4thFebruary
One pair of black pants
That’s all I need is just one pair of black pants. They need to fit me in the waist and not come halfway up my chest (short-waisted), they need to give me room in the waist without hanging off my butt. They need to be the right length and not require cutting 8 inches off the bottom and completely re-hemming them.
That’s what I need. And I’m dreading it. I (Yes, me, Sista Pat) do not want to go shopping at this time. But I have to. I feel like a slob. None of my good pants fit me so I have two choices. Wear jeans or stretchy leggings or wear pants that are waaaay uncomfortable. I’m not like that. I like wearing nice clothes. But I threw out all my fat pants and now my other pants don’t fit so I just keep dressing like a slob. And that makes me feel bad. I’ve been wearing a lot of jeans this winter and I think I need to pick up a few nice items to make me feel better. Dress for success and all that.
I’m afraid of how it’s going to make me feel when I go looking for pants and try on one pair after another that look like crap. True, I’m watching what I eat again and I’m hitting the treadmill but I know what a downer it’s going to be to try to find those damn pants and I don’t want to get discouraged.
I’m sitting here this morning in a pair of jeans. About the only thing that fits and feels comfortable and I’m feeling totally slobby. I don’t have anything going on after school today and I’ve made up my mind that I’m going to bite the bullet and buy a pair of fat pants. I’ve really struggled with all the “dress up” occasions that I’ve had to deal with lately. I just don’t have the pants to go with dressy tops and jackets. Seems like I’ve worn the same “good”outfit about a half dozen times this winter and I’ve been miserable and raced home to get out of those pants!
Wish me luck. It may be a long afternoon/evening and I’ll probably leave a lot of dressing rooms feeling teary-eyed.

susan says 4th February @ 7:49
Ya know what? Just look at this as a tiny blib on your diet radar. Now you will have a pair of pants to get loose on you, and ain’t that a grand feeling!
Also, I bet you will find some really good sales out there.