20thJuly

Pins and Needles

Tomorrow morning we meet with the social worker to discuss her recommendations for custody.  I’m so nervous I’m making myself sick.  I keep trying to run away and distract myself but it doesn’t work very well.  I’m quiet and morose and very shaky.  I keep telling myself there’s no way this woman could possibly recommend custody for DIL but I know how good DIL can look in the short run.  She’s a fabulous actress.  She can be charming and witty.  She can be repentant.  She can promise the moon and people believe her.  It’s so scary.  On the other hand, it’s been a week since the court allowed her to have supervised visitation with the kids for two hours a week.  She hasn’t made any arrangements to do so.  That could be because the social worker hasn’t done what she needs to do but I doubt it.  If I hadn’t seen my kids for six weeks and I was given an opportunity to spend a couple of hours with them, I’d be driving people crazy to get it arranged.  To me, that just means that she’s got better things to do with her time.  It’s not really about the kids.  It never is and it never was.

Enough…I’m going to find something to do to keep myself busy so I don’t have so much time to think about it.

8 Comments

Michelle says 20th July @ 10:56

I don’t know the story about what is going on but I hope everything works out the way you want it to. Good Luck

Sunny says 20th July @ 11:25

you poor thing. All I can do is offer hugs :: HUGS ::

firefly says 20th July @ 11:29

You need something challenging to throw yourself into today. Something physical that will require concentration (but not potentially dangerous like rock climbing or truck driving) how about working in the garden? Or repainting a room? Maybe even just rearranging the furniture in a room, give it a make-over. I find that physical exertion helps deal with the stress and a project helps keep the mind from dwelling. Plus you’ll have the bonus of exercise, something tangible to look at when you’re finished so a sense of accomplishment, and you’ll have been so busy that you won’t spend the day eating a bunch of crap (I’m a total stress eater - and I usually don’t pick broccoli to binge on.)

The next 24 hours are going to pass one way or another. It’s up to you how you spend them. (I know, like I’m one to give the advice! LOL!! Do as I say, not as I do!)

And mostly, take care of yourself. Of course, perhaps just a glass of wine, a good book and some quiet time in the spa would be what the doctor ordered!

sunnydaze says 20th July @ 11:47

Best of luck!

beerab says 20th July @ 12:01

Hope it all works out- if the social worker recommends anything crazy it’s time to call a B*TCH out! ;)

susan says 20th July @ 17:05

Hummmm. Let’s hope justice prevails or what’s left of my faith in government will go down the tubes.

Joy says 20th July @ 19:29

Oh Patty you are in my thoughts and prayers. HUGS

round says 21st July @ 3:20

Fingers crossed for your family. Hugs


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