Sistah Pat

A group of teachers here at the school are starting a “Biggest Loser” thing where we pay $10.00 a week and it goes on for ten weeks. Winner take all! I’m not interested because I’m not about to dish out my money so it can be grabbed by a 27 year old Male teacher who has 150 pounds to lose. We’re talking big bucks here because the winner will wind up with a BIG chunk of money (16 people have already signed up). I’m being told that it’s fair because it will be based on percentages and I’m telling them it’s not fair because a 57 year old woman who needs to lose 40 pounds doesn’t stand a chance against a 27 year old man who needs to lose 150 pounds. So…everyone’s asking how we figure out what’s fair. I don’t know….I looked on the internet to see if I could find any way of calculating weight loss that takes gender, body fat, and age into consideration and I’m not finding anything. Anyone got any ideas?

4:30 - Home again. Thanks for all the advice. I don’t think I’m going to participate at the school. I’m not sure exactly what would be fair and I really don’t think I’d stand much of a chance of winning so I feel like I’d be throwing my money away. It would be worth it, even if I didn’t win, if it kept me motivated but I don’t think it’s going to motivate me because I have a pretty strong feeling that I couldn’t possibly win so I don’t think it would work to my advantage. If they were going to work out together or form a support group or something, it would be worth it but they’re not doing anything but paying and weighing. Don’t think that’s going to get me motivated.

I want to spend some time rethinking and making new goals but I’m being run ragged again. I have an hour or so and then I have to go back to school. Tomorrow, I’m going to exercise! At least I’ve kept to my diet today!

Have to leave in a few minutes but I took a look at Anngirl’s blog and it made me start thinking:

Ann:  “It’s so hard to wish you weren’t as big as you are now. It’s hard to look in the mirror and NOT be repulsed by your own reflection. The worst thing about it is that it’s no one’s fault but your own. So every time you pass by something you would normally eat - it eats at you a little because you CAN’T have it.

Because all of those shouldn’ts end up distorting your body and ultimately wreaking havoc on your self esteem.”

I got to thinking about that and it came to me that we’re all a bunch of winners!  We’re winners because we deal with this all the time.  We don’t give up.  We keep fighting the good fight even though we’re sick to death of it.  If we didn’t try, then we could wreak havoc on the self esteem.  We do, though.  We try.  We keep fighting.

All the women in my family are obese.  That’s the way it is.  That’s the way I’m genetically engineered.  Still…I’ve dieted and exercised my entire adult life and that’s the only reason that I was able to keep my weight fairly controlled.  Even now, I suppose I should be much heavier than I am but I keep trying to get rid of another forty pounds.  I’m 57 years old and I have bad ankles but I keep trying.  That’s something to feel good about.  We fight a good fight, chickies.