is boring as all get out these days. I don’t smoke, I try to eat right, I try to exercise. I work WAY too much and my favorite thing is sleeping.
Sleeping IS pretty good these days. The nights are just chilly enough to make it heavenly under the covers. We open the windows and I have a tough time crawling out of bed in the mornings. I used to get up 45 minutes before I had to so I could have my coffee and cigarettes and get ready for the day. Now I sleep until the very last minute before I get up.
Speaking of the last minute…I’ve got to get my shower.
6:20 Update - Shower is finished and I’m almost ready for work. Steven is in the shower now and will soon be followed by Andrew. It’s strange, having Andrew get up, get ready and then go his own way. He seems to enjoy college and is becoming pretty independent.
I’m so frustrated with dieting and exercising. I feel like I’m running as fast as I can and getting nowhere. I watch what I eat five days out of seven but then I get off track a couple of days a week and I undo all the good things I accomplished the rest of the week. Well, actually, I don’t undo the good. I never seem to accomplish any good. Since I quit smoking, the weight is sticking to me like glue. I can go five days of dieting and exercising and not lose an ounce. Then I get discouraged and off track. I can’t seem to find the fire anymore.
I keep thinking I need to get a lot more exercise but I honestly don’t know how. I work long hours and come home exhausted. I can barely force myself to go walking or do the treadmill for 30 minutes and it truly seems useless. I mean, 30 minutes on the treadmill is barely 100 calories. How on earth am I going to get motivated about that?
Everyone keeps telling me how great it is that I’ve quit smoking and I guess I should be proud of that but it just seems like I’ve substituted one problem for another.
Enough of this pity. I’ve got a job to do.