Dang it!  I overslept.  I just kept hitting that snooze alarm cause the bed felt so good!  Now I have to get my shower, make a crock pot full of nacho sauce and a ton of guacamole and still get to work at the usual time.  Thanks for joining me, Butt Sistahs!  I’m not worried about the nachos today.  I’m not a big fan.

More later, gotta get moving.  Fast!

29thApril

Wednesday Menu

Weight 184
Last year - (950/190.5)

On this day last year, I was at 190.5, ate 950 calories, and exercised for an hour

Breakfast:
Lite yogurt (80)

snacks:
Hershey kiss (21)

Lunch:
Smart Ones Chicken Parmesan (220)

29thApril

Deja Vu

Yeah, there is something to knowing that I’ve been here a year. Thought I might go back and read the entry from a year ago and duplicate the day. Might be worth thinking about. Of course, different things are going on this year but I think I’m going to try to go back and redo some of the days from last year. Can’t redo this one because the evening activities are going to be totally different. I have to fix a bunch of stuff for nachos tonight. This month, instead of doing a coffee cake session for teachers, I’m doing a nacho bar. I’ve got tons of stuff to show them. In fact, I might upload the document I’m going to use to this site because the focus this month is on fun but educational sites. Some of them are fantastic.

About those Butt sistahs, or BUTTS (Bountiful, Underactive Teachers Trying to Slimdown), I’m going to take you up on the invitations, Brandi and Sunnie. Lord knows, I could use some encouragement. DH came in from the store last night and brought me a bunch of Russell Stover Easter candy that was reduced. Those yummy cream filled eggs. (maple, cherry, peanut butter, chocolate) This has been a bad week as far as DH goes. I don’t think he’s deliberately sabotaging me. Sometimes, he just doesn’t think. I do feel very much alone in my efforts. The wonderful friends that I worked out with and met monthly for healthy, delicious dinners out are still friends but they don’t want to be so caught up in healthy living these days. That’s just not where they’re at right now.

More later, gotta hit the shower.

Back from the shower and weighing in.  I’m at 184 this morning.  Crap.  That’s still 6.5 pounds less than this day a year ago and I’d already lost almost 15 pounds at that point so I guess you could say I’m ahead of a year ago.  I ate 950 calories for the day and worked out for an hour.  Going to start posting the comparison to this day last year on my daily menu list.  Maybe reading the blogs from a year ago will help.

I made a couple of good decisions.  I’m taking the filled chocolate eggs to school and giving them to some kids.  I’m also supposed to bake Friendship cake today.  A colleague gave me the starter ten days ago and I’ve been smushing it daily and adding stuff to it in preparation for baking the cake today.  I’m not going to do it.  Believe it or not, this is something I’m having trouble dealing with.  It’s a bag full of yeasty mush.  Why am I resisting throwing it out?  Seems like some kind of betrayal or something.  I know my colleague is going to be really anxious to know how the cake turned out and the one she brought to work was delicious.  I think I’ll lie to her and tell her how much we all loved it.  Question is…do I keep the starter or throw it out?

I’m going to try to blog a lot today.  Help me out, chickies!  When I’m blogging, I’m not eating.  Most days, I start out pretty good and fall by the wayside.  Gonna have a strong, disciplined day.

10:40 - One of the sites I’m sharing with teachers tomorrow is www.wordle.net   Wordle is this wonderful little program that creates word clouds like the one I uploaded at the top of the page.  You can type the words directly into wordle.  The more times you type the word, the bigger it will be.  If you want to create phrases, you must insert one of those squiggly little symbols in-between the words.  Like 3~Fat~chicks, for example.  The cool thing I did this morning is to link it to my current page of blogging and let it create the word cloud shown above.  Interesting, don’t you think?  Evidently, the words I’ve used the most in my blogging for the last few days are ‘going’ and ‘year’.  Interesting if you think about the implications.  I must be “going” to do a lot of things and I must have been “going” to do them for the past year.  Link to your own blog and see what kind of cloud you create.

On a good note, I ate my yogurt and gave away all the chocolate Easter candy.  One sweet kiddo dropped off a Hershey kiss for me and I ate it without even thinking but then I caught myself, looked it up and it only has 23 calories so I guess it won’t kill me.  Still…I’m writing it down.  Thanks for all the support, Butts, it means a lot and is helping me climb back on the wagon.

12:30 - Strange…I ate my lunch (a diet entree) and found my mind wandering and rebelling.  Started thinking that I could start dieting tomorrow.  I have to make nachos this evening and I’m really hungry, etc. etc.  Caught myself enough to sit up and take notice.  Where is this stuff coming from?  I went back to last year’s blog and looked at the menu I used for that week.  Decided to make a wonderful salad for dinner.  I’m making out the list right now so I won’t have to go back out and I can eat all I want!

28thApril

Tuesday Menu

Breakfast
Light Yogurt (80)

28thApril

In-spa-rational

Decided to soak in the spa this morning instead of blogging so I only have a minute or two. It really was nice out there. A balmy 71 degrees with a light breeze blowing. I have to admit it kinda put a damper on things (pun intended) when I got out and realized my towel was gone. I always leave one on a hook on the side of the house. Someone must have carried it in. Had to stand out there basking in the balmy breeze until I was dry enough to put my PJs back on. Figured if I walked in naked, it would be just my luck to find the boys up and roaming the kitchen.

6:30 - I am NOT comfortable in my clothes. I’ve got to get back into exercising. I’m wearing a pair of white pants (the second pair I tried on because the first showed a serious pantyline), a tank top (that fits but seems to be clinging rather intently to my midriff) and I chose a different jacket than what I’d planned because the first one didn’t seem loose enough to drape correctly over the midriff.

It’s hard to get back into the swing of things. One day is good, the next one isn’t… Yesterday, the principal invited me to join her for lunch. She said it was repayment for making the apple dumplings for her at the last potluck. She’d made a taco salad and everything was already mixed. Rather intense on the chips, cheese, and dressing. I should have declined. I didn’t. Came home last night and DH had prepared hot dogs, leftover potato salad, and assorted pickles and beets. Ate that, too. Today, I’ve got everything planned out but I’m hosting a nacho bar on Thursday and I have a bag of “Friendship Cake” starter that a friend gave me. I’m supposed to add a bunch of stuff to it tomorrow and make up a cake. Wish I could move to a desert island…

Today I will:

write down every bite that goes in my mouth

work in the garden

go for a walk (wonder if it’ll be cool enough to go upstairs and use the treadmill?)

9:00 - Eating my yogurt.  Just read your comment, Joy, and you’re sooo right!  I can do this.  I went back and read blogs from this time a year ago and I weighed a lot more than I do now but I was so excited!  I’m going to try to get back there.  Starting with the realization that I CAN do what I have to do and find time for diet and exercise.  Going to think about setting some realistic goals.  Guess I should start by weighing myself tomorrow morning and then go for the gold.  I KNOW I can lose 5 pounds in two weeks.  Wish I still had the rest of the Butt Sistahs to help inspire me but they all fell by the wayside and I think I’m the only one left who’s still hanging in there.  Still got that stupid gym membership that I’m paying for every month and haven’t used since around November.  It’s time to shake things up and come up with a new plan.  Thanks, Joy, for giving me a much needed boost.

Ugh…where’s all that Emily Dickinsonian euphoria for the morning?  I feel like crud.  Could it be a psychological hangover?  My head hurts, my stomach is queasy and crampy and I’m sleepy.  I DON’T want to go to work today.  It probably has something to do with DH’s four day work week.  I hate rolling out of bed way before sunrise every Monday morning while he snoozes till whenever.  At least I have a four day work week this week.  The Kentucky Derby is this coming Saturday and the Oakes is Friday so we’ll be off Friday for a long weekend.  DIL and DS brought over a huge batch of collard greens yesterday and asked me to fix them to go with dinner.  I did…they were good…and that’s probably why my stomach feels like it’s in rebellion.  I kept busy yesterday and managed to find enough healthy stuff to eat (washed all the goop off of my strawberries) but we put in a long day with yard work, housework, and opening the pool and I hit the bed late.  Guess I’d better get up from here and get ready for work.  It’s gotta get better, right?

26thApril

Granny Smith Grass

Went for a walk around the neighborhood yesterday evening. The grass is young and fresh and the green is so vivid it makes my mouth pucker like a granny smith apple. The scent of wisteria and viburnum perfumes the air. What bliss!

Of course, things don’t get that way without a lot of work. We did a ton of yardwork yesterday and still didn’t get finished. We’ll be back at it again today. I didn’t get Manny cleaned up. Went out there and was going to start scrubbing but DH needed my help with the ponds and then DS showed up with DIL and the kids and pitched in. I worked with them for quite a while and then started dinner. DGD, Holly, came over and I had ten for dinner instead of five so I had to supplement with one of those cute little watermelons, hot dogs, corn on the cob and brats. I was good, though. Ate strawberries, grilled chicken breast, low-fat/low cal deviled eggs, and watermelon. Made sure all the guacamole and chips went home with DS. They’re supposed to come over again today to help clean up. The front yard is pretty well done and the flower beds out there are cleaned out. The back yard, however, still needs a lot of work. We were surprised that neither of the water pumps worked. Strange to have both of them quit working. I’m going up to Harbor Frieght today to pick up two new ones.

On the diet/exercise routine I’m still a long way from where I was a year ago but I’m getting there. I keep telling myself to Just DO it. I know I’ll get better. You either use it or you lose it and I’ve lost a lot of the flexibility and strength I had last summer. I haven’t tried to get on the treadmill or do aerobics. Just working in the yard and walking around the neighborhood.

Got another full eight hours of sleep last night without having to use a Tylenol PM and I’m feeling fresh and fiesty and ready to get moving!

10:20 - So…is there anything more boring than that 25 minute wait with hair coloring itching and gooping up your ears and neck? 3 more minutes….

12:00 _ DH is really getting on my last nerve….I got up early, trimmed and sliced a pork loin and got it marinating in lite soy sauce, lemon juice, and fresh ginger so we could have grilled pork loin. Shredded veggies for a lite sweet and sour slaw. Planned on adding sliced strawberries and watermelon along with grilled veggies in balsamic vinegar with mozzarella. He went to the store to get trash bags for yard waste and came home with the makings for potato salad, hamburgers, buns, potato chips, shortcakes, whipped cream, and strawberry glaze. Said he just wanted to “spice things up” because what I planned wasn’t what he was in the mood for. I was NOT happy and told him I shouldn’t even have planned dinner because he’s making another entire meal. I went to K-Mart to pick up a prescription and came home to find that he sliced all the strawberries and added the glaze to them, made a shitload of hamburger patties, and added REGULAR Mayonnaise to my slaw. I got mad and asked him what the hell he was doing and he said I was taking this “dieting thing” to extremes. It’s Sunday, the kids are coming over, and they shouldn’t all be forced to eat “diet stuff” just because I’m trying to lose weight. Dammit!

4:00 pm.- If you ever get an RV, get a good one. We named this RV (DH insists it’s a “motor coach” not an RV) Manny because it reminded us of Manny the Mammoth in the movie Ice Age: big, strong, lumbering… It also happens to be a Monaco. I’m not happy with the way it crawls up a mountainside but DH says that’s to be expected because of the size and weight. Other than that, and a couple minor mishaps like the awning coming open while we were driving down the highway (which we later found out was because DH didn’t lock it correctly) we’ve been pretty impressed. Today, I was delighted to find that when I leveled it and extended the slider, the seal on the slider was so tight that there wasn’t a drop of syrup under the oven. The cabinets, where I splashed hot syrup all over them didn’t let a bit of it inside. Even the drawer under the oven where you store pots and pans was sealed tight. I opened it and didn’t find a single drop that had run down into it. Needless to say, the mess I dreaded cleaning up didn’t happen. The oven came clean with a simple wipe down with a soapy cloth and, other than a puddle of syrup on the ceramic tile floor, it was clean! I’ve also been impressed with how quiet this motor home is. In our old one, which was a Winnebago, I was constantly shoving little pieces of cardboard under this and that to stop little squeaks and rattles that drove me nuts when I had to listen to them for three or four hundred miles a day. It seemed like we were replacing things on the Winnebago everytime we turned around.  Manny seems to be holding up really well.  Still steamed at DH but very happy with Manny!

What a glorious morning. It’s the same as many that will come but it’s such a beautiful thing to have this kind of morning after so many dreary winter days. I took a Tylenol PM last night and slept in until 8:00 this morning. Got up to find all the windows open and a fresh, cool breeze dancing through the house. The sky is a beautiful blue and there’s not a cloud in sight. The birds are singing and it has all the makings of a perfect day.

It’s probably going to get hot as blazes before much longer and I need to get to work but I just want to sit here and drink my coffee for a few minutes and enjoy the solitude. DH slept in the RV last night. Yep, it got so hot yesterday evening he copped out, went out to Manny, and cranked the air conditioning up and turned the TV on. Probably fell asleep on the couch, woke up in the middle of the night, and crawled back to the bedroom. The only problem with sleeping in the air conditioned RV is that he’s missing this beautiful, fresh morning.

I feel totally refreshed (8 1/2 hours of sleep!) and I’m ready to get moving. Going to get my shower, grab some cleaning supplies, and get to work. I don’t think I need to get on the treadmill this morning. I have an idea the yardwork is going to give me a pretty substantial workout.

12:30 - finished with the house and I’m heading out to the RV. I’m dreading it but it’s got to be done. DH and the boys are working on the yard and I’ll join them as soon as I finish. Planning a nice fresh dinner outside so we can enjoy the clean yard and nice weather. I boiled some eggs so I can make deviled eggs with fat free mayo. I figured out about a year ago that I can take dill relish, put it in a strainer and rinse it and then add Splenda to come up with a pretty good sugar-free, low cal sweet relish. I’m also going to grill chicken breasts, have chips and dip for the guys. Dill pickles, and smoothies for drinks. Sounds fresh and cool. What’s that going to look like on the plate? I guess it’ll be chicken breast, a deviled egg, and a dill pickle. No, that’s not gonna get it for me. I know fresh smoothies made with low-fat yogurt, ice, and strawberries and peaches will be kind of filling but I’m going to need something else….maybe grill some zuchinni and red peppers….

4:00 - OMG!  Better than sex!  Coming in from the yard all hot and tired and fixing a frozen cappuccino.  It’s currently 90 degrees but there’s still a fresh breeze blowing.  I came in to take a break and threw low-fat vanilla yogurt, instant coffee granules, some a splash of 2% milk, a little splenda and a LOT if ice in the blender.  Marvelous!  I have one of those blenders that’s specially designed to make frozen drinks and it does a fabulous job.  Cold and slushy without a chunk of ice to be found.  The only thing that would make it better would be a nice splash of Kahlua.  No, no…don’t go there….

24thApril

Lord of the ring

Andrew loves his ring. Holds his hand kind of funny now. An unnatural position that causes his ring to catch the light just so. Bless his heart. He works so hard. He was one of just a handful of kids recognized last night for having a grade point average of at least 3.5. Such a good kid. I’m so proud of him.

Not sure what to make of the ring ceremony. They gave out a handful of awards. A few for perfect attendance, winners of the book awards from U of L, U of K, and Bellarmine, and a couple others. Don’t know why they didn’t save those for Awards Night. Then they called all the kids up on the stage and presented their rings, gave a little speech about the significance of all the symbols on the rings, and then ended the ceremony with appetizers and punch. I’m always struck by how awkward the kids look when they’re all “dressed up”. One girl couldn’t handle her stillettos and slipped down the steps to the stage. Landed on her butt and didn’t hurt anything but her pride, thankfully. Another kid in a suit with a green mohawk. Many girls with assorted, sparkly cocktail dresses and stringy hair, no makeup, and flip flops. Gotta love em. They’re so cute. Still gotta wonder how Mom could let them out of the house looking so mismatched. Guess it’s all part of growing up.

Seems like this entire week has consisted of early rises, long days, and late nights. At least today is pretty easy and then it’s time for the weekend. Whoo Hooo!

You with me, Joy? Ready to go, girlfriend? I’m off to the shower and then I’m jumping on the scales. You and I are in for a fabulous, totally perfect day! Dust off that treadmill and clamp on the earphones!

6:30 - showered, shaved, and ready for the day.  Poor Mr. Scale is groaning under my 182 pounds this morning.  Sorry, fella….I’m on it…

5:15 -This is how I left my desk.  I finally got out of the building at 4:30.  Two hours after I “officially” got off.  Things got pretty crazy today.  Thirteen laptops dumped unceremoniously on my desk.  I managed to get through repairs on three of them, guess that leaves me ten laptops in the hole.  I’ll just throw them in my storage room with the other hundred and twenty waiting for me to repair.  Obviously, the one where the kid broke the entire top off and shattered the screen will not be fixed.  I could have stayed another hour or so and tried to create some kind of order out of the chaos but decided I would be better off to leave and save some time for a workout before I was too tired.  Problem is…it’s HOT, HOT, HOT!  90.5 degrees farenheit.  I’m not going to reintroduce myself to the treadmill today.  It’s got to be at least 100 degrees upstairs with the sun pouring in the upstairs windows and no air.  Guess we should break down and turn on the air conditioning but that seems like some kind of sacrilege.  Instead, I’m going to hang around for a couple of hours and then take a walk around the neighborhood after it cools off.

So, Brandi, wanna know what’s going on with my weekend?  No serious commitments lined up.  Phyllisann and I didn’t make it to the Earth movie on Wednesday.  Things got too crazy.  We may try to get together this weekend but I doubt if it’ll happen.  We don’t do very well with weekends.  We both have families to take care of and too many things going on.  At some point, I have to face cleaning up the mess in the RV.  All the syrupy goo that ran under the stove and all over the carpet and tile.  We’re going to have to turn on the leveler to level Manny and extend the sliders so I can get to the ceramic tile under the oven.  I’ll probably have to take the door off the oven to get all the goo cleaned off.  What a mess.  DH wants me to help him with yardwork all weekend.  It’s been a long, nasty winter and there are leaves and small broken branches all over the yard.  The pond in the backyard needs to be cleaned out and the fountain hooked up.  Ditto for the one in the front yard (which had gross wormy things swimming around in it a couple of days ago).  Of course, the flowerbeds need to be cleaned up.  Other than that, I don’t have much going on.  I want to get serious about exercising and eating better again so I might try to stock up on groceries and plan a menu for the week.

Actually, I’m feeling like I don’t want to do anything this evening but eat some healthy food and crash in front of the TV to watch all the TiVo saved up from the week.  I may even take a Tylenol PM before bed so I can sleep like a rock.  Think I’ll go ahead and walk around the neighborhood so I can feel good about what has been a very healthy day up to this point.  After that, it’s just me and the big screen.

Oh…yeah…DH DID go to the ring ceremony.  He DID NOT slip out early.  He looked good, socialized with my colleagues, and beamed like a proud grandfather when Andrew got his ring and got recognized for grades and attendance.  Sometimes, it’s just a matter of getting him off his butt.  I had to threaten to tear him limb from limb to get him moving but he came through in the end.

Did you hear me cursing last night? I know you did. I apologize. I’m sure everyone within a thousand mile radius of my voice heard it. It was because of the dumplings.

Today is Potluck at work. I’m being good. I’m fixing low fat, delicious, grilled ginger pork loin. Our principal really wants to join us but it’s hard for her. She had some kind of celebration/dedication going on at school yesterday that was going to keep her there until almost 9:00 last night. She wasn’t going to have time to cook and wanted to bring cups and forks. Sorry, it’s already taken. Then she tried out for napkins and plates. No, that’s one of the first things to be snatched up. In the meantime, I’ve got a few friends begging for apple dumplings. So, in a moment of insanity, I said, “Tell you what…if you buy the ingredients, I’ll fix apple dumplings for your contribution. They only take a few minutes.” Of course, she jumped all over that. I forgot that the heating coil in my oven burnt out yesterday and we have to order a new one. Then it occured to me… I do have an oven in the RV. Small but perfectly good.

Stopped by the store and got the stuff for the dumplings and a couple of those disposable, oblong foil pans so we could just throw it all out and not have to worry about cleaning up. I told DH I was going to bake them in the RV and he said he’d already shut off the valves to the propane tank. I asked him to go out there and turn them back on and he got all whiney and told me how tired he was and passed the buck to DS. DS says he’ll take care of it and asks if he can use my car to go take his ex(?)(not official) to the store. Of course, you know that he didn’t turn on the propane before he left. Forgot all about it. DH is in bed (he has to get up at 3:30 every morning for work) so I go out there to try to figure it out but it’s dark and I don’t even know where the tank is. I wait, and wait, and wait and DS finally comes in at almost 11:00. Just when I’m ready to give it up and go to bed.

I made the dumplings, got em baking and set the timer for 30 minutes and came in to clean the kitchen. I was soooo tired. I couldn’t wait for the timer to go off so I could be done with it. It finally did and I walked out to the RV and opened the door to the wonderful fragrance of baked apples and cinnamon. Of course, the RV is small and, while it’s parked, we didn’t have the sliders extended so it’s pretty cramped. I pulled the pan out of the oven and bumped the wall and it was just enough movement to startle me and the damn foil pan bent in the middle and dumped all the dumplings and syrup all over the oven door, carpet, and floor.

Truly, I do apologize for the cursing. I know it went on for some time and burnt a few ears. I was so angry, I scooped all the dumplings off the open oven door (which really is clean), threw them back in the pan, turned off the oven, and walked out.

Of course, it’s midnight by now and I’m raging. I went to bed and tossed and turned and couldn’t settle down. Last time I looked at the clock, it was almost 2:00 a.m. I dragged my sorry ass out of bed at 5:00, went out to the RV, brought the dumplings into the house and mixed up another batch of syrup to pour over them. I put it on a slow boil and reduced it to where I hope it’s okay and poured it over the entire mess. I hope the syrup doesn’t set up like a rock but, at this point, I really don’t give a sh*t.

4:00 - Home a little early today. That’s because Andrew’s ring ceremony is tonight and we have to get dressed up and be back at school at 5:45 for rehearsal with the ceremony starting at 6:30. DH is being a baby and I’m not putting up with it tonight. He doesn’t want to go. He’s complaining that we won’t get home before 8:00 at the earliest and his whole evening will be shot. Suck it up. I don’t care. I’m running on three hours sleep and he’s had a full eight. I can’t even remember the last time I had eight hours sleep. This is important for Andrew and the entire family will be in attendance. No excuses. His next idea was that he’d drive his own car and stick around until they called Andrew’s name and then he’d hit the door and go home. Not happening big guy. Really, what is it with men? At least, my men? If it has to do with kids or school, they expect me to deal with it.

As for the dumplings, I can probably get kicked off the chick site for posting this recipe but you asked, Joy, so here you go:

Apple Dumplings

2 sticks butter or margarine

2 cups sugar

1 cup water

cinnamon

3 or 4 apples

2 cans Pillsbury Flaky Biscuits

Peel and core apples. Cut into wedges about 1/2 inch. Roll biscuits out thin and wrap each wedge in biscuits. Crimp edges. Place in 13 x 9 pan in rows. If using large granny smiths, each apple usually yields enough wedges for ten dumplings.

In saucepan, bring water, sugar, and butter to a boil. Pour mixture over dumplings. Sprinkle with cinnamon. Bake at 350 for 30 minutes or until brown.

OR for variety, you can try the Dumped Dumplings version. Follow the instructions shown above but put the dumplings in a disposable foil pan. Bend the pan in half as you pull it out of the oven causing all the syrup to spill out and coat the oven door. At least half the dumplings should land upside down on the oven door. Curse loud and long and then scoop the dropped dumplings back into the pan and rearrange them as much as hot and sticky will allow. Put the pan on top of the stove. Curse loudly again. Leave dumplings on counter overnight to cool.

The following morning (3 to 5 hours later), return to the kitchen. Slam the disgusting oven door and repeat cursing. Mix 1 cup sugar, 1 stick butter, and 1/2 cup water in saucepan and bring to boil over medium heat stirring and cursing constantly. Reduce heat and simmer syrup for 20 or 30 minutes till mixture thickens slightly. Pour syrup over dumped dumplings and serve.

I brought dumped dumplings to the potluck and everyone wanted the recipe. They turned out great. Tonight, for variety, I’m going to try the original recipe.

Thirty eight degrees this morning. What’s with that? The last three days have been cold and rainy. It feels more like February than the end of April. Yesterday, it was supposed to be around 60 most of the day but it didn’t get anywhere near it. In fact, when I got off work at 3:30, it was only 47 degrees. It’s supposed to go up to 65 today, 76 tomorrow, and 81 by Friday. That’ll work…

Finally got a chance to get my hair cut yesterday afternoon. The poor girl that was going to do it played around with it a few minutes and couldn’t seem to figure out what to make of it. She said, “If you don’t mind, I’m going to get my instructor to take a look.” The instructor said, “Oh yeah, I remember you! I cut your hair last time, didn’t I?” I said, “Yeah, you “showed” the girl how to do it last month, too, after she’d been trying to figure out how to cut it for almost 45 minutes. I love it. I don’t even have to use a brush. Just blow it dry for about three minutes while fluffing it up with my fingers and I’m ready to hit the road.” She said, “This is a challenging haircut to do if you’re not familiar with it. It’s called a fringe. In fact, I need to do a class on it.” Next thing I know, she gathers up ten or twelve students and demonstrates how to do a fringe. Works for me! I get a great cut from a fantastic hairdresser for $7.00.

Weighing in at 182 this morning…dammit…can’t seem to find the time or motivation to get really aggressive with it but I’m trying to be halfway healthy. Had yogurt for breakfast yesterday, LC for lunch, and leftover cajun chicken pasta salad for dinner. I have to admit that someone had picked almost all of the chicken out of it so it was more like cajun pasta but I guess I did what I could. Gonna try to stay on the straight and narrow today. Of course, I have no yogurt, no LCs and no idea what I’m fixing for dinner. Gotta work all day, teach ESS until 4:15, and then go by the store on the way home.  One of the school administrators wears a double hat with me.  One as my friend and the other as my boss.  He told me yesterday that I really need to make some time for me.  Said he can tell that I’m just worn out. Then he turns around and asks me to head another committee.  Tops it with a “please, please!  I really need you to do this!”  Thanks, Bill…

It’s so quiet.  As I’ve said many times before, it isn’t quiet around here very often and I enjoy the solitude of the mornings.

Taking on a busy week again.  Today is a staff training after school and then I have to go get a haircut.  I also have to order flowers for Sarge (from ROTC).  His brother died unexpectedly and I think the Booster Club should send flowers.   Tomorrow, I have to teach ESS after school until 4:15 and then I promised Phyllisann to go with her to see the Disney movie “Earth”.  Thursday is Andrew’s ring ceremony.  He’s so excited to get his senior ring and then I guess we’ll probably take the boys out to dinner.  Steven will probably be bummed out because, even though they’re twins, Steven failed the 6th grade and is a year behind Andrew (and that, chickies, is one of the reasons why they live with us now…).

I wanted to get my hair cut yesterday but I called the hair school and they stop taking clients at 3:00 on Mondays.  I’ve had such fantastic luck with them, I’m going to keep going there.  I’m always getting compliments on my hair and everyone wants to know where I get it done.  Surprise!  Seven dollars at the Hair Design Institute!

Time to get my shower and get ready for work.  I get to wear another cute outfit today!  Black pants with black sandals, black and white polka dot blouse, and beautiful bright green jacket!

20thApril

7 weeks!

Not too much longer! Seven weeks and I’m off for the summer.

Had a great time with DH this weekend. I got all kinds of new clothes and now I can’t decide what to wear to work today. I got all this cute springy stuff and the weather is supposed to be nasty. High of 58 degrees and thunderstorms. After shopping all weekend, I got four new pairs of shoes (one pair is a blue polka dot canvas that I love!) I got four new jackets, six blouses, two pair of jeans, three pairs of pants, two pairs of walking shorts, a skirt, and a bunch of stuff for DH. It was nice for the two of us to be able to get away for a couple of days. Didn’t get back until late yesterday evening.  The only bad part of the weekend came when I realized that the Petite Large sizes were very snug and I had to go with Petite Extra Large.  That’s where it stops!  All those cute clothes I bought last summer will be worn again this summer!

17thApril

Russ Rocks!

Russ fixed my tablet PC! A couple of other teachers got the same Trojan virus that I did from taking their laptops home last weekend. The regular policy is to just reimage the computers. They come out like brand new but you lose everything! The best techie in the world, Russ, worked with mine yesterday and managed to get into it somehow and back up all my data. Then he reimaged it and reinstalled all my old data. Now she runs great and I still have all my work! The way to Russ’ heart is through his stomach and I need to do something really nice for him soon to thank him for working so hard for me. He loves my hash brown casserole and I thought I’d make one for him and deliver it to the Computer Support building. Problem is that they don’t open until 7:30 and I have to be on the other end of town by 7:30 for work. Gotta figure out how to do this.

DH suggested we pick up the RV at my sister’s this afternoon after I get off work and just keep driving until we get to the outlet mall in Edinburgh, Indiana for the weekend. Sounds excellent!

Supposed to be 74 degrees today without a cloud in sight!  What more could a girl ask?

16thApril

Truffle Trouble

DH didn’t get me a birthday cake. Thank God. I asked him not to because I’m trying to get back on track with my diet. He got me Russell Stover Truffles instead. Hellooo???!!! Anybody in there? DS bought me roses, the twins got me a cookbook of Smoothie recipes, the little grandkiddies got me flowers for my garden and hung around long enough to eat almost the entire box of truffles so that helped.

I have training today. DS is taking the twins to school and I’m going to another location for a full day of TRT meetings/trainings with my tablet PC. Should be interesting because my tablet got a virus last Sunday and hasn’t booted up since then. I’m taking it to my meeting anyway because I’ll be spending the day with some fabulous techies and I’m hoping one of them can fix it so I won’t lose all my stuff.  Lunch will probably be at Jason’s Deli.  That’s where we usually go.

That’s about all that’s going on here. Thanks for all the birthday wishes! I’m off to fight the demons at Jason’s deli…

Long day, yesterday! Andrew got sick at school and I had to bring him home and then race back to work. After work, we had a staff meeting/training, and then I just stayed at school until the ROTC meeting yesterday evening. Got home around 7:00, ate half a Subway veggie burger, watched American Idol, and then scrounged around the medicine cabinet until I found an Advil PM and hit the bed. I slept like a newborn! No aches or pains this morning. Maybe another birthday is just what I needed.

Weight is down 3 pounds this morning from when I totally freaked out Monday morning.  Even so, I’m making Mr. Scale beg for mercy at 180.5.  That’s bad enough but imagine Monday morning when I stepped on him and saw 183.5!!!  Still feeling gently motivated and doing what I can.  I’ve passed the word…absolutely NO birthday cakes around here!

8:00 a.m. - So much for my resolve…got to work and there’s a gorgeous vase of flowers on my desk from Phyllissann, a strawberry shortcake birthday cake from ? and HOMEMADE carrot cake from Phyllissann.  Okay…one piece… Really, how can you not eat at least one piece when someone makes it especially for your birthday?

1:00 - Okay, I skipped my yogurt for breakfast and had strawberry shortcake with real whipped cream.  Then I skipped my Lean Cuisine and had lucious carrot cake with cream cheese frosting.  I think it all comes out about the same….

14thApril

Rice Krispy Treat!

Snap, crackle, pop! That’s what my poor body is doing this morning. My neck and shoulders are stiff and I didn’t sleep well. Gotta get me some Tylenol PM today.

Gonna be a long one! Work, followed by staff meeting, bring the twins home, turn around and go back for ROTC Booster Club meeting. I’ll be lucky to get home by 7:00. At least, it should be easy to avoid bad foods today…I won’t have time to be tempted. I’ll take my yogurt and a LC and I’ll be lucky to get time to eat them.

All the family is headed home. Nephew commented on facebook that he was stuck in the airport yesterday afternoon. I was shocked to find a comment this morning that he’s still in airport pergatory. I’ve been there many times, kiddo. I feel your pain. SIL called last night and said they’re on the road. Headed back to New Orleans. Guess we’re going to have to drive up to Little Sister’s and pick up the RV but it isn’t happening today. They loved staying in the RV and said they’re going to get one. We’ll be able to get ourselves a convoy!

Hmmm…just got an email from Hulk Hogan. “Now you can grill every meal to perfection with the dishwasher safe 7 in 1 grill!” Didn’t even know Hulk knew me. Can’t believe he sent a personal message just for me!

Okay, girls, it’s off to the shower.

8:45 - Having Weight Watchers Amaretto Cheesecake yogurt for breakfast.  100 calories.  So far, so good.

12:15 - Got my WW Chicken Fettucini.  Not bad…340 calories.  Amazing how quickly the body responds.  Barely more than one day back on track and my clothes feel much better.  My pants don’t feel tight today and my blouse feels downright comfy!

Got up 20 minutes early this morning so I could take my coffee and soak in the spa. I didn’t get to yesterday because we were out of town all day with the family. I was going to go out there last night before I went to bed but DGS beat me to it. Doesn’t seem fair that after waiting three weeks for it to be fixed, the grandkids get the first soak. Still, it was nice out there this morning.

Had a good time yesterday with the family. My birthday is this Wednesday and they had a birthday cheesecake for me. Yeah, I need that.

Going to try my best to be good today. No promises of perfection. Just going to do the best I can with the added incentive of blogging this evening and reporting the results. Also going to try to find out about some yoga today.

6:15 - AAARRRGGGHHH!!! OMG! Sh*t!!! I stepped on the scales. Crap!! Now I KNOW I’m going to behave today.

6:45 - Ready for work and waiting for the twins to finish getting ready. I keep feeling this overwhelming compulsion to blog. As if that’s going to make the weight fall off….

8:30 - Sitting here at work trying to clean up paperwork covering my desk and eating yogurt for breakfast. Thanks, Joy and Susan, for the comments. I think I’m safe if I can just hide here in my teeny-tiny little office and blog.

11:00 - I’m starving! Why is it that I can get busy and go all day without eating a bite and then, when I say I’m going to diet, I’m immediately starving? I already ate my yogurt and it’s too early for lunch. There isn’t much to eat in here….Phylissann’s crappy Nutrisystem stuff (gag!), some coffee creamer, splenda, a jar of imitiation bacon bits (that has to be Phyllisann’s! I would never buy that crap!) a glad bag of Kashi Go Lean from 3 months ago, and some stale pretzels. Think I’ll munch on a couple of pretzels and try to keep the demons at bay for a while.

12:00 - Tried to eat some pretzels but muh mouff waff so dwyyyy ahh kwit. Now I’ve got my generic LC in the microwave. Looks like it’s 320 calories. Phyllisann came up and said she brought us carrot cake. I told her I couldn’t do it. She said it’s homemade.

I said, “You don’t understand. I’m a new woman. Full or committment and resolve. I don’t want it.”

She said, “You HAVE to! It’s HOMEMADE!

I said, “NO!”

She said “Just one bite! Seriously, you’ve GOT to take at least a bite! I made it for Easter. It’s totally HOMEMADE!”

skinny, little bitch….

7:30 - Okay, congratulations are in order.  I ate one bite of Phyllisann’s cake.  She was right.  It was really good and totally homemade but I managed to eat just one bite.  Seems like it’s always a challenge.  Everywhere I look I see Danger!  Came home and DH made dinner.  What’s he serving, you ask?  Breaded deep fried cod, breaded deep fried shrimp, breaded deep fried onion rings, deep fried curly fries, macaroni salad, and leftover potato salad from yesterday.  If it wasn’t so disgusting, it might actually be funny.  I couldn’t believe he’d fix a dinner like that!  Of course, he knew how bad it was.  He didn’t even argue when I said I was eating a LC and a carton of yogurt.

The day is almost over and I’m holding my own.

Happy Easter all you cute little marshmallow peeps!

Feeling much more optimistic this morning! The house is really clean. I got a ton of laundry done. I checked the spa and the water is tepid so it should be hot by this evening, and I’ve got a huge bowl of potato salad ready to go in the fridge. I didn’t get to make apple dumplings yesterday evening. I fully intended to but just ran out of time. DB and SIL didn’t make it over yesterday but I’ll see them today. I really don’t mind when someone says they might be over and I work my butt off cleaning the house just to have them not show up. My reward is a sparkly house!

Speaking of the house…it’s all quiet. I don’t get much solitude at home and I really enjoy it when I do. Sitting here drinking my coffee and everything looks clean and uncluttered. I guess I should get moving, however. I still want to make apple dumplings and we have to be at my sister’s house at noon so we have to leave here by eleven.

Taking all this yoga stuff to heart, ladies.  Anyone know a good starter DVD?  I’d love to have something to help work out all the kinks.

Hope you chickies have a wonderful Easter!

My back is killing me!  If nothing else gets done this weekend, we’ve got to get the spa fixed.  I’d love to take my coffee out there right now and slide down into a warm, bubbling spa and let the jets work out all the kinks.  The new cover came in over spring break.  In the process of waiting for the new cover, the heating element went out and the new one also came in over spring break.  All the pieces are here and it’s just a matter of getting it all put back together, filled with water, and ready to go!  Can’t say I’m looking forward to working those foam panels back into the vinyl cover.  Last time DS tried it, it ripped again.  We now have two covers.  The one that was repaired and ripped out again when he tried to slide it over the panels and the new one that just came in.  The rep from the spa cover place said, “You have to really work to get those covers on.  It’s not easy!”  I don’t care if it takes all day.  I’m getting the damn thing taken care of TODAY.  I miss my spa bigtime.

Trying to figure out what to fix for Easter dinner tomorrow.  I was going to take summer rolls but I made them for the potluck on Friday and they were good but they just didn’t seem to hit the spot.  I love them in the summer, crunchy little veggie wraps that I can keep in the fridge for dinner or a snack, but they just didn’t seem to work for me yesterday.  I don’t know.  I have lots of recipes that everyone enjoys.  I just need to make a decision.

Now…on with the soul searching…I don’t feel good at all!  My back is killing me.  My ankles and knees are killing me.  I feel sluggish and tired all the time.  I want to keep up with all my blog buddies and feel guilty that I haven’t been doing it very consistently because I really value all you chickies and consider you to be friends but it just seems like I’m being eaten alive these days.  Brandie, you have a point, I need to decide if I’m going to put myself first or wait until summer when things calm down.  I don’t think waiting is an option because I feel terrible.  I felt great when I was eating well and working out like crazy but now I’m caught up in this crazy loop where every day is consuming me and I get home and just want to crash on the couch and eat whatever happens to be handy.  Of course, if I’m going to eat crap in the evening, I can tell myself it doesn’t make much difference what I eat during the day because I already blew it the night before.  It seems like every day is compounding the problem.  Joy, you’re right about all the stuff I do.  I’m a busy lady and I know it but I’ve always been that way.  Type A personality, overachiever, always preferring to do things myself and make sure they’re right than to rely on someone else who doesn’t do the job the way it should be done.  My birthday is next week and I’m running toward 60 faster than I’d like but I’m also thinking it’s a little late in the game to try to change the way I am.  I’ve tried to slow down in the past but it’s just not something I’m very good at. 

The difference now is that I’ve always been able to handle it in the past and I’m finding it more and more difficult to keep juggling.  Not sure I can keep all the balls in the air anymore.  Other friends are noticing it, too.  They keep telling me I’ve got to slow down but I find it sooo difficult.  It just feels like I’m giving up and I don’t want to do that.  I keep dropping the things I enjoy in order to find time for all the things I feel like I have to do.  I don’t know who’s pulling my strings but I don’t feel like it’s me.  I’m giving so much of my time to work, chores, DH, and the twins that I don’t feel like there’s anything left.  This weekend, for example, I’m sitting here thinking about getting the spa fixed, cleaning the house, taking DGD shopping for her birthday and picking up a present for my nephew because we’ll be celebrating his birthday tomorrow. I’ve got to decide what I’m going to fix to take to dinner tomorrow and then go to the store, come home and prepare it.  That means today is totally consumed and we have to get up in the morning and drive an hour to get to my sister’s for Easter.  My brother is here with his family and we rarely get to see them, my nephew will be coming in from Alaska and we never get to see him and my mother is really getting up there in age so I have to spend the day with them.  At the same time, I’m thinking about all the stuff that I need to do here at home and feeling this vague resentment that I’m going to be consumed all weekend with NO time for myself.  A day with all the family should be a wonderful treat but I’m feeling like I just don’t have time for it!  I’m also thinking that I’d like nothing better than to sit here and catch up on everyone’s blog but I’ve already used up all my free time doing my own blog!

soul searching…soul searing…where is Sistah Pat in all this chaos? 

9:45 - Little brother just called.  He, SIL, and DN are coming to town today to meet his two kids from his first marriage and grandkids for a day at the zoo and Chuckie Cheese’s.  Wanted to know if we’d be home this evening so they could drop by.  Love him dearly but SIL has only been to my house once before so that means I have to do a super dooper cleaning today on top of all the other stuff I have to do.  See what I mean?  It just seems like I can’t get a break.  No more time for this…I’ve got to get to work.

10:45 - Every square inch of the downstairs bathroom is white glove clean.  “Company” rugs and towels in place.  Two loads of laundry washed, dried, folded, and put away. 

11:15 - Whoo Hooo!  The panels are in the new spa cover.  Not nearly as difficult as I thought it would be.  I still take issue with the repair they did on the old cover.  It DID NOT fit anymore after they “repaired” it by restitching the seams.  There was absolutely NO play in it like there was in this new one.  Instead of trying to work it in a quarter inch at a time like we had to do with the “repaired” cover, the panels easily slid into the new cover with a minimum of resistance.

1:30 - The living room is clean, the kitchen is clean, my bedroom is clean.  The downstairs guest room that DS has been living in for the past 9 months is a total loss.  No sense in trying.  I’ll just have to barricade the door.  Two more loads of laundry have been washed, dried, folded, and put away.  Now I’ve got to get a shower and get myself cleaned up.  Yes, chickies, it’s 1:30 and I still haven’t had a shower.

5:00 - Potato salad is done, I look totally fab (for a chubby old woman whose back aches, ankles ache, and is tired to the bone!) and I’m going to make apple dumplings in a few minutes.  Haven’t had a chance to eat anything today so I guess it doesn’t matter what I eat for dinner.  Haven’t heard anything from DB or SIL but the house is clean whether they show up or not.  I’ve got another couple loads of laundry that I’d like to get done this evening and I guess I can call it a day.  Oh, yeah, the spa is fixed!  It been filled with water, the cover is back on, and it should be hot by this time tomorrow.  Whoo Hooo!